do i still have a chance on her?

You need to make friends with her so she knows you an that ur not weird to her. I know its hard to but you need to try, I hope you get to be her friend and maybe more, I have social anxiety too what helps is to pretend ur confident when you are actually terrified and people will not notice

hope I helped

You are weird. Get over it and Man Up!

First, anti depressants can make you feel suicidal.. if you are on anti-depressants, and feel this way, you need to stop taking them, or at least tell your doctor and get a different kind. From what I have read they don't really work, and your experience has just shown this - if it isn't working, consider stopping - all pills have side effects on the rest of your body.. I am not trying to depress you more, but anti depressants increase your risk of heart problems and cancer.. you say they aren't working - so do your body a favor and stop taking them..

The problem with medication is that it can mask a problem, but no pill can ever make you happy.. and isn't that what you really want - to be happy? Realize you will never get that from a pill or a drug.

depression is a feeling

- our thoughts CREATE the feelings

- when you think negative, self defeating thoughts, then, you are going to feel depressed and defeated. Likewise, if you think positive, self affirming thoughts, they you will FEEL happier.

- this is the way feelings work, it is the ONLY way they work..

what this means is that no THING, or no PERSON can make us feel happy - happiness is an emotion, and it is created by our thoughts.. so, money can't make you happy. Better friends, more success, better grades, a fast car, a nice house, a life with no problems - NONE of this can make you happy.. only your thoughts make you feel happy.

- the good news is that what we think about every waking moment of the day is a CHOICE we make. We DECIDE what to think about.

- too many people just let their emotions run the show, and rule their lives, but that isn't how it is supposed to be! the mind is a TOOL that you are meant to use! You CAN control what you think about..

- negative thinking is a HABIT - habits can be changed!

- negative thoughts are like little brats that want all your attention, but you absolutely do not have to give it to them.

- thinking negative solves NOTHING, changes, NOTHING.. it is a complete and utter waste of your time and energy - in every situation.. there is NEVER a time where negative thinking is helpful.. never..

- if you want to FEEL happy, you must change how you THINK.. how you think about life, about yourself, about your problems etc.. change your thoughts, and you change your life..

How to change your mindset

step 1 - a negative thought comes to mind "my life sucks. I will never be happy"

step 2 - stop right there and reply "No. I refuse to think this way. This way of thinking serves no useful purpose. This way of thinking doesn't HELP or CHANGE anything. It is pointless, so I refuse to do it!

step 3 - CHANGE YOUR FOCUS to something positive and self affirming "Negative thoughts don't control me. I CONTROL ME! I decide what to think about.. sure, my life has problems, just like everyone else on the planet - but by setting goals, I can overcome those problems. I am capable of changing the way I think. I can LEARN from past mistakes. I CAN have a better life."

see how this works? First you recognize negative (useless) thoughts, then you shut them down, and replace them with positive self affirming SOLUTIONS..

When you have a problem "THINK MORE ABOUT THE BAD STUFF" solves nothing.

The solution is always going to be an action. "more thinking' keeps you stuck in a problem, and because you are 'indulging' those negative thoughts, you just feel worse and worse.. but action moves you forward, renews your energy and enthusiasm for life, it gives you hope to TRY.. so you must act, not get bogged down in thinking about the bad stuff..

Actions I recommend you take:

- read books on positive thinking (the library is full of these!) With each book you read you will learn new ways of thinking.. and overtime you will literally rewire your brain to be positive, instead of negative.. you will one day wake up and realize you are a different person!

- practice recognizing negative useless thoughts and replacing them with positive self affirming ones.. the more you practice the faster you will develop a more positive way of thinking

- set goals - and focus on those goals - not on your problems..

- start treating yourself as your own best friend. What this means is that you cannot put yourself down anymore.. no more name calling, no more bullying, no more insults etc.. the ego is a fragile thing - think of it as a little child that lives inside of you - when you put yourself down, the ego gets scared (of you!), this leads to self doubt, low self confidence, low self esteem.. but stop the abuse (because that is what it is) and you will feel better! Your ego relaxes and you start to gain confidence etc..

Let's look at an example of how this works:

You find yourself thinking, " I wish I was smarter" , now, I ask you, would you ever say to a good friend "gee, I wish you were smarter!" ??? No - instead you would encourage and support your friend, you would give him a little pep talk.. you would say something like "Hey, I like you just the way you are, and others like you too, but if you want to be smarter, then why not study lots of subjects and read more books?"

You see how this answer is positive, self affirming, goal oriented, solution driven? THIS is the way you want to talk to yourself ALWAYS.. if you screw up, LEARN from your mistakes, refuse to beat yourself up.. learn to accept that we are not perfect, and never will be.. we all make mistakes, we need to accept ourselves and others for being human/weak/foolish/irrational

Focusing on problems doesn't help. Neither does focusing on the past - in order to move forward you have to be looking to the future, and that means setting goals..

Don't give up - CHANGE the way you think..