LMonsta

having difficulty letting go of a situation. My boyfriends brothers girlfriend has often been nasty and i feel she dislikes me though all i have been is kind until she pushes me and i snap but then i always apologise. I feel she has a bad opinion of me for a reason i dont understand and know from all the years of trying that i cannot change this - but it constantly comes in my head and replays all the times she's been unjust and unkind - i just want to let go -have tried meditation and other techniques but cant seem to let go - every day i think about it and it has been a year since i saw her. This is so unhealthy please if anyone has any advise on how to let go i would be willing to try anything.

Been planning on studying massage for a long time, I've decided to do it this year. So does anyone have any helpful tips or guidance on what I need to study/do to legally start, run and own my own massage business, which place is best to study at? (In Sydney Australia, but after I study I will be moving back to QLD)

ANY helpful tips would be appreciated :) thank you!

i love my man. he is wonderful, we are going through a rough patch and i just know he is going to break up with me, he says he is thinking but we may still stay together, i know he's just humouring me, i have hurt him and pushed him away too many times with my mean-ness as i have borderline personality disorder.

i love him so much, every tiny thing reminds me of him, i always think about him all day every day even though we've been together for over a year. normally after 5 months my feelings start dying for whoever i'm with, but i feel like i could be with daniel for the rest of my life and stay passionate and completely in love.

i am so sorry for how i have behaved, but i am sure it is too late and he will break up with me,

HOW do i deal with this? how fdo i stop every song, every thing i see, will remind me of him in a way, i know time will eventually heal, but before that time, what can i do to try and cope with losing the love of my life? it would be easier if there was anger between us but it is just sadness from me being so hurtful.

i feel like death. i feel like i'll never be happy again, please help me recover, or prepare for this break up that i feel will happen.

How do i cope... he hasn't yet, but i know he is, he isn't happy anymore, because of my moods, but i have borderline personality disorder so my moods arent really me, when i'm me, we are the happiest peopl;e in the world.

I have never met anyone with the same views on life, the same goals, wanting to be self sustainable, grow our own food, love talking about the government and stuff, i know we are supposed to be together, i have never felt this way about anyone else,

his family are telling him i'm not right for him, because they only have seen my moody side so they think i am a bad person, which is understandable, but they haven't spent enough time with me to see my good side, my normal me.

we are in canada at the moment and fly out on the 15th although i am assuming he will not get on that flight and will stay in canada with his brother while i go home alone, how am i supposed to deal with this, i haven't slept or eaten in 40 hours, i have taken valium and smoked weed but still cannot sleep because i am so anxious and miserable, i cried for 15 hours when he told me all of this and that he believes it's time we should go our seperate paths, he says there is a chance we could stay together but i know he is just humouring me.

please help me prepare for this break up. please.