Rafaela

Some days ago my tutor had birthday and I bought her a present and she started to cry I mean I felt like I wanted but I couldn't cry too. I don't know. I was watching and was like i'm glad you like my present because she's a very important person to me. Then again, my sister was crying about something because she is stubborn and she suddenly burst out crying I was hugging her and stuff but I couldn't cry too. I don't know why or in cases like that I will daydream wtf is wrong with me. But I love those people :/.... I don't if it's just a phase or something... what do you think?

That's why I just came here to talk when I'm at my worst or at my limit... I don't expect necessarily an answer cuz there's not really. i think. So, i ****** up on my exams last year...a very serious thing.. i dont enjoy studying thats the truth but i know i have to do this because i have hopes that it might get me somewhere i want in the future... anyway so i failed on my exams... i tried but not much thats why i didnt have the results i wanted so im repeating this year..i hope i can make it better. last year i didnt do good on my exams because of parents pressure, love pressure wanted a guy who didnt care about me i mean he just threw me away like that in the end cuz we were far away so it was hard for me so i did bad on my final exams.. right now im definitely more mature i try more and i see something different in me..and that makes me really happy you know. i mean nothing's better than seeing the results ofyour progress..its a good impact on me..but lately this month im starting to think about sex or guys a lot again. im alone at house studying and i just cant stop this abt guys. i like them a lot i want love something's missing thats what i always feel.. and this life of studying is driving me nuts. after my studying i always serf on the net talking with guys that will never move on to something different. and the worst is that all these things im doing are bullshits because this year's supposed to be my ******* awesome year with success.i feel like im suffocating.help!

she used to have a 6 years relationship with someone and she said to us that she would get divorce and left our dad because that man seemed quite serious about her but then he went at the hospital because he had problem so he couldnt have sex so my mum was disappointed and left him sadly for her.. so she stayed with my dad then after a while she had other relationships too affairs or something.. then now three months ago she found someone new and i couldnt hold myself it was in my birthday i looked in her messages writing to him that she loves him and bullshits and that person is not married and my mum hides it she wants to play it free or wtf... its kind of funny but it irritates me i mean it hurts me cuz i know what is right.. i dont want her to tell my dad lies... actually i dont ******* care about my dad because he never gets a hint and whenever im sad or angry and fight with my mum because of that he doesnt know why and he thinks im crazy.... he wants to go to a psychologist... it's ******* weird...i just hate the fact he thinks im crazy... when it's not that... so i wanna quite caring about my mum's affairs... but at the same time it just hurts my feelings and im becoming antisocial because whenever im on pc and watch things they make me forget other things like that for example... i just dont know what to do... im thinking abt telling my dad everything next june when my exams will be over but then my mum says that if i do so then she will hate me and will get depressed

First of all, my name is Rafaela and about a week ago I turned 18.

I've never been kissed before like ever. and people always ask me ''how did that happened.'' and i really don't know the answer myself. Since im unexperienced it's not easy to touch and feel the touch of someone or their lips.. just hands for nowSso there's this guy we talked on the internet for about 2 years.. his name is Jim and he's 17 years old. This guy lives close to my house we even have similar friends but we never met before face to face. We even fought months ago and he suddenly talked to me again about a week ago that he wants me to go to his house and in the start he meant something like kiss or sex. I told him the truth that i've never been kissed before in my life 'til now and he believed me but it was weird for him. He was like''when do you think you will be ready about sex and kiss at the age of 50?'' well i didn't know what to say. i mean whenever i'm ready? just that. So, since I've never been kissed before i knew it was bad to go to his house just like that and stay 'til 3 am in the morning but something inside me was pushing me to do it. So I went to his house. it was yesterday.. and we watched a movie it was fun the first one hour and we were laughing.Then when the movie was over he said''What do you wanna do so you and me come closer'' I got his meaning but I said nothing I told him that it's not easy for me and he said it is.And nothing happened.Since then he hasn't talked to me.I'm sad.

I just finished golden time a new anime and I felt in.love with Tada Banri he's just so cute and cool I prefer anime characters than real boys cuz they're not gentlemen:( I just want to.know if itsso weird?!

I know what you will read will be like''wtf this girl is stupid'' or ''weird'' and stuff... but I really need to know what should I do... So, last summer a guy named Jim(by the way he's living near me like 15 minutes away and i haveseen him before but two years ago, he doesnt remember me) anyway... this guy saw that im a big linkin park fan and he added me to the linkin park fans team on facebook.. i dont know why but he was putting many likes to me.. like many!! all the time.. i did the same... then after a few weeks he talked to me.. he said''lol many likes.. we put to each other'' then i said'yeah lol i like the taste you have in music:)'' then he said''thanks you have a good taste in music too:)'' it was nice :) i started to like him a lot more then.. he was very handsome too.. and from what i remember years ago he was handsome too... he just doesnt remember me but he has seen my sister.. hmm, so after a couple of days actually three months of talking.. we had fun together.. but i was scared that i'd lose him the way we talk if we keep talking about the same stuff.... :( so i started to tell him about ''have u ever had sex before?'' or ''would u like to have sex?'' and stuff like that(so stupid-_- i am!) and i started all that conversation because i was scared to lose him because guys like these kind ofconversations about sex... i just didnt want him to just talking to me.. i was in love with him:( then the only thing we talked was about sex! then september came and school started..we kind of starting talking less to each other.. he still put like on links or pictures of me.. i did the same.... but i learn he had another girlfriend he knew for three years at a camp... but they broke up eventually on december.. i didnt know what to do what to think... he said he'd like to meet each other i said the same but i was still scared that if sees me in person not from pictures he wont like me.. cuz pictures are pictures.. in reality people seem a little different.... i mean im not the tallest person.. and he's very tall... anyway the thing is accidentally i saw this guy two times on the street! but he didnt see me... the first time was one month ago.. and the second time yesterday! i saw him and he was so beautiful seriously my heart started beating fast and i became red and i couldnt breathe lol i felt like i havents seen anything more beautiful before... anyway i saw him but i didnt want him to see me cuz im so ******* scared... :(( seriously im not confident at all.. im super duper shy... i cant think clear sometimes when im so shy... it sucks:( and i talked to him last night that i saw him yesterday and he said u should have said hi.. i was like i know..:( next time... but even if i say it next time that wont solve anything i mean i can't :( im so scared... if i meet him ever again? for the third time.. and this time he sees me... how can i be confident? and dont act stupid.. and make him freak out? :( :P i really want to keep talking to him...

