Ellie Bell

My dad if anything i'm the closest to, hes never mistreated me and hes always been there for me. But I want a daddy kind of figure in a relationship and I want to be someones babydoll/lolita kind of thing. Why would I want this and can I have daddy issues even if my daddy is perfect?!

Is it okay to take a long bath on my period or will the blood come out in the water? I'd rather not be floating around in my own blood so if I do should I wear a tampon..? Also is masturbating in the bath safe because of water getting up there ?!?

It always scares me to go swimming at a beach because arent beaches filled with urine, fish waste, trash, dead sea creatures, etc.. Wouldnt it be bad to have that water around the vagina? It seems totally unsanitary and it makes me not wanna swim lol.. How is it safe and would wearing a tampon in the water be more or less sanitary..?

Im 16 and I reallyy want to, every time im home alone I want to get high and see what its like and drink or smoke but my parents literally do not drink at all or approve of smoking or anything like that. I just really want to I know I shouldn't but I can't really do anything about it. ): What should I do

Im so numb I feel empty and I cant take it its making me aggitated and I have no release, and no expression. What do I do To feel something I want to feel depressed or elated and be able to act on it but I cant cut my skin, i'm clean for too long, what can I do? I need an easy way to feel something. I have no drinks im only 15 I have nothing but scars and fire and all I know how to feel is pain, but it is soo much more comforting than numb.. :(

I'm a 15 yr old girl 99% sure im not a psychopath but i'm wondering where I stand on the scale factor and if I should be worried/talk about it? Also what would be the most common symptoms?

The reason I ask this is because I was taking some quizzes online and I took a couple and the results of them said I may be a sociopath. So I looked up sociopath and I see about half of the symptoms in myself.. I am nowhere near psychopath because I do not lack empathy. ( I hope) .. I often fake care about things and fake my happiness for others and sadness for others and I never like to express my feelings in front of others. I cant regulate my emotions so that shows I have them which proves I couldn't be a psychopath, right?? but I am very manipulative, dont express what i'm thinking, very impulsive, intelligent, and although I know things are wrong I will still do them if they overall benefit me. I have a habbit of shoplifting although hvent gotten in real legal trouble. I also have diagnosed ADD, General Anxiety, and I have depression although i'm not diagnosed. Could I also have sociopathic tendencies or be a sociopath? Is there a much lesser term to descripe someone like me who is in between completely 'normal' and psychopathic?

Saw a picture of him standing by cinema words "Men Don't Protect You Anymore"

what does this mean and why did he take a picture with it? thanks !

I have a bunch of curly ones that stick up around my face and I'd like to straighten my hair but whenever I do it causes more around my face and causes them to break. I try to let them grow out because they usually go away but my hair is very wavy around my face so is it possible to straighten without damaging and causing them or should I avoid using heat?

I'm 15. I shoplift, Probably steal about $40 worth whenever I go shopping for myself.., If I talk to my therapist about it could he use the information against me because it is illegal.. I'm not sure what I should tell him and what I shouldn't

I'm 15 and i'm not sure how self-checkouts really work but i'm sure they aren't hard to figure out as long as I can pay in cash. I don't smoke I just would like to have lighters in my room on handy for lighting candles. I look pretty young and I don't want to have to worry about people questioning me or anything.. Can I just do it at the self checkout line and will I need ID/credit card to buy lighters?

I tore a muscle in my right hand. I use this hand all the time, for typing on my phone and for writing in school, so it's hard to not use it. How do Iet it heal when it keeps tearing in the exact same place? I think it hasn't finished healing because I keep tearing it but i want to let it heal. I have to use it all the time so what can I do?

I had to write an essay relating integrity to the book "A Tale of Two Cities" by Charles Dickens and I want an interesting title

Strange like I really think too clearly and i'm totally lost at the same time, like sometimes I wanna jump off a bridge and sometimes I don't please help me I don't know how to explain to anyone what goes

on in my head..

I feel so messed up and I don't know where to begin or even what to say to fill in the silence

This sounds kinda gross but when i'm on my period it sometimes makes my stomach and reflexes weird so sometimes I throw up a little and basically I took my prescription medication (unrelated to this) but I accidently threw it up, should I take it again or not..? I'm sorry for this horrible question

I don't think I am one but i've heard it in a couple of comments and i'm so confused I don't know what to do anymore ): Please describe narcissism..

I don't like to express sadness in front of anyone especially my close friends therapist or anyone because lately it makes me feel absalutely pathetic . I feel like sadness and emotions are pathetic so I try my hardest to seem like I don't care about anything and I can answer questions factually by not letting myself feel or get to me. It only works for a while and when it gets hard I hold back tears until the point where they just slip out silently and the muscles in my face start to feel weird, I don't know what to do because i've become so conditioned to do this that I feel horrible whenever I am forced to feel, (when I have to answer questions) and I don't know how to let my guard down and feel comfertable/not tense/not anxious. Please help me this is seriously a problem for me and i'm only 15 so it could get a lot worse if I don't do anything.. I'm asking for advice on how to feel comfertable expressing myself like that and i'm asking how adults/ friends would percieve this.

I don't like to express sadness in front of anyone especially my therapist or anything because lately it makes me feel absalutely pathetic . I feel like sadness and emotions are pathetic so I try my hardest to seem like I don't care about anything and I can answer questions factually by not letting myself feel or get to me. It only works for a while and when it gets hard I hold back tears until the point where they just slip out silently and the muscles in my face start to feel weird, I don't know what to do because i've become so conditioned to do this that I feel horrible whenever I am forced to feel, (when I have to answer questions) and I don't know how to let mt guard down and feel comfertable/not tense/not anxious. Please help me this is seriously a problem for me and i'm only 15 so it could get a lot worse if I don't do anything.. I'm asking for advice on how to feel comfertable expressing myself like that and i'm asking how doctors/ proffesional adults percieve this.

I don't like to express sadness in front of anyone especially my therapist or anything because lately it makes me feel absalutely pathetic . I feel like sadness and emotions are pathetic so I try my hardest to seem like I don't care about anything and I can answer questions factually by not letting myself feel or get to me. It only works for a while and when it gets hard I hold back tears until the point where they just slip out silently and the muscles in my face start to feel weird, I don't know what to do because i've become so conditioned to do this that I feel horrible whenever I am forced to feel, (when I have to answer questions) and I don't know how to let my guard down and feel comfertable/not tense/not anxious. Please help me this is seriously a problem for me and i'm only 15 so it could get a lot worse if I don't do anything.. I'm asking for advice on how to feel comfertable expressing myself like that and i'm asking how doctors/ proffesional adults percieve this.

Someone told me it was, I don't know why it would be because if anything I thought it was healthy for me. Well my therapist tells me to do yoga and deep breathe and my friend is telling me not to because its spirirtually bad please if anyone understands what is bad about it would you care to explain