Darian

I busted my husband if 27 years emailing nasty chics on craigslist personals an joining dating sites. He says his reason for it was to make me jealous an he felt that he was loosing me. I worked 12 hrs a day was stressed to my limit when I found all the emails. He ripped my heart an soul out an destroyed whatever was left of me. I have changed so dramatically that I'm not sure who or what I am anymore. I'm lost an alone an confused. I started drinking to deal with the pain hurt an all the other emotions that I am having. I thought we was ok. Guess I was wrong. All the dirty sexual emails I read are forever burned into my heart an mind. I have no one to talk to. I don't eat an I don't sleep good. I'm feeling so useless an inadequate as a woman. I'm let down betrayed an heartbroken. He wants to try to make our marriage work. I don't know if I can. We have 3 kids an 2 granddaughters. I'd rather die that keep feeling this way.