Home cures for depression?

Hey everyone, I was wondering if anyone had any advice on what worked for you when it came to depression? I'm looking for non drug cures as I would rather not be dosed up on medication. I have two children to look after..this isn't the first time I have felt this way and frankly I just need someone to tell me that there are ways to help!I'm tired of feeling like the day is too long, when I'm so lucky to have a loving husband and two healthy children. I feel selfish that I could even begin to feel down..and yet it creeps up on me at regular intervals during my life and I'm just so fed up. I'd love to wake up in the morning and feel serene, instead of having anxiety attacks that take my breath away. I feel like I don't want to see anyone and holding down stable friendships has become impossible. I alienate myself from fear I'll just feel worse after. I know I'll just go home and obsess over 'I shouldn't have said this' or 'I shouldn't have done that' and I hate myself. So I avoid it altogether. I've tried counseling but where I live it's very expensive. Any tips or personal stories would be much appreciated. Thank you