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So I went to go log out from Facebook when I noticed that I had 20 credits. How does that happen? I dunno how long they've been there.

To be honest I never really did get a full explanation of what puberty is. My parents wouldn't let me take a health class, and on top of that they didn't tell us anything so me and my brother have kind of always been in the dark all these years.

I hear stuff all the time about mood swings and puberty this and hormones that, but they always define a mood swing as having no real life cause. You just randomly get mad or sad or happy due to your hormones being wack. Is that what it is?

Sometimes I find myself getting upset over some pretty trivial things. I blow it out of proportion. Like, say a sibling snubs me, or I randomly remember some girl I used to like. I'll get pretty bummed out about that for days, sometimes. Is that a mood swing? Or is that just life?

Usually I wear pretty boring shoes. Before last year I wore hiking boots, but then I realized that it was my Junior year of high school damnit, and I needed to step up my game. So I bought a pair of blue Nikes, which were alright. But I kind of want to try something new, and I was thinking of red Converse, probably high tops. But I mostly see girls wearing converse, so, I dunno, would they look good on a man? I'm not very fashionable, to be honest, so usually I have to ask people about this kind of stuff as embarrassing as that is. So I'm just wondering if it would look good on a guy, and what color clothes I should wear to match it.

I'm finding that literally everything I know is a lie. Besides my house. Chances are my family might even be a lie. Even small little things I'm finding didn't even happen, or were completely made up in my mind.

It's making me insane, and as much as I hate psychiatry, I think I might give them a shot. But does anyone know if psychiatrists even cover this kind of stuff? And how would they do so? Google isn't giving me anything other than shoddy random songs and stupid theories.

Does anyone have any personal tips?

I'm always paranoid.

I'm a former self-diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. So since I'm self diagnosed that doesn't really hold any weight, but then again since all of the doctors where I live are horrible, self diagnosed is the best I'll ever get. I've gotten over the schizophrenic part, but I just can't seem to get over the paranoid part.

All in all, I'm just too paranoid for my own good. It probably has to do with my post traumatic, but I dunno, that's a separate matter.

Anyone have any tips? I don't want to see a psychiatrist, so don't say that. I just want some little tippies. I'm sure we've got some other paranoid folk here, right?

Can someone find me a reliable online therapy site? I can't go in person, but at the same time I don't know who'll scam me or track me down or whatever.

Has anyone here done online therapy? I doubt anyone here right now has, but I thought it'd be worth it to ask.

All I need is help to find me a therapist. I could always Google it and take the first link that appears, but how do I know how safe and/or reliable their service is? I've heard about some psychiatrists being nuts themselves (why else would they get into the business?), so I'd like to avoid that too.

Can someone find me a reliable online therapy site? I can't go in person, but at the same time I don't know who'll scam me or track me down or whatever.

Has anyone here done online therapy? I doubt anyone here right now has, but I thought it'd be worth it to ask.

All I need is help to find me a therapist. I could always Google it and take the first link that appears, but how do I know how safe and/or reliable their service is? I've heard about some psychiatrists being nuts themselves (why else would they get into the business?), so I'd like to avoid that too.

I'm not sure if this is the right section, but oh well.

I shrunk two inches. Maybe a little more than that. I was 5'8 and 3/4" last time I went to the doctors (They had me take my shoes off), and recently for the past two months when I've been measuring my height I've been barely 5'6".

I don't think it was the machine, because I actually feel shorter. Why am I shrinking? I'm 15, and I was in the middle of a growth spurt when that happened. According to my doctor I still have a lot more growing (Height wise) to do, so...why did I shrink...

It just confuses me. Last time I checked I wasn't Merlin.

Not very long for the hardcore people with sucky lives, but I'm not that old.

So, I'm assuming something's wrong. I know what's wrong. But I can't fix it. There's no solution. I've been searching, everywhere, for every possible solution, but there just isn't one. It makes me depressed. If I can't solve my problems, I don't want them to haunt me all my life. They annoy the hell out of me. I just don't want to deal with them anymore. As much as I want to just push them aside, I can't anymore. I'm just not capable of doing that anymore. I've stopped being capable of doing many things.

