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I ve been at my current place of employment around a decade. I am a registered nurse. A little background, i am hardworking, but maybe not so ambitious. I make a decent living. Of course id like to make an little more money, but not if it costs me having to be stressed. I was promoted to an administrative position. I am doing my best to learn and take on this new role. I honestly am unhappy. I miss the patients, and my coworkers. I know it s looked down upon to go backwards. I worry what will friends, family, and colleagues say. Even worse what will my boss say. Will i still have a job? I did not sign a contract btw. This new job requires a lot of travel, and i quite honestly hate leaving home so often. Doesn t seem worth the raise. There is real promise to advance, so am i being a child about this? Sorry this is so scattered. Very tired. Thanks in advance.

Met this guy through my job. We work for same company, but only see each other 1x a week. Met at a work party. I could tell off the bat, we were kindred spirits. Alot in common, similar sense of humor. Honestly when i first saw him, I got that sickly feeling in my gut. So we have been texting back n forth for like 2 weeks. Sometimes its on n off all day into late night. He often initiates. We talk about everything, very light PG flirting. I know for me, im.kinda shy. Im not one to take a snap shot of a body part n send it lol. Especially if i really like the person. Trying to be respectful. But are guys this way??? Im not one so im clueless. Is there a chance he s interested or does it sound like he thinks id make a great friend. Thanks everyone.

I been at my job for 8.5.years. I've never crushed on nor considered dating a co-worker. A few months back this new guy started working with us. At a night of a work function, we hung out and talked for hours. I got that 12 year old crush feeling. Butterflies. We been talking allot via text. Nothing romantic. Just flirty, getting to know you chat. We have a ton in common, including some obscure interests which definitely make talking to him easier and more exciting. Is this wrong? I have "it" pretty bad for this guy. Finding it hard to concentrate. Thanks

I was with my ex from 18-33. He broke my heart. I'm getting up there in age. I'm 36 now. Overall people seem to like me. I got good friends n a great family. People say I'm nice looking, but I don't have too great a self esteem. I've fallen into this hole where I can't let anyone in. I guess I became depressed after my break up, and got comfortable being alone. I kind of fake my way through life Iand social activities. I've always felt alone, and have a hard time relating to people. Even when I'm out, after a few hours, I find myself wishing I was home. The "things" people converse about seem uninteresting, and I don't feel engaged. This just fed into my isolation even more. People are always trying to set me up. Is there something wrong with me, or is it ok that I have this wall up. I definitely don't think I'm better than anyone, I just can't connect. Or maybe won't.

I really messed up. I wasted the best years of my b life with someone who treated me badly. I was with him from 19 until 33! No ring, and to top it off I found out he cheated. I learned this in our last few years, Im not an idiot, but I sure as hell acted like one. Instead of breaking free with class, I just kept hoping he'd change and we could have a good life. Our break up (2 years ago) was, mutual as all we did was fight. I always thought me walking away would "wake"him up n be wud b back. I didn't do any of healthy things to heal from this. I became super deposed, gained 20pounds n really stopped caring about my appearance. I stayed in allot, n really it was a downward spiral.Now at 35, I'm starting to believe I am doomed.I have huge self esteem n imtamacy issues I feel to broken and disgusted to give anyone else a shot.How do I get back life's track. I take full responsibility of this.

I was watching a dvd file, and a black window with bright blue borders appeared. It looked like command window, however there wasn't any words or prompts. I couldn't close window, or find source. I had to restart my computer to get it to close. I'm not especially tech savvy, so any info wud greatly be appreciated. Thanks

I have always felt lost. Sometimes like I was born in the wrong time or place. I do have people I care about, and i'm grateful to have people who care about me. But that doesn't alleviate the emptiness I've felt my whole life. I've tried to fill "it" with many things throughout my life. Some of which were positive, but also some things which were pretty destructive to me. I understand that everyone gets down n you can't always read what people are feeling. But I feel like some people get to at least find a place where they are content. I can't live my live selfishly, or hurt people by not caring and do things that hurt me, so I've reached a point where I basically act as if, or fake the funk. I'm in my mid thirties, and I've reached the conclusion that I never will feel happy? Or whole? Even though I feel alone, I'm pretty sure I'm not the only going through life this way. Do i over analyze? Am I my worst enemy? Probably. I had a loving family, and still do. Where did I go wrong? What separates us from others who find joy in living. Thanks

I know it's what you make of it. I spent today with my family, watching all old home videos. I saw old pets, childhood friends, my parents n siblings were so young. It was nice to watch, but I found it made me so sad. I miss the innocence and mystery of my youth. Things are very predictable now, n I find there are less n less first time experiences. Maybe it is up to me to create that.I just really miss having your whole life in front of you, and the feeling of "what ifs". Sweet nostalgia. Is this an unhealthy way of perceiving aging. It kinda sucks.

