Mentally a girl?0_o?

Why the hell inside my head when I try to talk inside me head to myself does it come out as if a woman says it or a little spoiled girl for example I'm eating food my mind strays and thinks an unwanted thought that would be like I don't want this chicken but I want a meatloaf only when my mind says it it sounds like a whiny spoiled little girl it happens a lot and it ****** angers the ****** daylights out of me or I'm saying something like that's harsh and it comes out sounding like a woman has said it.. only in my head though this angers me also ...I feel like finding this voice and ****** killing it it's so ****** annoying I'm getting pissed just talking writhing about it