I'm starting new. I'm going to go to therapy for depression and stuff. Should I throw out my old suicide notes and stuff?

No, don't throw them away. Speaking from experience, there's no such thing as a new start. Going to therapy/counseling won't magically change the way your brain and body work, and depression is never something you can cure. You just learn how to manage it. Winston Churchill (British Prime Minister during World War II) suffered from depression, and he called it the "black dog." I find that metaphor to be very appropriate, because depression can't really be gotten rid of. Rather, like a dog, it follows you around and makes itself known from time to time, often rather violently and at inconvenient times, but with patience and persistence it CAN be trained.

I have been battling depression for so long, I don't even remember when it started. I do remember it was in elementary school, maybe fourth or fifth grade. I have good days, weeks, or even months, but I also have had bad days, weeks, months, and even years where every day is a battle to get up and keep on pushing through my life and routine. I have considered suicide three times, that I can remember, where those "times" were usually a few weeks of being suicidal, mulling over throwing my car off an overpass, or closing the garage door while the engine's running, or shooting myself... Those memories never go away, nor do I want them to. Yes, those periods were difficult and terrifying, but they have made me who I am. I understand myself better having gone through those trying times and survived, and am able to understand what other people are going through. I've realized I'm stronger than I thought I was, and have even found some measure of purpose using my experience to help educate people who don't suffer from depression and guide people who do.

You can talk to your therapist about tossing out those notes, but I don't think you should yet. Those notes might help give them some insight into what's going on in your head. There may be a time when you can tear them up or burn them in a symbolic cathartic ritual, but for now, you need to be honest with yourself and with your therapist to get the best results.

Yes. Not just throw out the negative stuff, but create positives too! If you like to write, do that, or make some art, music or something new! Life can be such a strain, but the harder it is the better your solutions will be! I hope so! Enjoy your life as best you can, if that means painting watercolours outdoors, or watching movies and eating mcdonalds it doesn't matter! Have from from today onwards, the past passed

My advice to you would be to slowly change into a new person instead of all of a sudden just starting fresh. I think you should try and work on your suicidal thoughts and depression first before anything.

And yes you should throw out those suicide notes because they can be triggering and bring back negative memories.

Yeah that would be a good start