Do I have depression?

It can be depression, but it is also part of growing and maturing. We all change in life especially when we get into our 20s. The fact you have a good job, your own place and transportation is a good sign. Friends are only part of your life and I'm certain you can find new people to be with. It is also possible you are not focusing on a future goal or something to keep you feel challenged. The happy care-free world as a teenager will always be replaced by maturing and moving on with life. It is not depression but getting a focus on your new life and finding things to make it more interesting.

forget the past and live your future and try making new friends why not ? :D ur 20

u work u have a house and a car and thats already amazing get a girlfriend maybe ? go on a holidays and socialize im 13 btw but please take my talk like adults btw i was bullied for 6 yeats from my classmates and i had no friends but i got over it and then they all now wanna be my friends just stay true for urself and be who u r and try even doing new stuff and if u think that u dont have a point in ur life then why do u have it ?? :D just socialize and try doing new stuff everyday ur 20 already you can do everything you need i cant wait to grow up to be an amazing woman :) and leave my parents XD i hope this helped :)

When you say you have no one to call & talk to I notice you didn't mention family. Do you have parents you could call. When I first married & moved far away from my parents to be where his work was I called my mom every weekend or sometimes they called me. I would not have been as happy in my new state had I not talked to them weekly. We chatted long distance for an hour or more each week. I had lived there right up to the wedding & I am an only child. We also flew twice a year to stay at their place a week. They were by the beach. Great free beach getaway. My parents & I were very close. On the other hand my 2 married sons stayed 10 mins away from me & they do not answer the phone, return calls, return texts so I haven't seen one of them since Oct. 2013 at his wedding even tho he's 10 mins away. The older one who I used to be able to chat with on the phone a couple times a week doesn't reply to calls.

Try calling your mom & dad wherever they are. I think you will be surprised how much it does for you.

Those bonds never die unless you let them & then it doesn't feel like anything if you try later as there is no connection to speak about. Call home. Regularly. Talk about work. Talk about your place.

Next thing, what do you like to do? Anything? What about swimming? That seems to be my thing from the beach. I love pools. Indoor pools. Oudoor pools. Not a great way to meet anyone but something you can love alone. What about reading. I am slammed busy but I have renewed my love of reading & check out books out of the library frequently. Can't put them down. Esp. the Chet & Bernie mysteries. Facebook was starting to really depress me as I was watching my son do the same things with his friends that I had asked to do with him & he refused. His wife was at work with the only car one night & I wanted to try a new restaurant but am a woman so didn't want to go alone. I invited him along my treat & offered to pick up the tab. He said no. They live in a 1 bedroom efficency & can't afford to keep the a/c at a comf temp since he won't work. Only she works. For him to want to stay home in a hot apt. w/o a car at his use while she won't be home for hours instead of getting out with me for a few mins was painful. And I ended up eating somewhere else that I didn't mind alone. Golden Corral buffet. Loved it. But then every time I get on FB there are pics of him enjoying others company. I have been bringing them over used clothing in cartons. I can't even call ahead & save a wasted trip over if their not home.

So I once just threw the carton of stuff over the railing on their 1st floor porch when they wouldn't answer. They need & want the clothing. I had been texting & leaving voice mails since 24 hours before to make sure I wouldn't haul the heavy boxes to the car & not find them home. When I do this I have my 200 pound alzheimer's dad (their grandfather) in the car with me & space is very limited. He has a wheelchair & walker. He did not reply to any of the texts or voice mails to let me know when I could bring it. When I got there I asked y didn't he let me know & he says he hasn't looked at his phone in ages. Yah right.

Anyway, long or far please do not let this happen to you with your parents. It is a lack of caring about them & it is confusing for them as you once loved them. I don't advise it. It depresses the parent & is sometimes painfully confusing. Then to see them on FB enjoying the things you would kill to do with them puts you in a deep abyss.

This feeling is your soul. You have a soul thristing for God! God is calling you into an intimate relationship with him, only he can give you the meaning your looking for in life. Read the Gospels in the bible and go to Mass on Sundays. Be a blessing to others and praise his holy holy name! Your life will change. Christ Jesus is my rock and I live in the world but I am not of it.

The thoughts and experiences you have mentioned are suggestive of a depressive illness. Contact your GP or a qualified Psychiatrist. They should be able to help!