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I'm feeling ****

I'm new to this and haven't even written a book, I'm just curious, let's say I finished writing an amazing book, I know it's unlikely. Just for arguments sake let's say me an unknown author wrote a book as good as the hunger games and wanted to publish it what would be the best way to do so? How would you stop another person from stealing it and selling it.

I always carry a journal around and sometimes I feel like writing stuff in it, it could be when walking through the woods I stop and write about the birds chirping or a deer that ran when it saw me or completely crazy stuff like what it would be like if I were the deer and saw me. I also write about how I feel and the magic of whatever surrounds me, by magic I mean how it makes me feel, kind of like a diary, there's lots of personal information in there too like who I fancy, my dreams and how I miss certain people or how the world felt. I don't care if anyone reads it it probably wouldn't make sense, I just write and later when I read it it makes sense to me.

I feel great, however, people tend to stare sometimes. I remember one day in the park a football landed beside my bench and a group of 12 year olds started chanting nerd, nerd, nerd. I didn't mind, I wrote about it, then one of their mothers gave out and said sorry to me, she then proceeded by saying it was weird though writing about her boy's, she got angry so I explained myself and left. I wrote about it later, none of this bothered me though, people often ask why? Or is it not boring? Or why don't you do what a normal person does? People tend to latch on to something different, sometimes genuinely curious, other times just to annoy and other times people just innocently ask, I get mixed reactions from those. Do you think it's weird and should I really leave the writing for when I'm alone in the house.

Apart from the obvious college which will be an option in a few years if I save enough stacking shelves but for now where can I learn physics and chemistry what are some good online sources

I used to be a catholic then I became an atheist but part of me wants to believe there is a god but here's my problem, 1) God created night and day. 2) sky and sea 3) land and vegetation 4) light..... Wait how did he know what a day was without light? What was the difference between night and day without light? How did plants grow and how could God build all this in the dark? Then there's the whole thing of making a man from clay and a woman from his rib? Why not make her from clay?

Then there's the garden of Eden, we all came from Adam and Eve? If God didn't want the forbidden fruit to be eaten why did he create the snake, then I was looking at the punishments, adam shall work, Eve shall feel pain in labour and the snake must spend the rest of his days on his belly which snakes already did, otherwise why are worms also punished or slugs?

Then there's the whole Noah's ark thing if God pissed at people why kill all the animals too, also how did he fit 5000000 species of animals on an arc, also if the world is only 5000 years old wouldn't there be evidence of this huge ship and how are there Asians, blacks, whites etc. if Noah and another girl were the only 2 people.

It seems to me every religion is made of obvious mistruths backed up by blind faith, please give me some light I would love to believe again. I don't mean to cause offence I just want to know how I can believe, especially when I see the wealth of the Vatican compared with the poverty of the world, the word cult?

A good friend of mine and devoted catholic lost her father 3 months ago, and has been wearing all black ever since and today for the first time wore green. She is very religious(Roman Catholic) and started crying when talking to other friends about her father. She is going away next week and I want to give her a gift, I heard religious medals can be comforting what would you recommend I get.

I don't know how to exactly describe this but if someone abuses me my chest seizes up and my breathing goes faster, my heart pumps and I start crying I'm a coward basically.

I'm a passafist so I say, I hate confrontation or maybe I fear confrontation I dunno. But anyway I'm really embarrassed about this and I want to overcome this. Last week me and my girlfriend were having dinner and I ordered spaghetti with cheese and the waiter gave me spaghetti without cheese so I just ate it, it turns out a scumbag ordered spaghetti and the waiter apologised and said he gave me his one instead and went back inside. The man started roaring abuse at me and came over asking me what the f was wrong with me and I just apologised but he continued so I just said would you relax the waiters getting your order, I felt like I couldn't breathe and could cry at any moment. He then asked why my **** of a girlfriend didn't notice, so I said in a shaky voice "I said sorry now you need to leave before we have a real problem", then I went red as a tomato and luckily he said sorry to my girlfriend and left calling me a dozy bastard, my heart was racing and I started physically shaking so I started to breathe and it took 15-20 minutes for the shaking to stop, my girlfriend gave me a hug and said thanks and I was really brave but I've never been so embarrassed in my life and I know she doesn't look at me the same, how can I become a man who deals with this in a normal manner. I don't want to be a coward.

