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Well of course, the world changes. There's more storms in countries with more pollution and dirty streets. I lived in the capital of argentina once. It was dirtier than the US, of course. Well, not as clean as where i live. Anyway, in Argentina, there is a lot of pullution because the capital is a huge city with a hand full of tall apartments and sky scrapers. There are cars everywhere and dogs sh*tting on the ground without their owners cleaning it up. People even litter. I was so surprised when i was first there. There were at least about one thunder storm a week. Rarely, a thunderstorm every two weeks. I'm not sure about my estimate, but there were a lot of storms. I could see that the world will change, and argentina's capital along with all the other big cities will become a disaster. I moved back to the states. I don't live in a big city or anything, just a small town i guess. But near Los Angeles. I've been to Los Angeles every weeks for over a year. I liked it there. But there were a lot of pollution and cars. but no one really littered, so yeah. There's rarely any storms here.

Once in a while, i would imagine the past, when i wasn't even born. no cars, no tall building, and no electricity. I bet there would be one storm every year. I saw one picture of California long ago in my history text books. It was snowing, people where riding on horses or using them as vehicles, people wearing hats and coats, no tall buildings. the air would probably be so fresh and clean.

Well this is what i think. I'm comparing the past and now in my imagination, and what would happen. I'm thinking that there would be more volcanoes erupting, more storms, more rain, and no stars visible at all. Well, i cant see the stars right now anyway. I remember when i was young, like around 4-6 years old, i would sit on a chair with my family, and look out. i could see the stars so well. but now, all i see it pitch black and the moon when looking at the sky at night. It's such a difference. It's only been 7 years ago when the stars were visible. I'm 11 now. Now, dont get me wrong. I'm just a curious little girl. Please just tell me what you think would happen in 2012.

i hear fireworks :)

I'm hungry 24/7, Maybe i'm exaggerating, but i seem to digest quickly. O___o when i'm full, i'm not full for a long time. I go hungry right away. I just came back from a restaraunt. I wasn't exactly full... but i wasn't hungry either. Then when i came home, i was hungry. I'm craving for fish :D and like always, chips and peanut butter<33. luckily, i don't have chips and peanut butter right now. at least i wont be eating those junk foods in a while. Anyway, i feel like dying, without fish, chips, and peanut butter. Maybe not peanut butter, but i'm bored and i eat peanut butter when i'm bored. I'm bored all the time- awww my sad sad life. Anyway, i seem like i need to eat all the time. and i'm hungry most of the time, and so most of the time, i feel really unhealthy. Like i feel a small feeling that i need to throw up. and i feel that i ate 5 ramen noodle soup in a row(which is really unhealthy. Even eating it three times a week is unhealthy). I feel unhealthy, BECAUSE I'M HUNGRY! I'm healthy weight. I'm slowly gaining weight, but struggling to stay healthy weight. I know i'm healthy weight, but since i'm hungry, i feel like i'm anorexic for starving. There's nothing to eat, so... lolol. Anyway, i'm not anorexic at all. I've been eating a lot these days. Maybe it's because i'm bored? I couldn't go out of home usually, and couldn't get fresh air becuase there's no reason to do. and i planned to hang out with friends because i was so bored, but i couldn't for some reason. anyway, I'M WORRYING SOO MUCH! What if i have an eating disorder? Please help. i just don't know what's going on with me. it's winter break so there's really nothing to do- which causes me to be bored all the time. Thanks btw. And question if you dont know : What's wrong with me?

I'm bored, so i thought of taking any person's weight and height and finding the BMI and finding out if it's considered normal weight. I'm soo bored. It's winter break, so there's really nothing to do. thanks.

Well i just exercised for 30 minutes. I'm planning on exercising another 30 minutes again after lunch today. Anyway, i ate breakfast. Like, a lot. I'm still pretty hungry. I was hungry even before exercising.

I just weighed myself. I'm 101.5 lbs. Lol, before i exercised, i was 102.5 lbs. Strange.. i only exercised for 30 mins. O__o anyway, i'm like... like... 5'2 or 5'1. Around there.

I'm always hungry. It's bothering me. Even during school, i'm hungry almost 24/7. I can't seem to stop eating. I'm those type of girls who eat like lards, and i'm not obese or anything. I'm healthy weight. I like it. But 3 weeks ago when i lived in south america, i was 94 pounds..? and then now i'm 101 pounds after coming to the US. Like, i gained so much weight. :PP I decided to eat chips(i was craving for chips eversince coming here), and i ate a lot of peanut butter for fun. I get bored too easily.

