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I have a lot of anger towards a very cruel man and it's killing ME inside. I don't want to feel this way...

Will you please pray for me? I need to release my anger to God and move on and never speak to this person again.

Is there such a thing as parental burn out? Don't want to make the same mistakes my parents made...

Had a good childhood until around the age of 14 when everything changed for me.

12 year old sister started hanging out with the wrong crowd of girls (some of who she still hangs around with) and getting into trouble, sneaking out and getting drunk

At that same time my older 16 year old brother who had been getting bullied in previous years decided to physically and verbally abuse me and employ the help of my younger sister to do the same by holding me down while he hit and verbally would abuse me on a regular basis for HOURS on end. My sister got a taste for finding out what my emotional buttons were and started enjoying the power trip she was getting off of partaking in the abuse.

So you are probably asking "where were your parents to stop this???" Because of all the fighting and screaming (mostly my screaming) in the house, my mother became depressed and hid in her room for weeks and simply pretended this wasn't going on. When I'd come to her crying and ask to do something or for some emotional support even, her only response was that I needed to "toughen up" and "stop being so sensitive" She’d make the abuse MY fault!!!...My father was working longer and longer hours at the time so he wasn't around but he would step in. However when it was my brother abusing me, he WOULD, but for some reason he wouldn't do jack about my sister which is why to this day she is so messed up (pregnant out of wedlock by a criminal, yet married to another man and yet STILL at 22 living at mom and dad’s)….But anyway, out of fear my family all (except me) cater to her in that house as she steamrolls right over them. She is still very verbally abusive and very manipulative (mostly to me) but really to everyone in the family especially any that dare to disagree, and she employs others quite successfully to do her abusive bidding…However to the outside world she’s as sweet as a peach and about as manipulative as a snake. I also have A LOT of resentment towards my mother for being a lazy parent and being in denial and placing ME in the role of the “good kid” which got me bullied further. I often feel pinned into a mother role towards my sister and I hate it because she just has no clue how the world works because she’s been catered to for so long. I to this day do not trust women and as a result don’t have many female friends which she only uses in arguments against me. I once tried to talk to my mother about it but she started crying and blamed everything on me and since then I do not speak to her. My sister and mother have a stronger relationship than ever because I’ve been emotionally ostracized by this family. My dad tries to bury he guilt by giving me money at holidays and through using my grandparents as guilt trips, “because…you know, THEY won’t be around much longer, so I’d hate for you to miss a family gathering.” My brother, on the other hand has grown up A LOT since joining the marines and moving all the way to Cali, but we do not have a close relationship, I think it’s because of his guilt at how he’s treated me because I’ve reached out to him but he is very cold and silent towards me when he comes to VA to visit.

So finally to the question…How as an adult do I handle this situation and all the hurt? As I have said talking about it to the perpetrators has only worsened my relationship with them. I do not even want kids now because I’m afraid I’ll hurt them like I was hurt if I don’t deal with the anger.

I lost a beloved fruitcake recipe that I got from an old discontinued cooking magazine in the early 1980's. I'm not sure of the magazine. The name of the recipe was "Luxury Fruitcake". One of the ingredients was glazed peaches. Help me! Any hints? Thank you

yet always broke and picks fights over nothing...Second part of the story...He works in construction with mostly men...However three of the employees are female secretaries and one of them is being really inapropriately flirtatious with him...On his myspace a week after we broke up the first time she put a comment on his myspace, it went as follows, "How's my favorite technican..hehe...xoxo (the hehe and xoxo in my mind put this into the innapropriate territory..i was nauseated)...She is a swinger...It says so on her myspace page "Electric Ladyland" is her screename...eww...

Also last message she sent him was an email (he must've sent her one first saying he's considering moving moving (he says that he and she don't even talk outside of work...HA!)...Anyway she sent him an email back suggesting he move closer to her in MD. He doesn't know I read it...If it were innocent he would not have deleted it right?

A few years ago I was taking a shower and was putting...I THINK (victorias secrets "pink" body wash) or my right leg...

Suddenly it felt literally like my skin was burning off!!! I quickly washed the area and ever since that day have had tiny scaly red bumps on my right thigh that are painful look and feel like razor burn and itch but never go away...How do I make it go away? I want to go see a dermatologist but I don't want a misdiagnosis since I'm pretty certain it's a burn and not eczema...Any ideas? Thanks!

....but instead the SAME price of normal rent, whereas a portion still goes towards the down payment in order to REWARD the buyer for the commitment of a rent to own situation?

