my crush is mad at me and wont talk to me?

so basically i stopped smoking cigarettes a month ago and just this past week ive gone through a lot of stress and im not happy about this but i started up again. my crush (my best friend) influenced me to stop. he told me if he didnt care about me he wouldnt be so concerned of my cigarette smoking or senarios that occur in my life. i was afraid to tell him i started up again so i didnt say anything. The day him and I and a friend were sopossed to hangout i was going to bring my pack with me and tell him face to face i started smoking again. but that same day he had heard from one of our friends that i started smoking again. and he told me that he heard that 3 hours after we were sopossed to hangout. in those 3 hours he ignored me and our friends calls and texts.i sent him a sincere apology today. AND yesterday.. still no reply. and i know he saw the message and is just ignoring me. He knows that im going through a lot right now and today was my last day to see anyone or talk to anyone before i leave to get help with my depression. i told him that.. and i still have no responce from him. i thought he would have atleast wanted to say SOMETHING to me. so now.. tomorrow im cutting off my contacts for a week (its not my choice) and im constantly going to be thinking about this and how mad he must be at me. i have enough going on and i hate having this extra guilt put on me