dad died in May this year....should I be getting better with grief?

I’m so sorry that your dad died, Valentina. My heart goes out to you. The tornado of emotions you’re going through must be unbearable, and they are too overwhelming to handle on your own. You're going through a roller coaster, a whirlpool, and a maelstrom of emotions as you go through these stages of grief. You have to go through all 5 stages to heal.

Denial (You don’t feel the emotions about death yet)

Anger (why is this happening to me?)

Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)

Depression (I don't care anymore)

Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

I suggest that you go to a meeting of GriefShare. There are thousands of meetings world wide. I've put a link below. You'll meet people who have gone through what you're going through, and they can help you heal.

No, you can't move past this. He was your dad for Pete's sake. I feel bad for you, sorry for your loss. But no, cry all you want Valentina. It's good to let feelings out. Try to think about good things about him! It helps a little to remember how much of a good dad he was and all of the good stuff he has done. Don't be ashamed to cry about it. It's family, everyone cries. I think if you try to act tough about it and stuff then you are ashamed to show sympathy for that person you so called loved, youre a coward. But I am not taking about you, seeing as you don't try so hard to act abnormally tough. Think about good things and it gets easier. Doesn't go away, but gets easier. Good luck to you, I hope I helped.