Okay, back to the point. I'm getting fatter and fatter, and i stopped growing already anyways. Is there a way to stop being HUNGRY 24/7??!! it's been on my nerves for a year or two. T.TT I can't seem to stop it. BTW, i don't have a huge stomach. Actually, all my weight are on my legs.

I also get cramps and pains on my stomach area after i eat. I'm starting to worry. What could be wrong with me? It started suddenly, like a week ago. i only eat junk food well, but other foods, my body doesn't seem to accept. but i don't throw up or anything, i'm fine, just that i have a nausea feeling before eating. it goes away after eating, but i also get stomach pains after i eat. like, whenever i eat. >.< i'm starting to worry... what could it be?

Or will it be considered over-exercising?

I'll be asking lots of questions, so beware :)

I'm planning on toning up my legs soon, because my legs are weak and ugly.

Oh yeah, will jogging also give me curves? I cannot live without curves on my legs.

Will jogging bulk up my legs? What can i do to prevent bulking legs?

my legs will build muscle, right? If my legs build muscle, will it also burn fat, or just build up and make my legs even thicker?

Will stretching exercises twice a day help me in toning and slimming down my legs?

I'm those kind of people who only lose weight on the upper body parts and gain weight on the bottom body part. But my stomach can lose fat and gain fat really easily, it is no joke.

If jogging doesn't work, does wearing high heels and replacing jogging with dancing help? Thanks :) I just want to fix my legs up.

The flame has an outline of blue, and the rest is bright yellow. It's interesting to look at, and it calms me down. and why is it a stress reliever? it doesn't have a scent btw.

You see, i'm totally crazy about keeping my face flawless, but i still have acne and i'm trying to treat them with some home remedies. Products dont seem to work for me.

Up thousands of feet high in the air, water get's recycled and you skin becomes dehydrated. so i'm wondering what i should take. Any advice? like should i take a hydrating mask? BTW, i'm 11, but i seriously am humiliated by my acne and i live in the south and in a week, i'll be flying over to California. :) anyway, i do have hydrating cream. is that all i need? hydrating cream? what else? thanks. :)

I have crazy, huge(exaggerated) blackheads on my nose. Seems like there's more blackheads than before. I dont have blackheads on my chin though. Just my nose.

It annoys me, because it's getting darker and darker. I heard they are clogged pores? Would pore strips work?I use a scrub(exfoliater) at least 4-5 a week. I am also asking for some home remedies, if you can tell me. I just hate my blackheads. I can squeeze them out because it's on my nose and my nose is sensitive. I love my nose. anyway, my blackheads are like... growing? i heard they are clogged pores, and squeezing them will damage the pores and i would totally ruin my skin.

I have acne. Like, crazy amounts of pimples on my forehead. But i've seen a huge improvement while my blackheads got worse. I dont care about my pimples right now. I was so erase my blackheads out. Any advice? I hate me acne..

I didn't want to eat for a long time. I didn't eat a few times, and i'm about to faint but i still dont want to eat at all. I'm starting to worry. D: What's wrong with me? I used to eat like crazy just like my sister, but not gain weight. Now i'm just avoiding food. I'm worrying.

i want to start a collection.

Dear Isabella(if you're reading this), please do not make fun of my of this lol

ANYWAY! I want to start a collection. I practically live in California, Los Angeles. And i'm a huge fan of them, and i want like a calender, and all those stuff. Poster :D Anyway, where can i get them? I dont really care about the price, as long as i know where it is sold at. Do you guys know any place where they sell anything of SHINee? It can be ANYTHING. Like, anything. as long as it's SHINee. Lol. I'm just those fangirls. But nothing like the crazy fangirls.. anyway! I can't go to korea since my mom freaking wont let me. T.T only my sister can go. Anyway, i <3 SHINee, so i need a little help here. I have nothing of SHINee.

Where can I buy anything of SHINee? Hehe. Thanks. Don't make fun of me though D:

I lost my camera charger, and my cam is low on battery. Where would you hide if you were a camera charger?

Sometimes i feel like i'm me infront of everyone, and right now, i feel lost. How do i be me when i dont know who i really am? my mom came and kinda hurt/abuse(kinda?) with words, saying she's going to abandon me, but i dont care. Though i still am a bit emotional. anyway, i now feel lost in who i am.

How do i be ME, when i don't really even know who i really am?

My mom accused me of not wanting to go to school. To be Honest here, i love school. I always want to go. I'm not obese nor over-weight. I dont snore, so that isn't the problem. I sometimes sleep for 7 hours, and sometimes sleep for about 9-10 hours.

well the problem is, she thinks i purposely didn't wake up when my parents tried to wake me up 4 times. I said i was in a deep sleep, and that i dont remember anything even if they did. I know they did. They aren't immature and lie. And my dad too. he isn't immature. They kinda took my alarm clock months ago, so they can use it themselves for work. They are too lazy to buy a seperate one. anyway, eversince, they have been waking me up. and eversince they took my alarm clock(even if they're my alarm clock), i would have a hard time waking up.

