unless i honestly try to look as office like as possible to my assessment?

I JUST TRIED ON A BLACK SCARF MADE INTO A LONG BANDANA AND IT LOOKS STUPID!!! AND IF I DONT WEAR THE END BIT TIED MORE AT THE FRONT A MENTAL HEALTH CASE COULD GET VIOLENT AND WORRY THAT THEY WILL PULL MY FROM THE BACK!!! IVE HEARD ABOUT IT IN KARATE!!!

DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! HELP!!! OR SAME AS LAST TIME THE MOST SENSIBLE INNER COMPANION SAYS TO ME!!! DONT ALL MENTAL HEALTH CASE PEOPLE JUST WANT SOMETHING WARM AND COSY TO WEAR ALL DAY!!! AND THAT WAS THE NICER ONE!!! I EVEN WORRY ABOUT THAT THOUGH!!! IVE GOT LIKE ONE OTHER GREY TRACKSUIT AND MARIA JUST STARTS ON ME!!! THEY ALL MIGHT!!! A BIT SCARED!!!

THATS WHY I THINK IT IS TO DO WITH THE PIRATE COSTUME!!! I DONT WANT PEOPLE TO ATTACK ME WHEN IM OFFICALLY SUPPOSE TO BE WARM AND COSY AND CRAZY BUT AT HOME!!!

GET A RIGHT EAR BASHING FROM HER!!! THEN IT ALL KICKS OFF WHEN IM TOO RELAXED!!! THEN IM SUDDENLY A MENTAL HEALTH CASE DEALING WITH ENDLESS FORIEGN GRIEF!!!

ALL IVE GOT TO DO IS HOLD OUT A BIT MORE!!! BE BRAVER AND GET THIS CLASSIC PIRATE LOOK ON HOWEVER **** IT LOOKS!!!

I SAYS TO MYSELF IN THE CAR THIS MORNING MAYBE I WOULD WEAR THE **** ONE FIRST ANYWAY STARTING COMPLETELY FROM SCRATCH AND WORKING UP IN A BUSINESS SENSE!!!

JUST TRYING TO GET MY HEAD AROUND THAT ASPECT ANYWAY!!! THEY ALL LOOK A BIT ROUGHED UP IF IM NOT OVERLY CAREFUL!!!

THEN TO TOP IT OFF LES SEEMS TO WANT TO BE SAT RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!! HE SAYS IN THE GARDEN HES THE MENTAL ONE!!! IM LIKE BLOODY TYPICAL!!! MY ONE CHANCE TO MAKE MYSELF NOT LOOK SO ABNORMAL AND I HAVE A NUTTER RIGHT BESIDE ME TRACKING MY EVERY MOVE!!!

I FEEL STRANGE ABOUT ALL OF THESE DAMN COSTUMES!!! TOTAL SOLOMNESS PREHAPS IS A GOOD WORD TO USE!!!

THE ONLY POSITIVE THING IM DOING EVEN WITHOUT PEOPLE WATCHING ME LIKE A HAWK IS THAT I AM STILL TRYING MY HARDEST TO KEEP AS CLEAN AND SOBER AND SMART AS POSSIBLE AND TOMMORROW IS JUST SOMEONE ELSE WANTING TO HAVE A FREE LOOK AT HOW FAR IVE GOT WITH IT!!! I DONT WISH TO PUSH ANY HARDER STRAIGHT FROM MY SICK BED TO BEING BULLIED IN AN OFFICE FULL OF PEOPLE MUCKING AROUND ALL DAY!!!

ALL THESE LISTED COSTUMES ARE SIMPLY IDEAS WHICH ARE POSSIBLY IN THE WRONG ORDER ANYWAY SO ILL PUT AWAY ALL THINGS NEATLY EVEN MAYBE RE-PACK MY BAG TO A EVEN SMARTER BLACK BAG IN A MINUTE AND REALLY STAY IN TODAY AND TOMMORROW WITHOUT ROUGHING IT TO TESCOS AND GET EVEN MORE STINK OFF ME!!! WE ARE TALKING ABOUT THAT ASWELL RIGHT NOW INDEED!!!

AND WHATEVER I LOOK LIKE TOMMORROW WILL JUST BE AS I FEEL LIKE TOMMORROW!!! AND WHAT THE WEATHER IS LIKE TOO!!! BOTH REALLY!!! THATS THE TWO MOST REALISTIC IDEAS I CAN MANAGE!!! I JUST HAVE TO BE BRAVER STILL AND TAKE IT ALL AS ANOTHER DAY OF ACTIVITIES!!! LIKE ALL THE OTHERS AROUND ME DO STUBBORNLY AND IGNORANTLY!!! THATS HOW THEY ROLL!!!

OR I FEEL LIKE IM THINKING ABOUT IT WAY TOO MUCH!!! SERIOUSLY!!! COME ON NOW!!!