Why do i like being alone now.....?

All my life ive been institutionalised i meet people in one big swoop then i go from there i aint proud of the things i do to earn money but i find work on the building site has become hard i dont like factory work and aint hansom enough to work in bars no more....

Spiritually im a kind soul....

Im told im extremly funny and i find it easy to make people laugh especially women....

But i dont have many friends there all acquaintance's i look on fb and see some people are popular i admire that its for a reason obviously i feel people talk to much i have more a dark life where people choose to be mean....

And bully poke fun call each other names be hurtfull fight argue.....

The odds sometimes are so overwhelming but im humble in that sense aparently the pain you course others in your time on earth in life you will see and feel in death.....i hope thats true is all i ask