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Me and some friends of mine decided to go to college 1st to support our interests in acting and music, we're trying to become traveling nurses. We have anywhere from 1-3 years to go yet we're 23-25 years old. I hear celebrities say don't give up on your dreams but really? I know there's a cut off point SOMEWHERE lol

*Maybe our looks will be to our advantage (i know shallow) since we all look 16 BUT we don't want to get stuck playing kids or teens O.o

**Btw me and a friend got an idea of what it's like. We played college students (extras) in a movie called Spring Breakers. We didn't get any film credit but we got paid and there's a nice full frontal slow motion shot of me "partying" lol

Me and some friends of mine decided to go to college 1st to support our interests in acting and music, we're trying to become traveling nurses. We have anywhere from 1-3 years to go yet we're 23-25 years old. I hear celebrities say don't give up on your dreams but really? I know there's a cut off point SOMEWHERE lol

*Maybe our looks will be to our advantage (i know shallow) since we all look 16 BUT we don't want to get stuck playing kids or teens O.o

**Btw me and a friend got an idea of what it's like. We played college students (extras) in a movie called Spring Breakers. We didn't get any film credit but we got paid and there's a nice full frontal slow motion shot of me "partying" lol

Me and some friends of mine decided to go to college 1st to support our interests in acting and music, we're trying to become traveling nurses. We have anywhere from 1-3 years to go yet we're 23-25 years old. I hear celebrities say don't give up on your dreams but really? I know there's a cut off point SOMEWHERE lol

*Maybe our looks will be to our advantage (i know shallow) since we all look 16 BUT we don't want to get stuck playing kids or teens O.o

**Btw me and a friend got an idea of what it's like. We played college students (extras) in a movie called Spring Breakers. We didn't get any film credit but we got paid and there's a nice full frontal slow motion shot of me "partying" lol

Me and some friends of mine decided to go to college 1st to support our interests in acting and music, we're trying to become traveling nurses. We have anywhere from 1-3 years to go yet we're 23-25 years old. I hear celebrities say don't give up on your dreams but really? I know there's a cut off point SOMEWHERE lol

*Maybe our looks will be to our advantage (i know shallow) since we all look 16 BUT we don't want to get stuck playing kids or teens O.o

**Btw me and a friend got an idea of what it's like. We played college students (extras) in a movie called Spring Breakers. We didn't get any film credit but we got paid and there's a nice full frontal slow motion shot of me "partying" lol

Like I've been raised to wait till marriage to have sex and I'm not seriously considering THAT until like 30-32 once I'm done with school and have my career (I'm 24 now). Would any guy put up with me? O.o

*Im going to school to be a nurse, if that helps @ all ^-^ lol

I've NEVER been the kind of girl all the guys or even ONE guy liked, i'm more the kind of girl that would get feelings for or like a guy but never liked back. I learned to accept it, got used to it, and now i'm okay with it.

So im friends with this guy and we're cool with each other but the MINUTE i found out he like me MORE than a friend it grossed me out and i don't know why, it's so weird. So now i avoid him @ all costs but anytime we cross paths or i see him, I tense up and chills roll up my back what's wrong with me? I'm 24, this shouldn't be happening.

I've NEVER been the kind of girl all the guys or even ONE guy liked, i'm more the kind of girl that would get feelings for or like a guy but never liked back. I learned to accept it, got used to it, and now i'm okay with it.

So im friends with this guy and we're cool with each other but the MINUTE i found out he like me MORE than a friend it grossed me out and i don't know why, it's so weird. So now i avoid him @ all costs but anytime we cross paths or i see him, I tense up and chills roll up my back what's wrong with me? I'm 24, this shouldn't be happening.

I've NEVER been the kind of girl all the guys or even ONE guy liked, i'm more the kind of girl that would get feelings for or like a guy but never liked back. I learned to accept it, got used to it, and now i'm okay with it.

So im friends with this guy and we're cool with each other but the MINUTE i found out he like me MORE than a friend it grossed me out and i don't know why, it's so weird. So now i avoid him @ all costs but anytime we cross paths or i see him, I tense up and chills roll up my back what's wrong with me? I'm 24, this shouldn't be happening.

I've NEVER been the kind of girl all the guys or even ONE guy liked, i'm more the kind of girl that would get feelings for or like a guy but never liked back. I learned to accept it, got used to it, and now i'm okay with it.