Sometimes, my dad would wake me up late because he was too busy watching videos on the internet. Whats the point with him having the alarm clock when he cant wake me up properly? I need my own alarm clock. it's mine. But my mom accused me this morning for not waking up. Again, i have a hard time waking up. i'm 11. I used to have a hard time sleeping. i dont anymore, but i still sometimes have to lay in bed for hours straight till i can fall asleep. She accused me because my dad said when he was trying to wake me up, i told him that i didn't want to go to school and whined. IT could've been sleep talking. I just realized, my dad is pretty stupid. Anyway, he got annoyed and just left. I kinda woke up. half asleep. and i saw my dad ready to leave for work. i called him and asked why he didnt wake me up(because i dont remember. he's so mean to me). He ignored me, but he obviously heard me. He ignored and left. I fell asleep. i woke up because my mom was calling me. the phone ringing woke me up. she was telling me why i didnt wake up and go to school. I told her everything. It just happens that a long time ago, really long time ago, i was bullied so i didnt go to school for days. And that effected my relation with my parents. That was a long time ago. That time, my parents didn't give a sh*t even if i had like, 5 cuts on my arm.they thought they had a worse time. they still dont give a sh*t about me. These days, i love school. i always skip to my mom after school, to my mom, laughing/smiling all the time. i was always happy. but she still doesnt believe me. And she came home, yelling at me. Telling me to live my own life and that she wont chip in money at all. She also says that she regrets giving birth to me, and ever taking care of me.

You see, i have a couple of mental illnesses, all caused by abuse from my parents. I have paranoia, ADD, and i might have Borderline Personality disorder(which i will get checked up by a doctor and get therapy for). I have zero therapy right now. So nothing is curing my mental illnesses. Anyway, this is all caused by being mentally and emotionally abused. And seeing my siblings physically, mentally, and emotionally abused. they're adults now, and they live alone. Lucky them.

anyway, i'm accused. I hate my parents, and they hate me. It all happened so fast. I woke up, and i was in trouble for something i did nothing wrong in. i dont remember anything! How am i supposed to control myself? My mom still thinks i did it on purpose. She's so stupid, and she doesn't realize what i've been through. She knew i had mental illness, and she didn't do anything about it. She's going to take me to the hospital in december, after a year of paranoia. -___- fk her. Again, i'm 11. And she tells me that she regrets giving birth to me, and her life is ruined because of me. and she says that she doesn't want to live because of me. and my parents say "it's no point in raising her. She's just going to ditch us when she gets everything she needs". They dont give me sh*t. I'm not going to live with them forever. -___- anyway, i hate how i'm accused. I'm alone at home right now, and i am so emotional. I wanted a FINE life and i prayed to God everyday for a NORMAL life like all the other girls get. but it gets worse everyday now. What do i do with my life? I want to live with my sister. She knows how i feel, and she's always there for me when we're separated over thousands of miles away. She still contacts me to see if i'm okay. my parents take all my sister's credits for taking care of me. She's giving me what i have, and my parents did nothing but give me education, bed, and food. How do i convince my mom? whatever i say, whatever i do to prove her wrong, she tells me all this sh*t and still thinks shes right. She also threatened my dad and i when we went fishing at the river. She was really drunk. she threatened that she would jump into the water and commit suicide if we would be nicer to her. I am still concerned about her, and i still love my parents. But they dont love me

This morning, my parents tried to wake me up. IT seems to be that last night, i was so tired and worn out the whole day, i didn't feel like going to school. But of course, i had to go. my mom knew i didn't feel like going to school the next day.