Otherwise...WHAT'S THE POINT...THE ADVANTAGE? of the BUYER of the rent to own property...I understand the disadvantages to the buyer pretty well...I'd be willing to commit and pay on-time and I have average credit and figure that if i make sure it's a rising market in the area, that i should be ok?

Is this only a option that makes sense to desperate people with poor credit or should I consider it?

Thanks! Any tips are greatly appreciated! :)

....but instead the SAME price of normal rent, whereas a portion still goes towards the down payment in order to REWARD the buyer for the commitment of a rent to own situation?

Otherwise...WHAT'S THE POINT...THE ADVANTAGE? of the BUYER of the rent to own property...I understand the disadvantages to the buyer pretty well...I'd be willing to commit and pay on-time and I have average credit and figure that if i make sure it's a rising market in the area, that i should be ok?

Is this only a option that makes sense to desperate people with poor credit or should I consider it?

Thanks! Any tips are greatly appreciated! :)

This is someone else's quote but I personally feel the same way...What are your thoughts?

"The Government is a service. I would prefer an Invoice, with an explanation of the services rendered. Just like I get from my electric company or any other vendor.

And I would also like the ability to switch to a competitor if they were more effective and efficient.

People vote more responsibly when their own pocket-book is involved."

TAXES...15% tax of a poor mans paycheck effects him A LOT more then 15% of a rich man's paycheck...TRUE OR FALSE?

Anyone else in a crappy loophole like me can hopefully show me some love...I hear I have to pay 15% taxes instead of 10% comes to about (2 grand! A lot for me)... JUST because I'm an independant contracter! NEWS FLASH ppl independant contractor does not EQUAL rich! I'm only a dogwalker and do not own my own company so why am I paying like I do. If I hear one more rich person whinning about paying more taxes I'm going to puke!!!

I'd LOVE to know WHERE my money's going so please try to make me feel better on that one!

I'm 24 so by the time I'm old enough to benefit from social security...they say it will have crumbled....anyone else feel ROBBED by our government say AMEN!!!

Anyone else in a crappy loophole like me can hopefully show me some love...I hear I have to pay 15% taxes instead of 10% comes to about (2 grand! A lot for me)... JUST because I'm an independant contracter! NEWS FLASH ppl independant contractor does not EQUAL rich! I'm only a dogwalker and do not own my own company so why am I paying like I do. If I hear one more rich person whinning about paying more taxes I'm going to puke!!!

I watched the movie "The exorcism of Emily Rose" before bed last week and had a VERY scary nightmare of demons triying to get to my boyfriend and laughing at us. I was praying and quoting scripture in the dream to keep them back.

THE DREAM WASN'T THE SCARY PART...

I woke up and was terrified to look at the clock because I ALREADY knew what time it was...and sure enough...3:33 in the am.

This is SOOO creepy.....I sat there and prayed...Should I pray for my sweetie? My first boyfriend said he saw a demon fly overhead and dumped me soon after because he was so freaked out.

I'M NOT LYING... SO KEEP JUDGEMENTS TO YOURSELF PLEASE

Thank you! :)

To forgive myself and forgive them....How when I'm so angry and they're not sorry for hurting me. Do you believe in KARMA? should I pray for them?

How to forgive a person who has deeply wronged me....

I was dating this person for about 1year and a half.

It didn't work out and we broke up mutually but I still loved him and he knew that.

He then called me a few months later and said he still loved me...wanted to be together...yadah yadah.

I BOUGHT IT LIKE AN IDIOT...then I came to to find that that was complete bullshit because the DAY after our first night back together intimately he was cold and would'nt talk to me or return my calls...infact I have'nt seen him to this day but I AM the one who is hurting here.

So the question...How to get past my anger since he has no concept or remorse of the deep pain he has caused me by abusing my trust and violating my morals and body.

So what to do about my anger?

He has a myspace page that says Liveonlivelong....AND he SUCKS in bed because he has a 2 inch flacid weener.

That's the T-R-U-T-H :) I promise!

How to forgive a person who has deeply wronged me....

I was dating this person for about 1year and a half.

It didn't work out and we broke up mutually but I still loved him and he knew that.

He then called me a few months later and said he still loved me...wanted to be together...yadah yadah.

I BOUGHT IT LIKE AN IDIOT...then I came to to find that that was complete bullshit because the DAY after our first night back together intimately he was cold and would'nt talk to me or return my calls...infact I have'nt seen him to this day but I AM the one who is hurting here.

So the question...How to get past my anger since he has no concept or remorse of the deep pain he has caused me by abusing my trust and violating my morals and body.

So what to do about my anger?

I'm I an idot for trusting him, or is it the opposite, am I too insecure. I WAS supportive, even incouraging of him going out with the guys until after 3. What's up?