__PuertoRico

This is my first year of university, throughout high school i was never a procrastinator. Ever since I started university I slowly started to procrastinate until it became a day to day thing. I work 16-20 hrs a week and taking 3 classes. It may not seem a lot of classes, but the work load is still crazy. Especially since 90% of time I am on the computer writing papers, I tend to doze off and go on different sites. How do I deal with this?

I am 18 I work a part time job trying to live off pay cheque to pay cheque trying to help provide funds for my family while trying to put myself through school. I can only afford to put myself through university for just this year. I am struggling terribly in university having to withdraw from a course. On top of that I am trying to battle something personally within myself trying to find myself and a long time battle of depression. I dont know what i want to do with my life anymore, I don't know what degree I want to pursue anymore. I am just lost in this struggle I have no motivation or ambition or strength to fight through this. I have no more motivation in school either I dont have anything left to give. Its hard to wake up to each day knowing I have all of this

I feel like a waste god might have created potential in me that might have not been a mistake but i truly believe i cannot reach/carry on that potential. I hate the person that i am it could be my fault, i know god gives us free will. I cannot be comfortable with myself its been like this for 5 years, I am not intelligent literally especially academically which is a big con in life for surviving. Ever since elementary and university I struggle academically. Even in day to day life,decisions everything I am just not intelligent.I dislike my characteristics I question this opportunity of life he has given me, I feel like I am wasting it because i cannot meet god plans and expectations for my life. I am falling off the edge why was i created... I need help to cope with this..

This is my first year of university and the term is almost over and I am already failing, I've lost motivation within myself and find that i cant focus anymore because it has made me depressed.I also work, I have to pay for my own tuition costs. I tried my best and really thought I worked hard and was doing good. But it wasn't good enough how do I deal with this? What are the consequences of failing?

Its been a constant battle for me to try and love myself, there were times where I felt like I did then everything goes crashing down then im back at square one. I just cant accept myself my insecurities is all I know off it affected my interaction with others. Lately I feel like I just dont know who my true self is i covered everything with who i wish i could be.

My parents had asked me to move the car and park it in our carport, before they go to sleep they asked me to move it instead which was fantastic. As I was moving forward into the carport i was a little to close on the left side of the carport i wasn't paying enough attention before I could stop it was to late. The crack isnt to big though, its located on the front of the left side of the bumper. The other thing is our car is white im still stunned and scared out of my mind. I dont know how to handle this, im scared to wake up in the morning tomorrow.

There's this girl whos younger than me, a junior keeps giving me dirty looks. In the beginning id always catch her looking at me, it got to the point where I couldn't help but look when shes staring at me. Now that I look at her she gives me dirty looks, its hard not to when she keeps looking at me when we pass each other in the hallways. It gets me angry, I never did anything to this girl shes the one who started looking at me from the beginning even when i dont look at her she glares.This has been going on for so long, everytime I brush it off it repeats.

Im having my party this weekend and last year I had my friends over they kept asking questions about my house. My house is really old and crowded , my kitchen especially has old cracked cupboards and drawers. Some of the doors in my house is broken I learned to accept my house but when my friends started saying my house looked scary my house looks old. I remember I overheard one of my friends whispering asking why my carpet looks weird and gross.it made me feel. Embarrassed about my house it wqs just traumatizing. I already told my friends that im having my bday party but thinking about everything today im a little worried. On top of that since im inviting all my friends some of them aren't close. Im scared everything is going too be awkward or if it'll be boring this year. Im worried about everything i just want to cancel my bday.

I failed my road test the second time just recently because of stupid mistakes I made. Im taking my third road test in two weeks at a different place where im not quite fond with but its the only spot open for this upcoming month. My mom is putting a lot of pressure on me saying if I dont pass this one shes not willing to pay for another one she isn't willing to book it neither and she added that this is the last straw. im really nervous and scared what if I dont pass, if I make another stupid mistake that throws everything away. Im scared of even believing ill pass.

