Nick

I all the time feel like my life is useless. Depression and darkness gets every inch of me, and pedophilia on the other hand, is depressing for me. I used to like a girl in my class that was in 10th grade, and I was in 12th supposed to be graduated. I'm definitely 4 years older than her, from my age range I was 19 when she was 16 (just turned). But, I ONLY used to LIKE HER. THAT WAS IT. Things are freaky that way in this world. However, I did like her friend the "other way", but I've said nothing to her. Can someone explain my dilemma with younger girls? (who are girls only) Will I HAPPILY get over IT? I can't stand the thought of being a criminal is like. But it's like a murderer with schizophrenia, I can't help it. No, I haven't had sex with a girl yet. But I've had relations with my sibling, who also said something about that we we're "related by marriage." But my even my Step-Mom disagrees.

Is it possible that I've come across being a demisexual? Is it possible to feel that way and have crushes on your female classmates, even on someone you don't even know? This question is AWKWARD, but could others who have felt demisexual feelings could have RAPE feelings? I have NEVER come across a feeling where I wanted to RAPE, but I have demisexual feelings towards someone. 

Does it depend? Why or why not do you think this way? If someone for example said they "stole" money from somewhere and if the chances are if they didn't, that means the answer is "no". Correct? Like for example, if someone commited a "crime" called pedophilia, and if they didn't do it, and the other person agreed that they we're not molested or raped, does that mean that they didn't do it or did they? And plus, if you criticize, I will report you. I'm asking a SERIOUS QUESTION. Does that mean that they were raped? Or not? Please tell mewhy or why not? Answer below. 

Kobe Bryant getting killed in a helicopter crash, or Magic Johnson getting AIDS?

The only way of quitting my anger is if I take marijuana in pill form. I also want to learn to draw, and play guitar. But, I don't FEEL LIKE sittin' there doing something miserable all day like masturbation while I'm traumatized. That's the most annoying shvt ever, I feel like KILLING MYSELF BECAUSE I WANT TO MASTURBATE SO DAMN MUCH. I fell into a deep depression, and I've felt like I've said something about my sister, and I don't want to go down that road again. What do you think I should do? I didn't do it, so get high or quit and practice peace and working on being a fighter? Which is first? 

I swear to God I'm an innocent guy with all the intelligence from having 'potential', or at least something my grandma says or my entire family because I have Asperger's syndrome. But my sister joked around with me saying we've had sex, and I believed her. But although, we technically didn't, I feel like she did something illegal towards me. She also has me really confused me about sh*t, I've never done or have felt like I've done everything wrong. My own mother reminds me of how f* cked up I am, which is freaky. I've also gotten confused about how stupid everything is, and I get so paranoid about sh*t. Oh, and get this. My mother flipped out at me because I've secretly messaged this girl on a dating site, and it turns out this girl has been real the whole time I've been sending a bot dirty sh*t. So, should I contact local law enforcement? I would personally have a state trooper knocking at her door if whatever on my and her's snapchat that was not deleted. I would have it deleted. I would also have an FBI agent to record this conversation to prove I'm not a pedophile. I have been to a 302 ward for this and I don't feel like listening to what a Mental HealthCare Worker does or what it's supposed to do because they're retarded....

I'm now 22, but I can get creative with band ideas and that the first one I can think of was a band idea for a post-grunge theme. But rock will always be my second favorite, next to real Heavy and Thrash Metal. Bands like the Big Four (Metallica, Megadeth, Slayer, Anthrax) or bands like Judas Preist or Black Sabbath which is traditonal. But my first metal bands were Twisted Sister, Guns N Roses, Motley Crue, Kiss, and Areosmith. I've also liked Quiet Riot alot. But I have so much culture for Death and Thrash Metal, even though I sadly like bands that are considered emo and post-grunge. Should I get sad about it? I listen to all genres, including metal-core or deathcore when it comes to BMTH and Carnifex. But that's about all bands I listen to when it comes to like bands from Anal **** all the way down to bands like Creed. It I guess now just all depends on which bands have more skills or which have energy. Some melodic death is badass, but  I can listen to Creed or something when I'm in a mood for listening to some Creed or Nickelback. That's why I stopped playing guitar, including I have no talent. But I can play air guitar alot. Hahah

