Schizophrenia or what? Who to tell if at all? What is wrong with me?

"I was lying in my bed, I started to feel scared, for no reason. And then it started with the face of a man i didn t know. His face hung in the air for about a second, but I still remember exactly what it looked like. I can t get him out of my head. After a second, the face began to move swiftly towards me. when on front of me it disappeared, leaving it s awful grin stuck in my head. And then more and more faces began appearing and disappearing in front of me, only they were slightly different each time, and began to move faster and faster. By the time they began to slow, and become clearer, the face had changed to the face of The Joker. I don t know why. Every time a face disappeared in front of me, I reacted as if I had been hit. My whole body flinched as if I had the hiccups. When I closed my eyes, I couldn t see them but I still felt the flinch , as if they really were hitting me. I know this was some kind of hallucination, because I stretched out my fingers towards the end of it, and I was defiantly awake. But I know it wasn t real. However, the main thing I am worried about is the fact that I wanted it to happen again, happen all the time. I see a therapist once a week for something different, I don t have a diagnosis.

I want there to be something mentally wrong with me.

Also, every time I walk into a room my dad s in, but I hear no noise, I see images of him lying bloodied on the floor.

Is this just my subconscious, because I want a diagnosis so badly?