Easehhh

So i have befriended a girl at work. I unfortunately usually only seem to make guy friends at work because i am a dude and i am in to very typical guy stuff but ive made a good female friend for once.

Her bf came into the office last friday and she introduced him to everyone but me which i thought was kind of cold. She also never talks about him to me which is odd. Maybe were not so good friends after all?

I suffer from bpd and am looking to the bible for guidance on how to deal with the feeling of people not liking me. I am feeling like this today and i have been holding back tears all day.

I dont want to stop going out, having a few drinks and dancing to music that makes me happy. I want to meet a girl and get married and be incredibly in love and faithful but i also would like to go out with her, twirl her around and have a couple of drinks. I dont want to push my good friends away, all of which don t go to church but unknowingly sin much less than most christians i know.

When i am at church, i feel like i would be looked down on for going out, sometimes slipping out a curse word, but besides this be a good person. Im not perfect, i dont want to pretend i am. I wish a church could accept me for who i am.

I suffer from depression that seems to come in waves.

Whenever i am feeling depressed, i start to think about my ex gf from many years back. When i dont feel depressed, i dont think about her. When i am getting a wave of depression, i cant get her out of my mind.

When we just broke up, id say she was the reason i was depressed.

Today though i feel like my clinical depression brings out these old painful thoughts.

Or am i just genuinely still depressed about losing her and that is why i am depressed?

I grew up a trouble maker and was expelled from hs. I put myself together at 16, with the help of no one, and got a diploma.

At this point i started to dream big. I explained to my dad that i had hopes of attending USC. He mocked me and said "is that the university of southern compton?" He suggested i become a garbage man like he was.

5 years later i have an econ degree from ucla (not quite usc but at its level i think)

So ive had my degree for 4 years now and i realized i want out of my career ( i am in accountant)

Again i consult with my dad and let him know that id like to pursue an mba or masters in finance ( i want to make the jump to finance). I am also considering an IT route to become a data analyst.

His words of advice for me this time are "why dont you try getting a job with the county, they hardly work and get paid well"

This just stresses me out. My best friend suggested i become a cop, he barely passed hs and depends on his dad for every choice in his life. We recently went to vegas and his dad checked up on him 3 times a day ( my friend is 26)

I feel like no one believes in me, or maybe they dont really care about me succeeding, or maybe worse, that they are right and i am not being reasonable with my new goals.

Please help.

i was in a relationship that went pretty sour. i found out she was lying to me and still sleeping with her ex, and she was also sexting a guy from school on the side. long story short i didnt break up with her after this but i didnt trust her and went psycho on her all the time. i physically restrained her ( by closing the bedroom door and forcing her to talk ) on several occasions. i never struck her even when she would punch me, but i did grab her, one time in particular in a very aggressive manner.

i feel really bad about this til this day and it was 5 years ago. we work in the same industry so every now and then i see her and she literally runs away. i feel like such a piece of &%*% when she does that.

i don't feel like i am worthy of another relationship. i have been in a couple since but i just closed myself off emotionally so i wouldn't care if they cheated. they would feel bad because they thought i didnt care about them. they were right.

i dont want to be like this anymore. i want to meet a nice girl and treat her like a queen and have a family. i just want help.. im afraid of becomming super insecure/abusive if i love another girl

i was recently in Europe and I met a group of Swiss people that said that they have heard very negative things about Americans from Canadians. unfortunately this was the second time on the trip that i heard this. I was really dumbfounded by this. I thought Canadians were our brothers? Wtf?

If a girl has a great job and is completely self reliant, why would she want a boyfriend?

This is sad, but if I really think about it, if a girl doesn't need me, why would she want me?

I don't like kids. I have two 2yo nephews that drive me nuts. I have another nephew who is 8 and is super needy for attention which is draining and annoying.

Yet, even though I dislike kids, I adore the idea as one of parenthood as one of life's honors.

Should I not have kids? I am 26 years old.

All these kids annoy me big time. I am guessing I would probably dislike my own child as well.

