What is the point of life? Depression? "Pedophilia?" ?

Society has brainwashed you into thinking the arbitrary scribbling on a statute has any objective merit to what is right or wrong. 

Murder has always been murder. Theft has always been theft. Rape has always been rape. But the lines of legal age and age disparity have always been blurred and fluid. There is no objectivity in specifying a distinct, singular age of legal consent. There is no context and no examination of the parties involved. 

To put an exact age figure on legal consent is nothing more than an arbitrary guideline that is often left solely to the discretion of the administering government body. To understand just how absurdly irrelevant this determination is, ask yourself this: would you still feel bad having done the same thing if you lived in a country where the legal age was several years younger ? 

To dig even deeper, let us take a reality check and look at the observable fact that the vast majority of men are sexually attracted to the "form" of female anatomy that has reached a reproductive level of maturity. This is purely biological, we would not have survived without those instincts. Yet this level of physical maturity often occurs in women earlier than the specified legal age- Now, does that change the fact that men are still attracted to that form ? No, of course not, it only changes on paper. Does this make you evil or a bad person, No, it just means you are human. 

With that phenomena, we now have the mass hypocrisy of modern men desperately trying to convince themselves that by virtue-signaling protest against the smallest of age disparities that they are absolving themselves of these thoughts and urges that goes against society's own conflated and perfunctory moral value system. 

Yes there should be a line in the sand somewhere, but certainly not an exact age range where you cannot discern whether they are 16, 18 or 25. That kind of system is just begging to trap men into situations where the person resembles a fully mature, sexually active women, but could just as easily be several years over or under legal age and therefore prison-bait. 

There is not enough context in law for these circumstances to make any logical sense. It's a complex issue, but the current legislation is barely more than arbitrary nonsense. And society has become so woke and morally insecure that they bought into it hook, line and sinker. According to this logic, you have relations a single day earlier and you're a foul evil pedophile, And just one day later you're just a normal couple... 

On this issue: 

So you found a 16 y/o attractive at 19. That's normal dude, well at least it is if you're a normal heterosexual male. Something you need to understand is that there are two separate realities these days- The real world, in which you are straight-up honest with yourself, your friends and surroundings. Then there is social media- the land of the fake, woke, indoctrinated sheeples, all suckling for the sweet milk that is approval from their peers. Unquestioning in their obedience to popular opinion and political correctness. Poised to expose and demonize anyone for anything as to them it's how they elevate their own self-worth and convince themselves of their own moral superiority. 

Just like homosexuality, "real" pedophilia is a just a genetic predisposition. To be afflicted does not make you evil. Knowing it's wrong and acting on it is where you cross that line. What you are talking about is completely normal. Don't hold that against yourself. 

tide pods have an answer for that

Please make an appointment with a licensed mental health professional if you believe that you're having thoughts of pedophilia and/or attraction towards underage girls (and/or boys).  

Even if someone engages in sexual activity with a minor that is just below the age of consent, such as if the minor is just under age 18 (which 17 yrs may be the case for a lot of U.S. states), the adult (such as yourself) may still get arrested, and if convicted or pleads guilty, may have to register as a sex offender indefinitely.  

Those on the sex offender registry (even for "statutory rape") can have much more limited job opportunities than the typical person.  That's just another reason to seek outside professional help before doing something inappropriate, which may be especially damaging for the underage person too.

The following website should have some local counseling agencies, especially for either a licensed *clinical psychologist* (PhD or PsyD) or a *licensed-clinical social worker* (LCSW), either of whom may provide an "official" mental health diagnosis, and/or utilize cognitive-behavioral therapy (cbt), for instance, which may help deal with how one's thoughts affect one's behavior.

A board-certified psychiatrist (M.D. or D.O.) or even a psychiatric-mental health nurse practitioner (NP) may administer a mental health evaluation, and/or prescribe medication for those with mental health issues, such as if recommended:

https://findtreatment.samhsa.gov/

Their toll-free 24/7 ** referral ** hotline:

1-800-662-HELP (4357).

You know how you feel. If a man is a pedo they cannot help it BUT they know it is wrong and they should not act on those desires.

There are decoy people who get paid to catfish on the internet to catch people out.

16 is not too bad BUT I hope you do not fancy anyone younger. If you do you must NEVER act on those feelings.

I wouldn't tell anyone outside of the Internet about your pedophilia thoughts but you need to understand that what you think is not always something you wanna carry out. I would just simply focus on your life and move on from this

when you troll try to make it look less realistic, the FBI is probs on their way bro

Depression has a way of putting unrealistic, disturbing ideas in our minds. The appeal of teenagers to grown men is common and NOT pedophilia. It's explained by the simple fact that males are instinctively attracted to females who are very fertile, and youth means fertility. I'm not saying it's right for middle-aged men to score with teenagers. Of course it's not. I'm just saying that fantasy has little to do with reality, as the vast majority of women who love 50 Shades of Gray can attest. 

Treatment usually begins by seeing the GP, who can give you a referral. I mention referral because just a bottle of pills is not a very good approach. The things you'd want to tell the doctor are how you feel at different times of day, any symptoms you might have such as change in appetite or sleep, and things in your life affecting how you feel.

If you're depressed, I can't tell you exactly what you need. There's no one size fits all solution. I can tell you though that there are healthy lifestyle choices that can enhance the effects of the standard treatments with office visits. Video, below - details about self-help based on cognitive-behavioral therapy and lifestyle choices that help with depression - nutrition, basic lifestyle things like sleep, exercise, and social support, also traditional Asian methods.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wqEM_jlDRZI

No just try to take summer courses etc that will be good . Especially online it's okay not to know anyone just feel good about the course and have fun ☺️