Tomorrow I have a group interview for aeropostale and im really nervous. Especially since its a group interview, some of the people that's also being interviewed might have good answers to the interview questions which is discouraging. Im scared of what they might ask me. I have trouble thinking of answers to questions when im being put on the spot im scared of what they're going to ask me! Im really nervous I dont want to look like an idiot. Help!

I'm a senior and I've been thinking about college quite often. I just wanted to know over the past few years I've been getting Bs and Cs what are the chances of me getting into college? How does the whole application process work?? Was it difficult to meet new people in college??

During the day when im out with my friends im okay im normal. But when im alone I start to think about my insecurities hating myself feeling worthless. Last week dealt with a situation where negative remarks were being spoken towards me. Its been a week and I can't seem to let it go feel depressed making me feel bad about myself. I just sit there feeling nothing but misery it's constant it won't stop im tired. I'm really tired it's mentally draining itw been this way for a while now..

My friends and I are going onto our senior year, we were thinking about how we have to graduate soon and its scary. My question is how was high school for you?? How long did it take for you to decide what career/college you wanted to pursuit?? Did you hardly see anybody from high school after you graduated? Lastly, did you remain friends with the people you went to high school with?? I'm really scared for the future, and take on a set of new responsibilities.

I hung out with my friends, they brought they're guy friends and they looked through my bag and found my poetry book called me stupid . They called me ugly they were insulting my poetry book saying they're lame internet poems when i wrote them. They embarrassed me in front of everyone making me recite a poem on the spot. I couldn't think cause i was so angry, they called me a phony chump. Then insulted my appearance i feel worthless and ugly/stupid...

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My friends haven't been making the effort to stay in contact. I am always the one who texts them to hangout, check in with them to see how they're doing. I recently found out from my two close friends kadeyja and ariane have been making plans, after texting kadeyja.I don't have a problem with them making plans with each other I understand that but how come this whole summer they only asked once. I'm tired of trying to make the plans and trying to keep in touch, without them trying to stay in touch with me. I always have to do everything first.

I was sitting outside with my friend deidra and we were talking about how our friend rhian singles us out things she did and i said what if shes secretly eaves dropping then literally she came throigh thé gate. Shes not thé type to be confrontational shes been giving me bad vibes before today. Idk what to do

I hate the way I am I feel so belittled when it comes to my friends they're so confident smart I ambdefinetly not. I have one friend that likes to treat me like crap single me out and make me feel small because she knows I have low self esteem. I keep comparing myself to others wishing I was this way and the fact that very insecure with height im very short. I hate how im so secure and self conscious im so tired

One of my brothers read my journal, I accidentally left my journal in the basement where my brothers room is by the labtop which was 2 days ago. I just remembered today that I left my journal and it was open, I feel like crap and a little embarassed because I have a lot of personal things in there. About how i was insecure,suicidal, and just a lot of other things I went through. I've noticed that hes been acting extra extra nice to me.. But i feel like crap! Help!!

I'm so tired, im tired of trying to get myself together each day of trying to deal with everything thats going on in my life. The judgements of others its exhausting, I dont know what to do anymore im wiped out.

I got a haircut today, and i got to know the hairdresser very straight forward,outgoing, demanding etc. She was telling me about her sons, what she would hate about kids if they were a certain way lived their life a certain way etc. Once she asked if i had siblings i lied and said i had a brother whos 15.. I felt embarassed to talk about my sister, shes done many things in her life my family isnt proud of and what shes been doing with her life so far. I dont want to go into detail, anyways after that she spoke with my mom turns out the hairdresser knows my family and knows my mom aswell... The scary thing is my moms going to go get a haircut with the same hairdresser tmrw, and im pretty sure the hairdressers going to ask about me and my sibling..Then everythings going to blow up.. I'm feeling really embarassed right now, and scared and my moms making her our regular hairdresser from now on im going to be embarassed to see her.. HELP!