Leo

I always figured peace simply means overwhelming dominance of a power.

While Conflict is simply an absence of a overwhelming power.

Can anyone explain exactly what peace and conflict are?

And why someone should favor peace over conflict?

I find it extremely odd that someone can diagnose someone with depression with just 1 symptom.

Lets say the person is 9 years old and is rebellious.

Why is that enough to diagnose depression?

What are the standards for mental illness?

Do they change a lot?

Are they based on theory?

How are they decided?

It just seems so vague to me.

Like almost anyone at one time or another can be diagnosed with a mental illness.

I could be wrong but I just do not understand it as well as I feel I should.

When I was 11-12 I saw a psychiatrist.

For more than 2 years I saw this psychiatrist and took drugs for depression.

I suddenly decided to stop taking the drugs for 9 months.I did not tell anyone this, hid it, and lied about taking it.

After those 9 months I went for a routine psychiatrist visit to talk about the drugs and my overall health.

Both my father at the time and the psychiatrist both said I was doing extremely well.Both were impressed.

Then I thought this was the perfect opportunity to stop wasting my time by having drugs prescribed.

So I told them I stopped taking it.THe psychiatrist said that was enough time for the drug to be entirely out of my system.

My father said I guess everything worked and I did not need anything anymore.And then I was led out to a waiting room.Then my father said the psychiatrist was upset.And I was told I would not be seeing him anymore.SO I thought that meant I was off drugs formally.Next month I was prescribed new drugs and I had to be monitored to make sure I took them.I eventually got a new psychiatrist.

So my thoughts are that there was no justification for it.Besides my father zealous belief that I was sick and I had to take drugs.

SO is psychiatry a lie that is just trying to sell drugs to idiots?

Because I got my father and psychiatrist once say I was doing extremely well off drugs.

After that with no one to explain anything I was back on drugs as if nothing happened.And was forced on them with 0 positive effect for years.

I was walking at night on a sidewalk where there were few lights.

A car pulls up next to me and points a bright flashlight at me.

They say come over I wanna ask you something.

I look and see nothing but a flashlight and in indistinguishable car.

So I keep walking and say no thanks.

The car then accelerates and turns to block my walking route on the side walk.

I then hear car doors open up.I immediately assume the worse( I had like 5 bottles coke and I was super anxious)so I immediately turn around and start running towards a well lit area.

Behind the person in the car insults me calling me a puss* and a B****.

I understand my reaction may have been improper but I feel like I technically have no reason to stick around so I must not be doing anything wrong.As I sprint towards the lighted area I pull my flashlight out to try to identify the person behind me.I was unable to turn my head far back enough to see anything.

So After running to the well lit area I stop and turn around to confront whoever was behind me.

I then see someone in dark clothes run up to me pointing a gun at me demanding I drop what I have and get down.

At first I was trying to figure out what the hell was going on.Then I see it looks like a police uniform and a gun or taser(in the moment I could not be certain of either other than it looked like a projectile weapon.I then surrender(dropped my flashlight and got down.)I got handcuffed and punched, then had all my pockets emptied.Then interrogated and released

Spent 8 years getting psychotherapy and drugs treating depression.The result was my depression became more severe.My question is if years of getting help made me worse,and years of not getting help has not made my life any easier.

What do I do?

What other options do I have left?