I really wanna die, but I don't want to commit suicide. The world is full of **** and I'm not having it.?

Get off the road you're going down. Trust me, it's the wrong way to go. I have (almost had) the same problem, but with the right attitude it'll get better, trust me. If you keep saying you want to die, chances are one day you WILL want to commit suicide, and you will regret every choice that has brought you to that moment. My advice: get the hell out of the shell you put yourself in before it's too late. Just come out of your shell!! Everybody has likeable qualities about them, you just need to let them out. And btw, life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. Life is what you make it: have you ever heard this saying before? It's true! If you think positive, you'll feel good, and I have learned this from my therapist. For example, I get really paranoid bc I have visions of my future (of course they're fake), but I ignore it and tell myself that I'll deal with anything bad when/if it happens; other than that go with the flow. it will be worth it, life is good :) <3

Chicken.

This is the problem with medication.

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Or go to a counselor

ok.