The Star

I am bored as hell and dont know what to do.Ive pretty much gone all around the world with google and now everything is boring.Ive read everything.Can someone please talk to me I wanna talk to some emo guy. Im a guy but who gives a ***. Emo guy cuz reminds me of my highschool friends who i no longer talk too.

Ok he's a guy and im a guy.He pinches my nipples.I feel weird cuz it turns me on.He has a gf my cousin. Is he bi or is he just messing wit me.Im bi just so you know.There is more.

Before he would try to avoid me,like he would not come home when I slept over my cousins house because I was there..But when he sees me he is always smiling.Also when I shake his hand he holds it longer than usual I also hold it more than usual.I am in love with him, do you think he might be too or at least like me.But also he probably is in love with my cousin.I dont know.I still try to avoid him but the more I try the more I see him.I also tried to kill my emotions towards him by making pretend he isnt there,he also acted that way.Like not talk to eachother say,hi and stuff like that.Sometimes we would say bye and just be smiling.Also one time he was kinda drunk at a party and he was staring at me,I got goosebumps by the way he was looking at me and the length of time.I just dont know what to think anymore and do.By the way my cousin isnt the best lover,she doesnt treat him the way I think he should be treated,but watever.What do you think is he bi or is he just messing with my head.

So there was this girl who I was talking to through internet.Both in our early twenties.I liked her and she was saying she liked me aswell.The problem is that she is from another country in central america. We talked through yahoo. Well we were getting to know eachother simple things like fav. food ect. ect. Well all of a sudden I started to ignore her.I lost interest.I never replied to her.My dad is best friends with her father.I do not feel bad because I think it is best for both of us since I do not think it will ever work out.I feel like I was just vulnerable at the time I started talking to her,and is actually the second person who admitted to liking me.Im not ugly or anything that I have not had a girlfriend.I think its just I never have the right words to say.But with her she was kind of the dominant one.Either way do you think it was wrong that I just stopped talking to her?Oh my dad told her that my internet was not working.BUt yea i never talked back to her.So I was in a desperate situation I talked to her and felt like she was the answer than I felt I can do better than some foreign relationship.I do not know if I did something wrong or just did what was best for me,what do you think?I think she is better without me anyways.She is successful and everything Im a depressed negative person.What could be wrong with me if I do not feel bad?