*History - I used to work with a guy about a few years ago who i was pretty cool with, good looking and honestly a GOOD GUY but i only saw him as a friend. However, one day i JUST KNEW he liked me and MORE than a friend. He would try to give me things and wanted to go out but i refused. Our regular conversations of getting to know each other now felt threatening and invading. Almost everyday he would ask if i was fine and if i had a good lunch and i would get SO PISSED! I know i know, im psycho lol

*Side note - He mentioned he was interested in computers and i was interested in nursing.

So today i see HIM walk by with his class! O.O Random right? I immediately tensed up and held my breath like you do when ur scared. Not only is he going to the SAME SCHOOL as me (i go to a tech school now but graduated from a community college with an AA) but he's in the SAME PROGRAM (just a year/class behind me) because they were all wearing the SAME UNIFORM as me! O.O Still random? At the end of the day, just my luck, we cross paths AGAIN, he was walking WAY behind me but i could hear him walking faster, trying to catch up but i made a sharp right turn into a hallway and went down the stairs. I tensed up AGAIN and chills rolled up my back this time. Is this JUST ME or is all of this crazy? O.o And what's wrong with me? Why the HELL am i acting like this? It's like my body and emotions spasmed out and i had no control over any of it and just had to sit back for the ride. I doubt or HOPE he doesn't have any feelings for me still.

*Side note - I also HOPE i don't run into the guy that i used to work with last year, who also liked me . . . and YES he goes to same school too but is in a different program -_-

I'm in school (i'm 23, i know i know, i should be done with school by now lol) to become a nurse and might end up becoming a nurse practitioner (same as a doctor) if i feel like it since it'll only take me 2 to 3 years BUT I've always wanted to be a dancer/singer like britney spears or an actor like will smith. After school i plan on moving forward with my dream. Is this just a lil weird or am i doing the wrong thing? O.o Will i be too old by then? At least i'll have money to support it.

I'm in school (i'm 23, i know i know, i should be done with school by now lol) to become a nurse and might end up becoming a nurse practitioner (same as a doctor) if i feel like it since it'll only take me 2 to 3 years BUT I've always wanted to be a dancer/singer like britney spears or an actor like will smith. After school i plan on moving forward with my dream. Is this just a lil weird or am i doing the wrong thing? O.o Will i be too old by then? At least i'll have money to support it.

I'm in school (i'm 23, i know i know, i should be done with school by now lol) to become a nurse and might end up becoming a nurse practitioner (same as a doctor) if i feel like it since it'll only take me 2 to 3 years BUT I've always wanted to be a dancer/singer like britney spears or an actor like will smith. After school i plan on moving forward with my dream. Is this just a lil weird or am i doing the wrong thing? O.o Will i be too old by then? At least i'll have money to support it.

So i work with a girl who's friends with this dude i have a crush on and we all work @ the same store. I play 21 questions with her every other day asking all kinds of crazy stuff about him cuz im too scared to talk to him lol HOWEVER Im just a college student and she mentioned he had 4 kids, mind you he's either around the same age as me (23) or a lil older. O.O Yeah so that freaks me out a bit but i do want be friends with him (that's it). So should i just continue to admire from afar or should i pursue him?

So i work with a girl who's friends with this dude i have a crush on and we all work @ the same store. I play 21 questions with her every other day asking all kinds of crazy stuff about him cuz im too scared to talk to him lol HOWEVER Im just a college student and she mentioned he had 4 kids, mind you he's either around the same age as me (23) or a lil older. O.O Yeah so that freaks me out a bit but i do want be friends with him (that's it). So should i just continue to admire from afar or should i pursue him?

I'm not sure which (envy or jealousy) describes or best fits my situation so what's the difference?

Anyways, i don't wish ANY harm or evil towards ANYONE but i do feel a little sad and frustrated that they have certain things that i want and wish i had. Like 1 person in particular is lady gaga. She pretty much conquered and achieved everything i've always wanted. I just hope one day to be as successful as her or more because my dream is to one day be a singer/dancer/actor but i doubt anyone can top or outdo her with out being criticized for being unoriginal (Don't all celebrities copy off each other or get their inspiration from one another? O.o).

Other than celebrities i sometimes feel bad about not being as pretty or smart or interesting as the next person and think people don't give me the time of day and look over me because i'm not worthy or lack certain qualities.