What is a perfect comeback that would put her sh*t in line, after explaining sh*t I didn't do to her because she is a paranoid, schizophrenic sounding b*tch lol what should I do to her

I've already really have done something f*cked up, now I can't get a job or join the military, or anything. I wish I was still the normal kid in my school. I would have taken back all of the nonsense that I've done. I would have all of the time to think in the world. The only thing I would not take back is smoking pot, at least twice. When the time comes around when pot is legal for recreational use, I would smoke it everyday. But I've done something else to make me feel like I should be in prison. I know it sounds rather HARSH, but if you want to continue and WRONGFULLY just b*tch, I would not be able to speak about an important crime I've committed. Is there any program that I can join for people who have troubled youth, but grew UP to be an adult, and also have a mental problem(s)? I have had trouble with perverted kinds of 'humor' or 'methods' in order to have sex and get away with it like a GENIUS, and I have asked several girls to have oral or anal kinds of sex with girls. I would promise I would keep safe during the occasions of doing it but getting away with it. The reason was was that I wanted a woman to treat me special, and I think some girls are gorgeous, too. I also thought about illegally smoking weed, at least twice. I'm not a fetish troll, and I'm not a criminal troll. But I would talk to my therapist about it at least. Any thoughts?

I don't get why I say things so STUPID, like **** up in front of her about something disgusting. Like for ex, my sister wanted me to DEFINITELY do it with her, but we KNOW THAT we're not related. But why though, is she saying after is what turned me off, that we are somehow 1/4 related which DISGUSTS ME, and then tell everybody that I'm trash for f*cking her. Now, I can't f*ck anyone ever again. Because and know that I would NEVER DO IT with my real sister, and then she turns me off about how we could never **** again. And this seperation bullshit, like has to do with incest on **** I've never done. Wtf? Thanks to her, my girlfriend will never talk to me now. And I just recently had a mental breakdown.

If I honestly can't undo my vote then i don't know on what to do. Is it too cruel for democrats to force their son nor daughter to vote democrat or republican (let's say if that was considered abuse)

Can I undo a vote for the election that had happened in 2016? Can I at least 'change' my vote? 

Is it too strong or too hated to be...But I actually want to vote for political-bias all the way. I vote for Capitalism and Science and I'm a PRO-Bill Gates person, because my love for Science has quadripled and I'm not sure if I'm a believer of a God or prophet. It's not too late to be hateful, but it's kinda laid-back that I shouldn't care for political-bias. Even though, I'm not sure about my actual VOTE for Socialism, and just my vote for Bernie sanders in general. (I don't care about my voting, unLESS if it's Bernie Sanders nor Joe Biden.) But my question , is, do you support BLM, ALM, or are you a No Lives Matter person all-around? (I AM NOT A WLM, nor a #BLULM #Bluelivesmatter or a #FNLM #FemaleNazilivesmatter, nor do I think that's what I'm about or basically I think that other #LivesMatter political organisations are therefore not my political-biased opinion until I think otherwise.)  What are your opinions on #LivesMatter movements between basically #BLM, #ALM, or #NLM or the other political organisations as I mentioned above, feel free to type your answer to me or to EVERYBODY as it's scripted below. Thank you.

Do you think that at the same time, I can have a loving romantic relationship, with a 'sexy' kind of relationship added? Or should I just wait things out?

If scientists would run for presidency, the question is "who" would RUN?

There are 300 million people in the United States, how many people are going to buy the PS5 and how many are being SOLD-OUT in the United States? 

Do you think that the U.S. uses secret and forbidden technology like time travel and nuclear explosives, to use against their enemies overseas? 

I can't rent a regular laptop from RAC because all they have is gaming laptops, but does it really matter to anyone at all?  Why need a gaming laptop, when you have a regular, nice but more normal and more CHEAP laptop? I can't find one anywhere. It's reallty important for me to relearn school and I need to find the perfect cheap kind of gear that sets me up for online grades 4-12 tutoring and mathematical skills. Anywhere closer than my city has no laptops for rent. Any other stores that I can look at?