I've heard of this mostly happening to males. I am female, and my whole life I've had a fear of crying. Oddly, I have 3 brothers, all of them seem to b able to deal w grief in a relatively healthy way. I guess I inherited my father's lack of ability to cope with emotions. I'm not sure if I'm scared I'll b viewed as weak. Sometimes I feel like if I start, I'll never stop. Maybe I don't want to b in touch w those feelings at all. It could be a combination of all those things. I even worry how I'll get through losing someone super close. It sucks because I've run from this my whole life, I've run from myself. How do I learn to b ok with letting my guard down. The thought of doing so makes me feel sickly. Thanks for reading.

I suck at life. I mean i get up everyday and function as a human being. I have people who care about me. I guess that s my main incentive for faking the funk. I can t seem to justify letting go, and hurting people. All my life I ve struggled w trying to find peace within. Just can t get there. I think too much, and that is my problem. Instead of enjoying the sun shine, my brain digs. Why do I enjoy it, how did it get there. Why am I me, am I just a product of my environment and genetic codes? What s the point of it. I can t piut these thoughts behind me. People throw around diagnoses, we are thought to think feeling this way is wrong, that not liking life is wrong. I don t understand any of it, n I feel like I don t belong here. I m tired of trying to be like everyone else. Am I a selfish person for considering giving up?

Would appreciate info from someone whose got experience with aspergers, but any info would be greatly appreciated. My youngest brother is 18. He just started community college. Hes very intelligent in certain areas (basically only responds to what he s interested in). Though he s intelligent, he is very deficient in practical ways. My parents do their best, but I Think being over protective n not letting him be independent has been a huge diservice. Nonetheless, they r just scared n afraid of him getting hurt.I m very depressed thinking he won t have a fulfilling life d/t lack of social skills n anger issues. I believe his anger related to frustration. He sees a pysch but I don t c progress. What can I do to help him? Nutrition, are there classes that help w life skills? It s very hurtful to watch. N.its so confusing to see someone who is able to grasp difficult concepts but be do lost in the most simple n practical way. Sorry so long, n ty.

Im 36, and I don't have all this free time on my hands. In fact, im pretty busy. I hate the quiet. It's when my wheels start turning. I constantly think about time, and death. I'm not religious, I hope there is something after all this, but I do not know. Im pretty sure I'm not changing my mind about that. I always feel nostalgic. I constantly long for those care free days of my youth. And time seems to just go faster, well my perception of time does anyways. I watch myself and everyone around me grow older. Getting older seems awful. Even if your one of the lucky ones that holds on to health. I don't want to watch everyone I care about die. Thought overwhelms me. I almost hope I die relatively young to avoid the pain of loss. I know this is irrational, because these are things I can't change. I know this but can't seem to get my heart to agree with my brain. How do I train myself to buy into being happy in the moment? Is this possible? Perhaps therapy would help. Awful to think these feelings are chronic, n will rob whatever chance of happiness I have. Anyways, thanks

I asked a question about single parent adoption not to long ago. I guess I was more concerned about ethical reasons related to it. I'm 36, I have a professional job. I broke up with my bf of 14years about 2years ago. He didn't want any children. Ideally I do feel 2 parents is a better situation, however that it not my current situation. If I meet someone in future that would be great. However I feel like I would be a really great Mom, and I also have a wonderful family w 3 amazing brothers I know would be there for me and a child. I've heard of gay couples, and even single people adopting, I'm just not sure the best way to go about it. Do I look into adopting within the US or is it best to go outside the US? What is best agency to start with. Any info would be much appreciated.

I guess I could say I am definitely a thinker or analyzer. Instead of just living in the moment, I'm always thinking of the why, whether it's on a more practical level, philosophical level, or even a scientific level. This is always happened to me intermittently. Suddenly, I feel like a passenger(versus a participant)in life. I will get this suddenly get the thought of who am I, where am I, what am I? Nothing feels familiar. I look at my environment, n feel lost. My surroundings almost feel surreal. People look strange. I can almost associate w the feelings with the way someone might feel if they were suddenly n spontaneously plucked n placed in an alien world. It's unsettling as its makes me feel very isolated from everyone. is this physiological or just physiological? Can anyone relate to this at all? How do I cope with feeling like sometimes I don't belong to this world?