Is this weird or normal and why do i feel this way sometimes?

I'm not sure which (envy or jealousy) describes or best fits my situation so what's the difference?

Anyways, i don't wish ANY harm or evil towards ANYONE but i do feel a little sad and frustrated that they have certain things that i want and wish i had. Like 1 person in particular is lady gaga. She pretty much conquered and achieved everything i've always wanted. I just hope one day to be as successful as her or more because my dream is to one day be a singer/dancer/actor but i doubt anyone can top or outdo her with out being criticized for being unoriginal (Don't all celebrities copy off each other or get their inspiration from one another? O.o).

Other than celebrities i sometimes feel bad about not being as pretty or smart or interesting as the next person and think people don't give me the time of day and look over me because i'm not worthy or lack certain qualities.

Is this weird or normal and why do i feel this way sometimes?

I'm not sure which (envy or jealousy) describes or best fits my situation so what's the difference?

Anyways, i don't wish ANY harm or evil towards ANYONE but i do feel a little sad and frustrated that they have certain things that i want and wish i had. Like 1 person in particular is lady gaga. She pretty much conquered and achieved everything i've always wanted. I just hope one day to be as successful as her or more because my dream is to one day be a singer/dancer/actor but i doubt anyone can top or outdo her with out being criticized for being unoriginal (Don't all celebrities copy off each other or get their inspiration from one another? O.o).

Other than celebrities i sometimes feel bad about not being as pretty or smart or interesting as the next person and think people don't give me the time of day and look over me because i'm not worthy or lack certain qualities.

Is this weird or normal and why do i feel this way sometimes?

I'm not sure which (envy or jealousy) describes or best fits my situation so what's the difference?

Anyways, i don't wish ANY harm or evil towards ANYONE but i do feel a little sad and frustrated that they have certain things that i want and wish i had. Like 1 person in particular is lady gaga. She pretty much conquered and achieved everything i've always wanted. I just hope one day to be as successful as her or more because my dream is to one day be a singer/dancer/actor but i doubt anyone can top or outdo her with out being criticized for being unoriginal (Don't all celebrities copy off each other or get their inspiration from one another? O.o).

Other than celebrities i sometimes feel bad about not being as pretty or smart or interesting as the next person and think people don't give me the time of day and look over me because i'm not worthy or lack certain qualities.

Is this weird or normal and why do i feel this way sometimes?

Soooo i've always been the type girl that guys would ask "where's so and so OR what's due for homework (for school) OR hey how do you do this (for work)? Like guys just make general, light small talk with me (if they HAVE to -_-). However, when i interact with guys and i sense that they like like me and start asking me questions about MYSELF (like where do i live, what school i go to, etc. - simple stuff) i just lie about it SOMETIMES just in case they turn out crazy or something and start popping up everywhere i go or telling other ppl made up stuff about me . . . but 2day @ work this guy who i JUST MET started making small talk with me BUT THEN started asking me stuff (about MYSELF) and i told him i go to **blankety blank** community college and i'm waiting to go to nursing school @ **blankety blank** in october (that part is true) but REALLY i've already graduated from the other school with an AA in liberal arts and i'm just working and waiting around till october. Like it's weird, it's kinda like word vomit but lying instead of telling the truth O.o

P.S. this is a re-post, sorry. For some weird reason every time i added details it would post twice which made my question look i lil weird. lol

Soooo i've always been the type girl that guys would ask "where's so and so OR what's due for homework (for school) OR hey how do you do this (for work)? Like guys just make general, light small talk with me (if they HAVE to -_-). However, when i interact with guys and i sense that they like like me and start asking me questions about MYSELF (like where do i live, what school i go to, etc. - simple stuff) i just lie about it SOMETIMES just in case they turn out crazy or something and start popping up everywhere i go or telling other ppl made up stuff about me . . . but 2day @ work this guy who i JUST MET started making small talk with me BUT THEN started asking me stuff (about MYSELF) and i told him i go to **blankety blank** community college and i'm waiting to go to nursing school @ **blankety blank** in october (that part is true) but REALLY i've already graduated from the other school with an AA in liberal arts and i'm just working and waiting around till october. Like it's weird, it's kinda like word vomit but lying instead of telling the truth O.o

P.S. this is a re-post, sorry. For some weird reason every time i added details it would post twice which made my question look i lil weird. lol