I want to start painting, I love drawing and sketching and someone suggested I should paint, I asked how and he said start with oils and watercolour. My problem is I cant find any classes near me that run in the evenings, they all run while I am in college or at the weekends when I am working.

I considered learning online so thats really the best option for me, the problem now is he paints are expensive, so are the accessories and some canvas. I dont mind spending but on what I'm afraid Ill spend a lot of money on the wrong things.

so really I have a couple of questions.

1)What paint should i buy and what colours?

2)what brushes should I buy and how many?

3) I hear a lot about mediums, turps and so on, what should I buy here?

4) do you know any good online resourses, I tried youtube but there are a lot of people with different ideas.

thanks

I want a better compiler than notepad++ and I was wondering if you had any good suggestions for what I should download, I'm learning js, jquery and ruby on the rails what else should I learn

I am currently in my 3rd year of college studying computer science and I work in a hospital in registration, I have decided to start up my own software company, I spent ages coming up with a logo and name that I am happy with and I know I can provide a good service. heres what I plan to do:

1) Register online as a sole trader

2) register and copyright my company name, logo and domain name.

3) relax and think about how to launch my website and products.

I am a little worried though

A) Will my tax be increased on my current job as a result even if I sell nothing

b) can I register everything and do nothing else for a while

I'm looking for a cute animal with a cool name for example a koala is cute, koala is a cool name or bush vipers or artic fox

I made a website using harmless CDs and JavaScript now I want to launch it, what are the steps I need to take to ensure:

1) I get visitors

2) I get visitors who want my business

3) I get a secure site nobody can hack

4) it appears near the top of the Google search engine

5) is the most cost effective for me

I'm suffering with major depression, today the penny dropped, it could be the Internet? Could it be, I mean I start most days optimistic and ready to go then I browse the Internet when I'm bored at work, I read about Syria, how messed up the world is corporate greed etc. then I feel depressed, until now not knowing the cause and the ironic part of it all is I browse the web further trying to solve the problem.

I'm just wondering is this actually a thing and if so how can I solve it, apart from the obvious, stop browsing, these unanswered questions drive me mad.

I know this could be just in my head too it's pretty fecked up, just wondering if anyone else experienced this.

I am 21 and am interested in practicing Zagreb and learning the mindful teachings of Zen Buddhism, where is a good place to start and do you recommend any books?

There are a list of goals I have set myself to try help me get out of a slump.

In my opinion I need to become a stronger person by building confidence, clearing my mind and becoming a better conversationalist by listening and responding. I reckon these are goals that will make me happier if I achieve them, the question is how do I? Are there good books on these or videos?

after 3 years of depression I'm here alone in my house, with no friends feeling isolated, no religion, no friends and only my granny living with me whose dementia is getting worse. I am normal in that my sense of humour is like most peoples, I like normal music, tv shows, football and rugby. I don't know what to talk about with people, which makes me feel weird and probably appear weird, I'm not one to worry about peoples opinion, but it seems like they treat me like I'm a simpleton.

Anyway if your still reading this, I want to change, but I cant, I'm afraid or some negative feelings keep blocking me, I want to play sport but I'm afraid, ill be too bad, people will mock me, ill feel worse?.

I want to learn how to dance, but that's weird? martial arts? weird? all these things.

I am getting counselling but I find it doesn't help much.

I know html and Css and am trying to learn js, where can I learn it, and what other languages should I learn

I know a lot of programming languages and I would like to set up an online and maybe offline business.

I want to know if my ideas will work.

How I can enter this business and make money.

How can I be successful. Know when and how to expand, advertise, get help etc.

How to invest money wisely and actually make a profit.

How to live comfortably and what extra work I need to do to keep the show on the road.

I know there are tonnes of resources online but there s nearly too much info, what s right, what s wrong, that costs a lot.

I just want to know how to start, build a reputation, keep getting clients, manage my money wisely and securely and just a general know how of the business world really.