My parents tried to wake me up 4 times. It's not my fault that i was so tired the day before, that i fell in a long, deep sleep. i dont ever remember telling my dad that i didn't want to go to school. i never remember my parents waking me up. i never remembered replying to my parents when i was sleeping. Probably sleep talking, like what i did once when my sister tried to wake me up a long time ago. But that's not the problem here. My dad told my mom that i told him that i didnt want to go to school. WTF is he trying to do to me? I did NOT say that! My dad is my real dad, so i have no idea why he did it. I remember seeing my dad get ready and leave. and i called for him, and asked him why he didnt wake me up. he just left, and i fell back asleep. Then i heard my mom call, and i woke up and got the phone call. she told me why i hadn't gone to school. i told her everything, and she told me what my dad told her. it was so fake and lies! so i told her that my dad might have tried waking me up, but since i didn't hear and i was in deep sleep, i didnt wake up. and shes like "then do you expect us to shake you and use profanity to wake you up? We're sick of having to wake you up 4 times in the morning!" it isn't my fault! They took my alarm clock(which i wake up to it really easily) so they could use it since they have to wake up earlier. But it's so ghay! My mom thinks everything i said is bullsh*t. I could tell that my dad did try to wake me up because i found breakfast made for me on the table. He usually makes breakfast and wakes me up. he puts my breakfast on the table. Anyway, my mom didnt believe me because i didnt go to school and whined a long time ago when i got bullied pretty harshly. and shes telling me that she doesnt want to live anymore because of me. WTF? WHAT THE HELL DID I DO THIS TIME? I DID NOTHING BUT SLEEP AND NOT WAKE UP! and i told her what she wanted me to do about my sleeping habits when she doesn't even give a sh*t about me. I hate her now!

She's accusing me of such things! and my parents both hate me! WTF? sorry mom and dad for my mental illnesses and my sleeping problems which you caused! I hate them! they dont even listen to me when i told them the reasons to my mental illnesses! they take whatever i say as bullsh*t and trash. What am i supposed to do? How can i convince her that i wasn't lying about anything, because i wasnt! I'm 11 btw, and i've been through enough .Please help.

She's judging me. Only her. but it still brings me down and i feel hated by everyone(when not, really). I hate my best friend. Okay, Isabella, if you're reading this, i mean my best friend in my country. Lol, You're still cool!

Anyway, she's always judging me, and my best friend starts joining in, because she's in a bad social situation. She probably thinks that joining other girls will make herself become in a better situation. Now i hate my best friend, and i just feel like hanging out with other girls, because she's just such a btch.

anyway, i want this girl to stop. i love my life, and i love my own self. i love my personality. She's judging me about how weird/crazy i am, and how i should study more. But that's me, and she's judging me. TBH here, we have same grades. She conceals herself. I dislike how she judges me. I dont dislike her, but i dislike her when she judges me. How should i tell her to stop judging when she does?

When people who conceal the real THEM, they always call me weird, when i have to say, this is me. Some people love me for me. For my personality. People who conceal themselves seem to always judge me. Like this girl who i kinda dislike, but i have to say, i sometimes have to start liking and stop hating. Anyway, like the girl. She's having a hard time. Her personality is horrible, and she used to bully every girl individually, which caused me mental illness. She dumped trash on me(not literally, but with drama) pretty harshly, and i was really hurt, for the first time of my life. I thank her, because i used to conceal myself. And other people also told me to "be" MYSELF.

I'm ME, and will ALWAYS be ME.. and i wont change it. I hate it when this girl brings me down, saying "omfg, is she crazy of something?" and giving me a disgusted face. A lot of other people love me for my personality. She's bringing me down, and embarrasses me. sometimes, i just want to slap her.

I feel hated during these moments, because she always gossips to me friends about how weird i am. I am NOT weird! okay, maybe i am. but you should know what i mean, right? She's concealing herself, while i'm showing everyone who i really am. I can get really emotional when it comes to these things. it hurts me a lot. Because of who i am, i'm starting to change. I used to conceal myself, like i said. I'm starting to be a lot more social with male students in our class, when i used to speak ZERO with them. Now i'm starting to help them during class and i'm starting to joke around with them a lot. hehe. anyway, this girl keeps judging me. Saying i should study, saying i'm weird, and she's being a total btch(she is a btch to everyone, but only judges me).

Either she hates me, or she just judges me just because i'm a year or two younger than everyone in the class. all the people treat me "lower" than the other kids, because i'm the youngest, and i'm so sick of being treated like this. But i still stay myself, but i hate the judging.

Why bring me down? Why does she judge me?i can pick everything wrong about her, and judge her. But TBH here, because of who i am, i can't. Shes judging me by who i am. I hate it! For who i am, people love me the most for who i am. And TRUE friends love me for who i am. But what brings me down is her. It makes me upset. How do i tell her to stop judging me? I'm so emotional and hurt when it comes to people judging me. thanks for reading all this, btw.

What i like best in a guy is a sense of humor, cute, height(tall), and intelligence.

I'm a girl, so i'm telling you guys what i like best in a guy. What about you guys? Like, the opposite gender?

Well, basically, i have dark circles/bags under my eyes. I did some research, and i got quite a lot of information. I have bags under my eyes(my friends have like, zero >.<) even if i sleep for 14 hours. so i found out that i lack iron in my foods. What foods have iron in them? I swear, i didn't have such HUGE bags when i was young!