I don't want to see a psychologist, and I don't want to talk to anyone about it. That's probably my biggest recovery problem. Besides ranting to Yahoo Answers about my issues, I've never told anyone. Psychologists are too dramatic, so that's understandable. But talking. I just can't do it. I want help. But no matter which way I look at it, I can't get it. It's just not plausible. I would take it should it be offered to me, but I generally am the last priority in my life. If doing something for myself means several others are hurt, I'm not going to do it. I can hold off.

I just don't know how much longer I can do so. I'm really reaching the end of my rope here. It's a shame really, because I'm often told by the people who know me that I'm an amazing guy and can ironically cheer people up quick. But...I don't know. I have to live though. I just really don't want to. I'm afraid that my body might just start shutting down like it did a few years ago. Even though I have the resolve that I can't die, my body is weaker than that.

I don't know. I'm sick of being in a state of wanting to die but not doing so simply because I can't. I know what ties I have to this world and what would happen to others should I just take the lame way out and kill myself. I'm not stupid. It's just hard not to kill myself. It's almost every day. I'll usually have 1 peaceful day where I'm too busy to think.

I'm trying Mental Health because the guys at Psychology usually don't read things longer than one paragraph. I don't know you guys. For all I know I might get some generic answers because suicidal folk are just a part of your daily routine. I think I just needed to vent. Hell if I know. I feel perfectly fine right now, but that's just the way it always goes. Anytime I go for help I feel perfect. It's almost as if I shouldn't even bother.

I keep having dreams of me committing suicide or the after part of committing suicide. So it's either me with a knife, or me being in a void panicking and freaking out. And it's weird because I'm not thinking about killing myself right before I go to sleep or anything.

So, is their any way to make these stop? Cuz last night the one I had was pretty morbid and messed up...and I don't get it. While I'm not the happiest guy I don't contemplate suicide all day long and wallow in my misery or anything. I dunno.

What did you live for?

I'm asking because I'm tired of life. I am. I've been through a lot for a 15 year old boy, and I just don't want to do it anymore. My academic prowess is completely gone, no matter how hard I try to get it back. I can't date for religious reasons, so I can't just cling to some girl. And I've lost all 30 or so of my friends over the past 2 years. I have one or two left, and our friendship has been falling apart because I haven't talked to them for a long while.

I've gone far too long in life with nothing to live for. What were you looking forward to when you were my age? What were some of your goals? I would look forward to College, and being happily married, but both of those things are starting to look unlikely.

Basically certain things have happened that caused me to lose my trust in everyone, and over time I've been able to trust my family enough to move on with daily life. However, people outside of my family are a different story. If anyone wants to befriend me or is nice to me, I always get weirded out and paranoid.

Now, I'm not trying to figure out why I can't trust anyone, because I already know the answer. I just need someone to give me a way to rebuild my ability to trust that doesn't involve a psychiatrist. Seriously. I don't have the time for that, and that's all that most people suggest.

I'm just curious. Yeah, freedom of speech and all that, but what business do you all have here? Are you looking for a good argument, or are you looking to irritate someone?

I guess my question is what do you feel your purpose is in coming here?

And it's starting to bug me. He's done this ever since I was little (Which was understandable back then), but now that I'm not a baby anymore he shouldn't be doing this. He says that since it's so hot (90 to 100 degrees), and since I take a PE class I can't do it because I won't make it. I asked him to give me a chance, and he says no. I told him that what he's doing is wrong, and he thought about it for a bit, but he came back to the same answer of no.

What do I do? I can't outright disobey him, and even if I were to, how would he not notice me eating in the morning and breaking my fast?

So I like this girl. I've liked her for 2 and a half years now. She liked me too for about 2 years, and I think she still likes me but I'm not sure. I've stopped noticing. Anyways, for certain reasons I can't date. I won't say why because I don't want to get into an argument.

So how do I stop myself from liking someone who probably still likes me? Don't tell me not to and to experience love and take chances or whatever, because that's not my problem. It's just that I can't. I'm not going to be dissuaded on this.

I'm really not that fast, but I was planning on working on that over the summer. My hand-eye coordination kind of sucks but it's not horrid, I'm just worse than most people. I'm in high school, and I've never been on a team before, so just suggest some sport that you think I'd like and wouldn't take a couple of years to master.