My life and its demons (help)?

Well it sounds like you have had a hard road thus far. If you want you can contact me and we can further discuss your issues. You may contact me through my profile. Everyone one has bad days and good days. You can't let the bad mess with the good. People are who they are and those guys that bully you won't be in your life forever as they will go on their way and you will go yours.

So I did the last one myself and all that weight sliced 4 fingers on one hand and was dripping blood. The bullies laughed and the teacher told me to not get blood on his floor, since then they teased me about not getting hurt. At the end of the year I was doing a project for photography so I could graduate. I borrowed my helpers SLR camera and in metals I drew on the board to take a picture of for my project, the bullies erased it 3 times, then I put down the camera and shoved him, he shoved me back. I felt tons of adrenaline but somehow stopped sat in the hallway and cried for several minutes. During my senior year I made a strong metal shelf and red wagon with a small oak floor. I went past regionals then went to state and got best of show for my wagon beating a 5x8 trailer and both got 1st place. At 19 I graduated high school never went to prom or had a girlfriend. At 21 I finally stopped denying I was circumcised. After researching I became extremely horrified, furious/angry, envious and completely helpless. I never imagine someone could do something so sick and fked up. Many times I was shaking and felt sick. My family is dark, has no shame or understanding in there black heart. I moved to my grandparents and have been living here for 3 years now. Jobs came and went. I hear Jesus this to god this about 50 times a day or either told atheists are evil people that are going to hell or tell me I need Jesus in my life. About a year ago I was so excited I found $250 worth of Magic the Gathering cards that were barely worn that were going to be thrown away during a warehouse internship. I took it home so happy I found them and showed it to my grandparents. A month later I was wondering where they were and got a gut feeling, I knew exactly what happened. They told me it invited satan and his demons into the house. I was fkin furious and in January of 2015 I found and watched some The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug about the time the gold statue melted/fell (can't remember) my grandmother came in and flipped out and told me to turn it off because "That thing (Smaug) looks evil" (invited the devil etc.) I was pissed off and only turned it off because I didn't want to ruin it for me. So all I can think of is dragons have never harmed me in any way what so ever and that religion is evil to its fking core, not to mention the religious always destroying all my happiness every chance they get and I have deep resentment. Recently I have been thinking about circumcision, to much of my anger I found out females are referred to at mutilated and males as just simply circumcised (and totally legal). I found tugging and "Unspeakable Mutilations - Circumcised men speak out". As much I am trying to deal with it, I can't help being extreamly angered by it. I am hoping Forgen (science) will fix such things like gods horrible mistakes like circumcision and general biology...All it takes is religion to ruin someones life, harm and kill and to get them from using their brain and call it good/gods will. Im an only child, my depression, isolation and loneliness only grows...