MrVeeesss

It's been almost 2 years since my last propper relationship. I guess you would call that a seriously abusive one. We fought a lot - that is; he was a lot bigger than me, I got the bruises and the broken bones. I finally got out of it after a half yr of back and forth.

Since then I've worked on myself a whole lot. I have my confidence back, and honestly: I've never had it so good with myself, ever.

Yet - I meet these reeeally great guys. No red flags. I fall for them - and after about a week or two, it s like my brain says: "Wow, there - slow the * down. Don t get crazy again. Remember how you forgave that horrible man all those times? No way!"

It's kinda silly. But it feels more like a physical reaction to falling in love. It just vanishes. And then I have to break another guy's heart... (Which, fyi, is absolutely not something I /want/ to do - it s the worst!)

Do I need to give it a bit more time? Is it something I might have to work on? Or is it just that within me; I /know/ that I deserve better than /all/ of these men?

I broke up with my ex, after he threw me into a fridge, and basically bruised my whole body. I broke it off about 4 weeks ago, yet I can't seem to shake the feeling that I still want him back. We were together about 1,5 years. And every second was both pleasure and pain. We didn't have anything in common, and he frequently scrutinized everything I did, all the time. Why will I not forget the feeling of safety in his arms when he only wanted to harm me?

I'm just not sure if I liked this character. Adam Driver is an amazing actor though, but I just have a feeling Kylo Ren was poorly written. I have only seen the movie once though - I will again, once it comes on DVD.

So - can anyone explain why or why not Kylo Ren was a poorly written villain?

So in august I think, my closest friends (both girls) and I + one of the girls's boyfriend had a "party"-weekend like thing in the boyfriend's family cabin on this island, and we pretty much spend the entire time there drunk.

The second night, we're playing drinkinggames of the kind that eventually gets you naked. I'm hesitant, because I'm really not that comfortable with my body because of stretch-marks etc.. (which is not very common on skinny teenage boys I assume) But they eventually talk me in to doing it, 'and after all we're already a little bit drunk - we won't remember this anyway right?'

An hour later, I'm naked and significantly drunker than the rest. We decide to hop into the jacuzzi outside, but I'm basically hesitant about anything at this moment, but they swear they'll save me if I drown or something.

The night before we told sex-stories - and since I'm gay my stories seemed more intriguing I guess. I had obviously slept with more people than my friends (except for the boyfriend, who had apparently experimented with all kinds of people).

Either way, somehow I get the label "boy-slut".

This brings me to the main part. Both the girls agree that me and the boyfriend should make out. I say no, but agree to do it because my friend who is the girlfriend really wants me to, and this has always been some sort of ' wet dream' of hers...

Why does everyone think that you either f*ck or commit?

We all know the basics (sextape, large behind etc.), but how exactly did she turn the betrayal her trust into a multi million dollar industry?

- was she somewhat in the spotlight before the sextape?

- why was this getting her so much attention?

My cat's irises wont contract when in direct contact with light. They're just thin lines at the rim of the pupils.

Is it dangerous?

What does this come of? Last time I checked, they were fine. (Might it be that he's in "shock" after the new-years firework? - if so, will it pass?)

I just downloaded Yosemite for my Macbook Air, and I can't enlarge safari, and other apps to a new page anymore. It's all on the desktop. I know how to create different desktops, but that just seems so inconvenient. Since this computer is so small, the former feature that I was so accustomed to, was very convenient - Just a swipe on the mousepad.

Is there a way I can bring that feature back? Am I going to have to get used to this shitty upgrade?

If you're a transgendered woman, and you were still attracted to women, would you be gay or straight?

Gay right? Because you identify as female? Im confused...

(I know this is not important at all, but it's just something that has boggled my mind the last couple of days)

You know what sucks? Stretch marks. I'm not even fat. I'm kind of skinny actually. But since I got kind of tall during puberty, yeah...

Yet still, there they are, like tiger stripes on my buttocks. Not even cool ones, just -- ugh.

And since I'm gay, this really really really sucks. You know, I could top...but meh. Like my butt would be so cute if I didn't have them... ****.

So... how do I cope? I know there are more serious things to worry about, but this is seriously making me socially awkward around guys, and is basically lowering my self-esteem.

- My head just feels dense, and kind of heavy.

- I'm getting headaches more and more frequently. Lately, I've had them non stop (not very painful ones though).

- I feel like I'm loosing focus. My eyes just seem to "fail" sometimes.

- Dizziness.

- Light nausea.

I have migraines running in the family on my mothers side. I'm also afraid I'm making these symptoms up (as in I might want to have cancer in a strange sort of way?). I can't explain the denseness i feel in my head though.

So am I going crazy? Or should I see a doctor?

I'm 16 years old, and I have a BMI of 20,5, if that should be taken into count.