My star sign is leo and my many of my girl friends are crazy about star signs and they are like they judge me.. ''it's weird you are leo, you are not even stubborn or selfish you look like cancer most'' and stuff like that.. and because they had boyfriends who were leos and they broke up with them.. they are all know like''why are you ******* leo? my exs were leos'' I MEAN WHAT THE ****...... :P isn't it wrong to just judge someone by the star sign even his personality.. its like racist or something.... >.<

Theres a guy named Alex.. and i like almost three years now but two years ago i didnt pay so much attention and i always saw him at times looking at me even this year whwn school started...and in class sometimes..and last year he deleted only me and a friend of mine from facebook and i think its because he was jealous...but one month ago he made a frien request..i accepted and thats it..at school he doesnt look at me that much like he used too and now i ferl so weird because i do like him very much..!!! but sometimes he looks at me but i dont understand at all:/ what do you think?

I'm sick and tired of guys..... they hurt you so much........ what should i do to forget someone? :(

can you like someone that you just have talked only 1 month.. and just seeing only his pictures? :/ i mean you can like him but can you fell in love? :s

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Do you know what's the name of an italia movie...only when it released i know at 2007.... the plot is''about a girl and a guy...romantic.... the guy is really flirty and has money and has sex with many women and drinks and lives life to the full.... without caring about studying hard..because he is pretty he can do whatever he wants... there's a girl that likes that guy and she is not really attractive with her outfit and she works hard the opposite of the guy.... and when they both meet he just wants her and plays with her and kisses her so she can help him pass a test for a job ...but the girl fells in love with him....and when she founds out about that...she doesn't help him pass the test and she becomes prettier and she gets over her ugly outfit...and in the end he loves her and she still does...and they kiss....and blah the endo! but i can't remember what was the name :/ three years ago i've seen this movie lol and i don't know how it stuck to my mind..so if you know please tell me!!! :D

I am in love with a guy one year now..and I have to see him around three months..but i still like him and i think i am in love with him...i have dreams with him..some make me happy some are just like ignoring..some i forget them..some make me a little little sad..i miss him..and at school it was like i wasnt there..i didnt even exist for him :/ and yesterday after some dreams with him this summer..there was a dream that i was with my best friend..and we were at school.My friend said to me to come in at school and she saw the guy i am in love with and she said to me"Look who is there?;)" and i saw him smiling to his friend or someone i dont really remember then he looked at me and i felt weird like really shy but at the same time i wanted to look at him..but then i said to my best friend to leave from here and go somewhere else..and she said to stay here and that i must do something when he is looking at me..she was right....but when i was going to leave my friend took my hand and tried to not let me leave from here with pressure xD so the guy i am in love with was starring at me the whole time lol and i was like"perfect now he will think im crazy stupid girl" and anyway he was looking at me and he was coming at me..then my friend left and the he said to me to sit at the stairs and i said okay..then he said"I like your hair they are better like that :)" and i said''thanks :)" and he said to me"Do you want to go out with me?" and i said''yes :))" and he came closer and kissed me and i kissed him back..it was really great but while we were kissing he suddenly said"wait a minute" and i said"okay" and then something happened i dont really remember..but do you think that my dream will come true? :) what my dream means? :)

Does anyone know if Grayson Chance is gay?! because i like him as a singer a lot and i will be really dissapointed :( ..i don't have something with gays but i hope this little kid is not :D

i wonder what cosmonaut means because i only know astronaut..but cosmonaut i have heard it somewhere but never payed attention to it..i thought it was interesting as a word..but i never looked for what might means..if you know what it means please tell me..even if you are surprised that i dont know it..because is an easy word xD ^^ btw thx;)

Math Geeks,help. F_{s,n}(k) = \sum_{i=1}^{k-n+1} {F_{s,1}(i) F_{s,n-1}(k - i)} \,

please..tell me what's the name of the song..that goes like that...|i wanna push it..push it down on mee" pleasee if you know the song tell me what's the name of the song..'cause i was looking for it..a lot..but i could still find it..i saw an interview..and both guys were singing that song..and was really cool :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36s7eDoLHHc i saw this interview..Logan and Kendall were singing that..on 1:29 and it was really cool :DD i wanna know what the name is please..if you know..tell me :)) thnxxx a loottt!!!!;D