I'm not a complete ignoramus. I have some science background, as I'm a registered nurse. But most of my knowledge is anatomy, biology, n chemistry based. N on a really fundamental level. I love watching documentaries on quantum physics. But because of my ignorance I can only comprehend so much. What are some really good books, or documentaries on quantum physics for beginners? Thank you in advance =)

I'm in my thirties now. I have amazing long term memory. My parents are astonished when I'm able to recite a memory in great detail of events that happened when I was 2 or 3yrs old. As long as I can remember I have a flashing memory of the size of a house, all I can see is the window, only other detail is the grass is high and uncut. Looks like it can be a house in woods or abandoned. Even when I was little, I remember thinking what is this place. It's not some monumental memory. Even sounds a bit boring. But every so often, I randomly see a flash of this memory. Its accompanied by this nostaglic type of sadness. Its familiar, but somehow elicits loneliness. I try so hard to remember something else about this place but never do. Funny, it's like an old friends that keeps resurfacing, but drives me nuts just the same. Maybe its insignificant, but id appreciate pointers on how to try and remember nore of this place. If it even exists outside my brain =)

I'm an adult. Ive been at my job for 8years. I've never dated a coworker before. N I know the popular opinion is don't sh*t where you eat. I've kinda always believed that you shudnt bring drama to work, especially if its a professional job. I hope I'm not judged for this, as it sounds a bit cliche. But I work as a nurse, and the person I'm crushing in just joined our practice and works as a physician. He's been there a few months. N I definitely notice, he's a bit flirty with me. (I know this doesn't necessarily mean he's interested). The thing is, I left a long term relationship a couple years ago, aside from a few casual dates, there hasn't been anyone that I had real feelings over. I try n tell myself this is just a crush or a phase, but I genuinely like this person. He's smart, caring, thoughtful, and funny. I actually get butterflies and feel a sense of happiness when im around him. Is this wrong? Do I just ignore my feelings and hope it goes away. Our practice is fairly large, I don't work w him everyday, but at least once or 2x a week. I also don't want to compromise his reputation, as he is fairly new.Never before did I consider this happening, as I try and be as professional as possible. I could use some advice on this. Thank you for reading.

I don't have too much time on my hands. On the contrary, I work and go to school full time. I have good friends and family, and I'm grateful for that. But since I'm a child I have anxiety thinking about the universe. I was raised Catholic, but consider myself to be an agnostic. I analyze and pick apart any concept possible. I know I'm not the only person in the world to feel this way, but feel like I'm definitely in the minority. I too have come to the conclusion that I'll never have definitive answers (in this terrestrial lifetime), so I shud make the best to love and laugh as much as possible. But sometimes this life feels like a machine, and people are just walking around living to feed their entertainment receptors (welcome to america haha). I remember in high school having some stoned conversations about infinity, matter, how many stars in our galaxy, how close the nearest star is, ect. It was kind of comforting to talk about these things with other people. But now in adulthood, people just laugh, or call me quirky, or quickly change the subject. Surely I'm not that weird, I like to think other people look up on a starry night and think WOW. I'm sorry if this sounds pyschotic, but no matter how busy my external life is, I somehow find the time to reflect on these thoughts internally. Would be nice, and would also alleviate this aching sense of loneliness I feel to hear from others who relate on some level. Thanks for reading.

I'm sorry if this question is ridiculous. Id really like to hear from adoptive parents or people who've been adopted themselves. I'm pretty sure it's possible. I know this is a dumb comparison, but ive adopted pets, and had an unconditional love for them. So I don't c why loving a child who I did not conceive would be any different. Just that ive never experienced this, so I have no way of knowing for sure.

I wasted all of my twenties and some of my 30s with same guy. Needless to say, he wasn't that great of a bf, and in the end broke my heart. After a couple years i haven't completely gotten over it. Sometimes I still hope he'll come back. He contacts me all of time, but I get the feeling I'm a backburner type deal. I'm an idiot, instead of working on myself and doing positive things, I allowed myself to sink into a pretty deep hole. I work full time, and went back to school. I dont go out that often, but go out every now and than. Part of issue is me, I'm pretty sure I come off aa closed. But other issue is its allot harder to meet some one on your mid thirties. Every time I'm around guys I just feel like eh about them. Line theee really isn't too much about them I can relate to. It's very depressing, I don't see myself meeting anyone. Unfortunately I'm not type of person who can make myself settle out of loneliness. I really need an emotional and intellectual connection. Wtf can I do differently? Thanks