Jessica

So I used to cut... A lot. I've been doing really well for about 8 months. Well I'm in a slump and can't get out of it. I really want to cut or do something worse. What do I do? And no, I'm not calling anyone for help.

So I've had bronchitis this week and I'm on a lot of medicines. I've been feeling better until today. I've started coughing again like crazy, I'm all shaky and have been all day. I feel really weird. I have not taken too much medicine and I don't do any drugs or anything. My stomach hurts so bad. Is this a side effect? Should I go back to the doctor?

When I go to a new website, my computer opens up a whole new internet session. I can almost never close them. They open up multiple new windows; one day, it opened 42 new sessions until I had to force shut down my computer. Oh, and I only click once, not multiple times. Any advice?

Just kinda wondering..

So my mother and I fought today, the worst one we've had in a while. She was yelling at me because of a new hairstyle I did, It actually looks really good and everyone but her likes it. She was screaming at me earlier and tried to pull my hair, but I blocked her. That INFURIATED her. I went into my room to cool off a bit then we went to register for my school.

When the receptionist person left to make some copies, my mom looked at me and said "What the f*ck is wrong with you? Why are you acting like this? What is your f*cking problem?" I said she was the problem. Here's what happened, written simply.

Mom- "What the f*ck is wrong with you? Why are you acting like this? What is your f*cking problem?"

Me-"You are."

Mom-"How am I the problem?"

Me-"Screw it. It doesn't matter."

Mom-"You need to stop being such a b*tch.

Me-"I want to go HOME." (she moved and dragged me with her)

Mom-"Tough sh*t."

We haven't talked since. She went to work tonight then texted me a few minutes ago saying "You and I need to have a talk tomorrow." HELP! I have so much built up anger with her that I may blow up tomorrow. What do I do????

I'm 14 and thinking when I get married, my husband is going to hate me because I get up and walk around a lot at night. (It's 4:37 am) and I've been all around my apartment. So what's yours?

(This is the dream --->) I was asleep cuddling with the guy I like. All was peaceful and then I dreamed (this is a dream inside a dream) that i was with 2 friends and we were walking to my old house. A white car pulls up next to us and some guy comes out and grabs my friend, we'll call her Crystal. So then I get out of that dream and it shows the guy trying to wake me up, but I couldn't wake up. Then it goes to another dream that me and the guy were at church, I went to get water. And apparently I was gone for a long time. He came looking for me, found me outside the bathroom, at the water fountain and i had 1 steak knife in each arm. Then it shows the guy trying to wake me up again. THEN it goes to another dream that was me jumping off a building head first.. No idea why. Then it shows me waking up, freaked out, and the guy was really worried. Then I really woke up.

Random question, I know. but which do you prefer?

Okay, I'm 14 and moving Sunday. They thought of moving scares me to death.. I don't know anyone there and I'm scared of not making friends and such. I'm moving to North Carolina from Memphis. Help..?

Okay so it was a regular Sunday. I was 18 or 19 (I'm 14 and he's 18 right now) and me and the guy I like (we'll call him Sam) were dating. So he goes up on stage when they do announcements. Sam walks off the stage, down to the front row, leads me up the steps, and proposes. I say 'Of course.' and so now we are engaged. We kiss, and everyone claps. Then we walk off the stage and into the garden room. I kiss him one last time and walk in the door and return to my seat. This guy I used to be friends with but now hate my guts (we'll call him Zak) is sitting behind me and gets up. I see him as he stands up and I wanted to make sure he was okay. By now, a song had started playing and Sam was playing the keyboard. He saw me go out the doors with Zak and went from playing, and started walking backstage.

So when Zak and I were out the door, he blew up. "What?" I asked him. "Piss off!!" he yelled. "What the hell is wrong with you?" "You are WAY too ******* young to get MARRIED!" he yelled/spat (Zak is 19 right now) back. "I'm 19." I reply. "Too young" he said through clenched teeth and then punched the wall with the map on it. "No it isn't." I said smartassedly. (by now, Sam was turning the corner and saw/heard this.also from when Zak punched the wall, my friend [We'll call Max] was coming down from the sound booth and also saw) "Goddamn it Jessica!" Zak yelled and punched me in the face. I fell to the ground, hit my head and Sam got PISSED. He was over there in a heartbeat beating the crap outta Zak. "You EVER touch my fiancee again, and I will end you." Sam threatened and shoved Zak. Zak cussed and walked away. Sam asked if I was alright, if I 100% wanted to marry him, I said "Hell yes" and he smiled and kissed me. End of the dream. I never have dreams like this and it's weird to me..

Sorry if it was kinda confusing..

I'm an atheist, but I've gone to church my entire life. I just can't believe the stuff taught. Also, I mean, I've attempted suicide and seven of my friends have committed suicide. So... is there a legit meaning to life or are we all just... here? Answers will be much appreciated. (Please don't give me the religious crap, I've gotten enough of that as is)

I do a channel on YouTube, and I don't get many viewers. Not that my videos suck or anything, I'm just not well-known. What is something you'd like to see in a video??

Okay, this guy is the closest person to me. I've fallen for him and we flirt a lot together. I think he likes me, but I can't risk it. And I may be wrong, though I SERIOUSLY doubt it. However, I'm moving in a month and I just want to know how he feels and we may be able to go out for the time we have left. Oh, and he's 3 years older than me. I don't think that matters. So yeah, help???