I am an accountant. My boss expects me to work 9-10 hours a day every day. There is this weird unspoken rule that I have to sacrifice my personal time for work. I have missed all of my nephews baseball games this year and usually get home too tired and overworked to help my niece out with her homework.

Today was my birthday. I didn't get a happy bday or anything from my boss which is okay, but I was a bit surprised as I am accustomed to working with warmer people.

Because I knew my boss wasn't going to tell me to go home early, I basically said "I know my report is due today, but I have to go at 5 today, I don't know if I can finish it on time"

Because I basically told him I was leaving at 5, regardless of what he thinks, I got written home and sent home. ( for being disrespectful) I expect to get fired tomorrow.

What do you guys think about this situation.

I am 25 years old going on 26. I have been in one relationship in my entire life and that was a 2 year relationship in college. I stuck around in that relationship far too long as I knew if I let her go, I would be lonely for a long time. Eventually I couldn't deal with her cheating and I let her go. She moved on, immediately, and I.. well 3 years later, am still alone. I fear dying alone. I cry for a wonderful women to walk into my life so I can start a family with her and move on with life. Instead I sit here at my computer.. sad about my life.

I turn to faith, which tells me that all I have to do is have faith in god. But I know that can't be true.. people die alone all the time.

I have a crush on a girl. I am 25 and havnt had a crush this hard on a girl since my last serious gf 3 years ago. The thing is, I work with this girl. We work on the same floor, but she is in a different section of the floor. I am an accountant, she is in marketing. Our departments NEVER interact. So if I just walk over to her side of the floor, it will be obvious to everyone that I am singling her out.

Whenever I see her, I can't help but smile. She has been smiling back for the past month! but yesterday she gave me a bad look. I am so confused. To make things even more confusing, she is from China ( I am latin American ) so I am not sure if I am offending her. She also might be related to one of the owners. What do I do =(

I am actually getting sad about this whole thing. I am so immature =(

If I wanted to use the Old Testament for spiritual guidance and not the new, would that make me Jewish?

I am just curious, please do not offend me. I just want to gain more knowledge on the subject.

I am Mexican, of Mestizo Race ( typical mexican ). Would I be accepted as a Jew by Jews who come from the middle east?

What will God do to my good Muslim and Jewish friends when they die? Isn't heaven only for those who have accepted Jesus as their lord and savior?

I have many good hearted friends who are of both faiths. It makes me sad to think that they will not be allowed into heaven. I mean it is not their fault that they were born into another faith right?

I have been an athlete my entire life and have dealt with some bad soreness. I am however expiring a different type of pain. My legs have lactic acid stuck in them! It's not the usual soreness after a workout. It feels like the burn you get while lifting weights. It is milder of course but its there. I notice it the most when I am resting. Anyone have any clue what is going on?

I have picked up cycling as a hobby which is causing this pain. I still do heavy lifting days in the gym for my legs, and the day after ill go climb a mountain on my bike.

I am Mexican but I feel very attached to Native Americans. I almost feel like I can sense my tribal roots. I love Native American music. Unfortunately much of what I know about native Americans comes from Hollywood. But nonetheless, I feel like my extreme love for animals and nature comes from my native american ancestry. This is probably lame but my favorite animal by far is a wolf, and kind of see myself and family as a pack of wolves. I sympathy with a lost howling wolf, as sometimes i feel lost and stare at the moon myself. ( i don't howl though hehehehe )

4 days ago I had a runny nose and a sore throat. 3 days ago, body aches were added to the list, but my sore throat surprisingly went away. 2 days ago the runny nose went away for the most part and so did the body aches, but I felt incredibly tired. Today, again, no runny nose, no sore throat, no fever, but my head feels a bit strange ( feels congested, like my brain does ) and I feel super tired still. Am I tired because I am still sick or am I just being lazy???

It is the middle of cycling season and I already took a week off last week to recover from a crash. Now I am letting my good form get away but I am not even sure if I am sick because I don't have the usual cough, runny nose, fever symptoms.

I just got my first gun and cleaning kit. I accidentally cleaned the slide and frame ( including internals ) with bore cleaner. Is this okay? Did I ruin it. It is a glock.