This is not a question, just my expression of my inner feelings.?

Like everyone, I have always wanted things. I have always appreciated the little things, the big things. I have pursued success, I tasted failure.

I know to get anything, you gotta work, sometimes work hard, sometimes work harder. You at times get it but at times you don't.

I don't know how it feels to get u. I don't know how it feels achieve something. Its just time and everyone goes through it. I know that because I've seen it. Although, i have also seen them achieve things when it was important to them. I don't know how it feels. Its out there i know, but am out there too, does it know.

Today am 29, last year of my twenties. My childhood has been seeing things not happening, i was a child and that was better, cuz i never bothered. My teens came in, but things did not. Thought, its just time, told its a passing phase. My teens passed, i changed... My life and the time never did. Entered my twenties, with my past my present. I was told its still a passing face. Got irritated, frustrated and cried, things changed.

Now, things i want are shown to me, allowed to touch it, but its snatched away, its more cruel now.

Now am entering thirty... I just realised, my past was not only my present, but my future.

I still feel it will change, because we humans sadly are hopeful fools. I know am staring ay another disappointment... But, i am well acquainted. Nevertheless, it still pains and hurts like a *****.

Its my birthday today... A new year... A new set of pain on its way.