why would she be acting this way?

we are both closet lesbians, she is married I'm single, she denies her feelings, I dont. She makes out with me everytime I make a move on her, than she says theres no future, or she says no relationship , or this is wrong shes married, why is she acting on her emotions on me everytime.... I'm so hurt .. I dont know what she wants

I am so hurt from all of this confusion. She always says she wants me to come, as her pleasuring me and she thinks I never had an orgasm. Now why does she want to pleasure me, when she knows I want a future with her....