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Well here is the low-down. I first moved to this area in 6th grade and at first in the beginning it was hard for me to adjust and adapt to the different lifestyle out here. I quickly adapted and I gained a lot of friends(more than I needed)and I was set before 6th grade even ended. 7th grade when I came back I was bigger than everyone else because I went through puberty before everyone else did, so I was rather tall and muscular which upped my popularity. 8th grade was the year I peaked and also the school year I started to reevaluate my choices and the situation. 9th grade came and I even made closer friends with people that I didn't talk to much in middle school I even made 3 new best friends to replace 3 best friends I had in middle school. As time passed in high school, I lost nearly everyone aside from those 3(we became even closer). It started going downhill when they realized I've never done anything with them in my sophomore year and they wanted me to hangout etc. That wasn't something I had done since middle school and I didn't exactly want to hang out with them outside of school. I am the type that likes relaxing alone after a long day and I value my free time a lot. Well Junior year ended and They changed drastically. They started working out and joined the football team towards the end of the year. I played a lot of sports and even worked out years before but I had quit because it wasn't something I liked doing. They started talking about how small (muscularly) and even though they joked with my a lot I was beginning to get sick of it and I would get angry with them and defend myself. I was compared to them. the 3rd best friend left our group because he disliked the other two for who they became so it was just me, and the two body builders. They still liked me because we have done so much, but we really didn't have too much in common. I will admit in terms of what other people define 'cool' as, I am certainly not cool anymore so I don't even see why some people even bother with me. I am very boring guy and I like mentioned earlier I changed myself and put my values and morals into the right place. Some people don't like that or they don't see it as 'normal'. Some people think its normal to go out and have sex when you're 15 years old. Well over this summer like the last summer, I didn't stay in any contact with them and they changed for the worse. I am going into my senior year next Monday and I am slightly afraid it will be the first year I am truly alone aside from some acquaintances. I am not a shy person, I am rather loud and very outgoing, I just am very independent person and can survive just fine alone. Problem is lunchtime and all that jazz. I probably won't go-to lunch but I don't know how long I can take it. I already knew from the beginning come graduation time I would of lost all of my friends. I turned 18 years old on the 11th if that helps. Sorry for the long post. I just want to see if there are others like this.

Okay from what I know, they have their original, after Ocean had left and Funimation took over for North America. I remember this slightly because I was watching it on Toonami over 10 years ago and out of the blue around episode 50 or more and it was changed to the cast that I grew attached to. Well from what I understand they re-dubbed it with the same cast on the DVD releases...twice? I know that Kai is also a re-dub but they slightly changed the cast and im not interested despite it being on Blu-Ray. Is the remastered set that was released a couple of years ago their final dub aside from Kai or what? I am thinking about buying all the seasons on the remastered set mainly for Bruce Falconer's music, along with Menza's and the voice actors that were dropped in Kai. Not that there is anything wrong with the Kai's current new voices as they are my favorites in others like FMA etc.

Now the title may be a bit misleading. What I mean by it is I for a really long time since I moved out in this area am afraid to go over friends houses or let them come over to mine. Starting from the beginning, I always lived in a okay house or neighborhood. We lived in Spring, TX (in the suburban area not the farther out one near the woodlands) and I would always be outside playing with kids I hardly even liked and let out of neighborhood friends stay the night with me. I was so outgoing without a care in the world. We even moved to a different neighborhood that wasn't even that far from our old one and lived a slightly nicer house and the school was in the neighborhood so all my friends lived there. It was great, my best friend lived down the street and we always stayed the night on weekends and my other lived next door but he moved after awhile. Well we moved back to our old house (when I was in 5th grade) so only my best friend came over a couple of times and that was it. Once I finished 5th grade me and brother stayed at my uncles for 2 weeks since we were moving. We had moved out to the Spring area that was only 3 or 4 minutes away from the Woodlands and it was on Kuykendahl. Well my mom called us and told us what we got and she said it was a trailer. (pretty big though it had 4 bedrooms and a den) We at first didn't care since we were young and it didn't matter we were actually excited. We couldn't get a regular house even though my mom was pulling in 120K a year because most of the houses were really expensive. Even the trailer was expensive, more so than most houses. It was still the beginning of summer so me and my brother made the most of it in the new area, exploring (this area was at the edge of the huge piney forest, so there were alot of trees.) School started and the first half of 6th grade will always be remembered as my worst. I ended up making alot of friends, mainly because I did things that people wouldn't dare doing or just made an *** of myself. At first I actually still played outside and lived simple like we did before. I even stayed the night numerous times. I got to influenced by the area though and started looking at myself and thought differently. By the end of 8th grade I wasn't hanging out with anyone after school, sleeping over or doing anything. Almost all my friends thought I lived in the neighborhood right next door to ours, since I told them that. 9th grade was where things are how they are now. I do everything social at school and go home play games or watch TV. I used to play basketball, football and cross country for my school and I quit all of that since I became uninterested. 10th grade was the most recent and my friends would continually ask for me to come over. I always made excuses or changed the subject since I am ashamed of how I am after school. I hated it though since I "lost"(they just became acquaintances) most of my friends since I stopped talking to them or playing sports. At this point also I never had to tell anyone about where I lived or no one even bothered to ask anymore. I am not ungreatful since I have a lot of things my friends don't even have and I am given more even when I don't want anything. Well it's the 4th week into my junior year, I am 17 and I haven't had any social contact with friends outside of school for 3 years. At school it's easy to be outgoing or do things with friends since you would be going home afterwards. I asked this just now because my really good friends that I even got closer with this year wanted me to stay the night with them. For one, they just work out or play games and I really don't like doing either that much at all. It also just leads to them wanting to come over my house. I wouldn't have a problem with my friends coming over if i never lied in the first place, but I've been holding onto this lie for nearly 5 years. I know they won't care where I live, but that's not even the case anymore. I am a boring person and I like it. I can be really fun to be around, but I feel like it such a chore to do that. I recently started acting how I do at home at school towards the end of my freshman year till now. All it did was change my friends perception of me. All my friends that I made in Highschool think differently of me than all the ones I still know/have from when I first move here. My really good friends (the new ones) that I made in my freshman year thought for the longest time I just came home, slept and touched myself(sorry for the vulgarity they and admittedly said they do it a lot though and proud of it.) I just hate it knowing the more I don't spend time with them after school the more they too will fade away from me.

