Do I really want to have a baby?

This is a bizarre question/scenario, I know.

I have bipolar disorder and my husband and I have been talking about having a baby for about a year. Up until recently I’ve been fairly hesitant because of the whole BD and other factors like work, money, etc. Over the last few months I finally got my BD under control with a new medication, but in the first couple weeks that medication triggered a “hypomanic” episode where I felt like I could conquer the world. Now I’ve stabilized and I feel great. And all of a sudden like a light switch, I’m seriously into the idea of having a baby.

With BD it’s so hard to trust my emotions because of all the ups and downs. Do I really feel this way or am I manic again? Medication or not mood swings still happen... any thoughts?