narfboy2002

You could say I'm lost and confused about this whole ordeal, but I'll start from the beginning. It was the last year of High School and honestly that creeping realization that "everything will change" hit me like a ton of bricks. I was on autopilot most of the year and it wasn't long before it was May of 2005. I was depressed. Very depressed. School was all I knew you could say. Sure I slept there every day 'cause the classes were dull or boring, but it was alot more fun than what I do now. Anyway, last day of school, Devry shows up and I'm interested in going. I had ignored most of the college stuff until the last day (ironic huh?), and at the time I was unaware of student bonds, scholarships, etc.

So I graduated, and went to Devry in July. The idea crashed and burned during the application process due to the cost. $21,000 a year, not including all the little extra fees. I gaveup on that dream and I guess you could say I settled into a quiet life leeching off my Mom until October of 2007. I had no motivation to do anything. My Mom never really pressured me into doing anything and I never really did much. Sure I did a few chores around the house, but that was it. I tried to get a job here and there, but with no car/ability to drive legally/carpool/no public transporation/family not wanting to help I was effectively stuck where I still am today.

In October of 2007, called up my old teacher in High School and asked if there was anything I could do. They said no. My best and only shot told me "No." It wasn't until later in that month, the week before halloween, I got a call from my Aunt and offered me a place to stay and a job. Or rather, the ability to find one. So on the weekend before Halloween, she came and got me and drove me an hour away into her little apartment. I slept on the couch for a week and went to her workplace and basically did nothing. The local paper proved to be useless for finding a job and the fact I don't really have any skills (workplace or not) doesn't exactly help me get a job any easier. She suggested I get a job with benefits, but I was just looking for a job, benefits were merely a perk.

During my whole stay, it seemed we were mentally fighting eachother every step of the way. Every suggestion I gave was shot down, and to "prove her point" dropped me off at the nearby mall and said to find a place that will hire me and "we'd go from there". As I said earlier, I have next to no job skills, and in a big place at the mall. I was pretty ******* nervous, and broke down only getting one job application (Gamestop for those curious) before I called my Aunt and said I was ready to come back to her place. Nothing really happened after that. I lasted a week up there and moved back in with my Mom and nothing ever really happened after that. In a way, my Aunt probably will never see me as the same person again, but I've never been much to care what other people think of me.

Off and on from 2008 to now, I've tried to get a job but my living situation hasn't changed since. I visited Facebook earlier this week and found out that most people I grew up or graduated with, are doing just fine with life. They're happily married, out of college, successful, or a combination of those things while I am "stuck" in the same square I've been in since Graduation. I'm wary to place a small amount of blame on my parents. I was never motivated or pressured into "going out and getting a job" or getting a car or anything life that. Hell, I've lived in the same house/area 90% of my life.

I guess what I'm asking is, with next to no money and a 15-20 minute drive from the nearest town, what can I do?

Starting from the beginning.

About 4 years ago (May 2005) I graduated High School. Yay. But during my Senior Year, I guess the realization that life would come hit me like a ton of bricks drew closer day by day. I pretty much slipped into a depression, running physically on autopilot from August to May but mentally I wasn't even there. The next thing I know, its about the last day of my Senior Year and the tension was just as heavy as ever. However on that day, Devry University came up to my school and I was quite interested, so I considered joining. Later that day, I graduated. It happened. The day I was looking forward to my whole life, and I was sitting in some crappy chair in my own sweat, nervous and shaking noticeably. It took all my will power to not vomit.

Fast forward to July, around my birthday. I go to the Devry University and they tell me what I want to do costs $21,000 a year. At that time, I didn't know what student aid, loans, etc. were, so I just left seeing (at the time) I had no choice. And well, that was it. Fast-forward to October of 2007. I call up my Aunt and ask if I could move in with her, maybe get a job, and be in a whole new area. It was the Sunday, the week of Halloween, when she came and got me. Things were goin' great I guess until I made suggestions for a job. She shot down everyone of them, and continued to do so. I wanted to start off small and easy. Gotta learn to crawl before you can walk, right? She continued to shoot me down and offered other suggestions, suggestions that were beyond my experience/league. It felt as if we were constantly fighting one another. There was no actual physical fighting, but just words.

I lasted a full week there. Sunday to Sunday.

And well, that was it. I've basically graduated High School and wasted 4 years of my life doing nothing but being holed up inside my Mom's house wasting away. Most of my friends have moved away, got a life, etc., leaving me in the dust. My social life is basically nil, and I've been the butt-end of a joke while being around my family. Most involving me and being jobless. I don't go to Sunday dinner anymore. I've tried a few times to get a job, but things are against me. Plus I've little to no motivation or initiative but adults do things they don't wanna do and I guess I'm just trying to do the same.

1) I live in a backwater area, far away from any town.

2) I have no car, the ability to drive legally, or anyone willing to carpool. No public transportation either.

3) I have practically no job experience.

4) The jobs here are very limited. Many are moving to other areas, others are getting filled up quickly in all shifts. I feel that I've scrapped the bottom of the barrel and gone right through it.

Any ideas?

I honestly don't know where to begin but I'll give it a try. I'm 20 years old and I still live with my mom, but that's not hte problem. The problem is that I want to move out, get a job, get a girlfriend and basically get a life. Now here's the problem...

No money - With no job comes no money, which means I can't really get myself an apartment/etc.

No job - I have no means of transportation and most of my friends are off in college so carpooling is out of the question. My mom can't do it either. I have no job experience, nor muscle mass, so that eliminates most jobs around where I live. Jobs in town are getting few and far between due to our crumbling economy. At least *I* think its crumbling what with the alcohol vote not passing (which would have been a good way to pump money/jobs into the economy if you ask me). Anyway to the point, I'd rather not work at Fast Food for obvious reasons. Most mainly due to sanitary reasons.

I'm honestly exhausting my options and I'm getting fewer options it seems every time I think about it. In all honestly, I dunno what to do anymore. I'm tired of leeching off my mom and I just want to go forward in life, but I've nowhere to turn and I have no sense of direction.