tl;dr Is this anxiety? My mom has it, and she takes medication for it too. (she stopped some time ago) I don't know why I love being alone after school it just soothes me.

Now the title may be a bit misleading. What I mean by it is I for a really long time since I moved out in this area am afraid to go over friends houses or let them come over to mine. Starting from the beginning, I always lived in a okay house or neighborhood. We lived in Spring, TX (in the suburban area not the farther out one near the woodlands) and I would always be outside playing with kids I hardly even liked and let out of neighborhood friends stay the night with me. I was so outgoing without a care in the world. We even moved to a different neighborhood that wasn't even that far from our old one and lived a slightly nicer house and the school was in the neighborhood so all my friends lived there. It was great, my best friend lived down the street and we always stayed the night on weekends and my other lived next door but he moved after awhile. Well we moved back to our old house (when I was in 5th grade) so only my best friend came over a couple of times and that was it. Once I finished 5th grade me and brother stayed at my uncles for 2 weeks since we were moving. We had moved out to the Spring area that was only 3 or 4 minutes away from the Woodlands and it was on Kuykendahl. Well my mom called us and told us what we got and she said it was a trailer. (pretty big though it had 4 bedrooms and a den) We at first didn't care since we were young and it didn't matter we were actually excited. We couldn't get a regular house even though my mom was pulling in 120K a year because most of the houses were really expensive. Even the trailer was expensive, more so than most houses. It was still the beginning of summer so me and my brother made the most of it in the new area, exploring (this area was at the edge of the huge piney forest, so there were alot of trees.) School started and the first half of 6th grade will always be remembered as my worst. I ended up making alot of friends, mainly because I did things that people wouldn't dare doing or just made an *** of myself. At first I actually still played outside and lived simple like we did before. I even stayed the night numerous times. I got to influenced by the area though and started looking at myself and thought differently. By the end of 8th grade I wasn't hanging out with anyone after school, sleeping over or doing anything. Almost all my friends thought I lived in the neighborhood right next door to ours, since I told them that. 9th grade was where things are how they are now. I do everything social at school and go home play games or watch TV. I used to play basketball, football and cross country for my school and I quit all of that since I became uninterested. 10th grade was the most recent and my friends would continually ask for me to come over. I always made excuses or changed the subject since I am ashamed of how I am after school. I hated it though since I "lost"(they just became acquaintances) most of my friends since I stopped talking to them or playing sports. At this point also I never had to tell anyone about where I lived or no one even bothered to ask anymore. I am not ungreatful since I have a lot of things my friends don't even have and I am given more even when I don't want anything. Well it's the 4th week into my junior year, I am 17 and I haven't had any social contact with friends outside of school for 3 years. At school it's easy to be outgoing or do things with friends since you would be going home afterwards. I asked this just now because my really good friends that I even got closer with this year wanted me to stay the night with them. For one, they just work out or play games and I really don't like doing either that much at all. It also just leads to them wanting to come over my house. I wouldn't have a problem with my friends coming over if i never lied in the first place, but I've been holding onto this lie for nearly 5 years. I know they won't care where I live, but that's not even the case anymore. I am a boring person and I like it. I can be really fun to be around, but I f

It's done this for years now if I remember, I am 17 now and I started to notice it when I was 13. It doesn't happen everywhere too like if I am standing at school in a cool room It doesn't appear. It seems to appear after taking a shower and walking around abit or being on my legs outside for a period of time. My parents are just now taking this seriously thinking it's a circulation problem my question is I played sports up until my freshman year of highschool (Basketball, Football) and I never noticed it and it didn't affect my performance in any way so what IS it affecting?

