I want to kill myself?

Killing yourself is never the answer.

Your mind is racing a thousand miles an hour, I would be confused as well if I were you.

One thing at a time...............lesson number 1.

Have you tried the best you can at school to get better grades? If you honestly have, so you repeat the grade....what is the worst that can happen yo you? You are not the only one, there are millions out there, did you think everybody passes?

At this time STOP thinking of an Ex girlfriend....many will come and go in your life until you're ready to settle down.

Maybe you were trying too hard to get a job and that's why you didn't put enough effort into your studies???

Buddy, you are thinking suicide. Your self esteem sucks, you feel like you have no worth. You think there is no reason to bother with life as you will always suck. Am I correct?

Trust me, you are wrong. You have worth (just that fact that so many people have posted an answer means you are cared about). The problem is that, as you point out, you have been depressed for years. Depression actually does much more than make you sad: it also screws up your self-perception (makes you feel like you are worthless, which it is not true), it causes problems with cognition, memory, and decision making (hence, your grades go down), and removes motivation. Does that sound like you? Of course it does.

The depression has been making you a victim. It has been tying you down and beating you into submission -into giving up.

Here is the thing: Depression is one of the easiest medical condition to treat! Yep, I said medical condition. Depression is caused by a biological issue.

Therefore, you need to see a psychiatrist and seek treatment (if you have a disorder). The purpose of hte psychiatrist is to put you back in charge of your own life.

BTW: Go to a university (they have more services). They will have a student mental health center. Also, register with Disabled Student Services: they will help ensure your depression does not drag down your grades.

Start by praying and surrendering your life to Jesus. He is the one who loves you and gave his life for you so you could be redeemed. He came to set the captive free. Looking at the present circumstances is fatal. That's not the way to handle it. You need to seek to know the Lord and learn to pray and rely on the Lord. I'll give you some verses to think about in John, then read the whole chapter of John.

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+1...

I used to think about killing myself all the time and to be honest i still think about It here and there but I guess drugs really helped me and I know I'll get **** for this but they really did and other druggies are really great people and they might look hardcore but they're really accepting and non judgmental so try talking to some

call a suicide hotline and never give up. theres always a chance in life you just gotta keep living and be the best you can be and give your best effect.