Okay so back in February I had gotten several things at Best Buy including a 9600gt. We got the 3 year warranty but I realized awhile back I got a low profile low power version which I don't need. Well most stores including online ones don't even carry 9600gt's anymore so I can't exchange. Well I forgot about that until 2 weeks ago I decided I wanted a 5770 but the kind of person I am I do not want two graphics cards with one of them not being used at all, it just feels like a waste unless I can return it. I would put it in my parents computer if they didn't have an ancient mobo with PCI slots. Frankly, I don't really have to upgrade since the 9600gt maxes out all my steam games no problem. I still want to get the 5770 since it's is the best I can get with my current PSU/case size.

Okay so I am 16 years old now I will be 17 in 2 months. When I first moved into this area before the start of 6th grade I was still oblivious to a lot of things. I had that "gangster" mentality because of my school that I had gone to, so I conformed. Well I learned a lot of things when I started 6th grade, i started acting "white" more like myself became hugely obsessed with rock and learned what "jacking off meant." That's when my innocence started fading away. 6th grade was also not a great starting year since I was still breaking in my presence to these new people. I made a lot of friends did plenty of bad things to showcase that I have no fear. I was put into all honors classes since my scores on the TAKS test were all commended. I struggled in some classes and eventually got bumped into regulars math, but none of that mattered except friends and girls. Well 7th grade started and I hit my growth spurt gaining 50 pounds and growing 6 inches taller. Everyone was late bloomers so I was one of the biggest. When all my friends so me their jaws dropped. I started playing football and basketball that year too for my school, and I was pretty darn good. 7th grade was almost my peak of my popularity and "coolness". Then 8th grade came, I slowly started acting more good and focused on my grades since we needed good grades to play sports anyways. This is when I started to develop the mentality I have now. The year ended nicely but I quit both basketball and football towards the end of the year. Summer started and I was going onto 9th grade, I was a bit hesitant at first because of High School. Well Summer ended and things changed. Everyone was bigger than me. Since I didn't hang out or talk to any of my friends during the summer they drifted away and almost lost alot of my friends, the same with girls. I met a new group,(in middle school I hung out with many groups) through a mutual friend on the first day. They were into xbox live and working out to put it bluntly. I had gotten my xbox in 06 but no one else had live except me and other close friends. They all played and we eventually became really good friends through that medium. A lot of my older friends started to move on the more I didn't speak to them and such. I became weaker, and when I was once near the top of most of my groups I was near the bottom now. I became their underlings and being the butt of the joke. Some of my older friends that was with me since the beginning stayed very loyal. I felt powerless, and became more serious everyday, I still made the most clever jokes and had the most wit but nothing else to back myself up. I eventually became better friends with acquaintances that I neglected in my prime. I started making really good grades and haven't failed a single class since I started. Well that year ended and I was near 85% of what I am now. Summer worsened this and when I started 10th I was more open with myself. I slept a lot, didn't do anything after school I just became very boring. Now that group is the group I am still with, and we are even better friends at this point but I feel like I sacrificed so much just to be with them. One of them is a very avid jock and he constantly makes me lower than him despite him not knowing how I used to be. My older friends will always talk about how cool I was or how Good I was in sports. I am very cynical and just like being alone now, it really relaxes me since I am constantly around people I know. When I go to school I still retain my humor, but I am also exceptionally nice to people I don't know and some of my friends. My newer friends never believe me when I say I used to be all "cool and uncaring." they see me as the sweet funny kid. I also gained a new found hatred. I became alot more intelligent over the time period and I started hating the human race and such. Now this school years almost over and I still have this nature.

Also during late 9th to now I feel like such a loser, I don't do anything, have no girlfriend,none of my friends come over(embarrassed about how I am after school) and express how I am a lot more. I even questioned myself If I was depressed but I know I'm not, I just see the world differently and not as naive as I used to be, I feel cursed with all the things I know now even gruesome things don't phase me one bit. What can you say, Ignorance is bliss.

tl;dr I think I grew up a little too fast and It scares me.

Well okay Im getting a HD box shipped here tomorrow and I was wondering if i connected the coaxial to the HD box then the HDMI to the T.V. does this mean I'm getting the optimized quality or no?

Well okay I have a 47 inch Phillips LCD and it has a built in QAM tuner so no box is needed for the local channels. Well all the basic cable channels are crap. The resolution is 480i and it looks terrible on 1080p. I do however get the anlogue and digital version of the local channels and the digital versions air HD content. Other than espn all the other channels like Discovery and so on just look terrible. Can you help me with this?

School starts again the 25th and it's August 6th today. It's not that I hate my school life i love it but i also love the feeling of waking up and not going anywhere. A lot had happened this Summer and it went by too fast. I'm going to be starting in freshman year but im not worried about that. See my solution was to do nothing and time would stand still and it worked but...