Enlightened Through Pain

I've had a lot of weird things happen to me. I feel socially dissonant and I try to be normal but I am dying to be violent. I just want to take something out. it seems like I would feel better. I seem to have lost my sense of boundaries. They are there in a sense, but I behaving or speaking in a way to connect with people or get what I need is difficult because my words,vibe, and signals are all off.

I don't mean crazy in like hallucinating or anything like that. I just mean so emotionally and mentally damaged that I can't seem to connect. I am not a hostile person by nature but these things make me not want to be, but feel like I need to be.

I hope I make sense.

Thanks

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Are there any pills or remedies that can help with this?

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Please only serious answers.

Thank you.

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Thank you.

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I was recently diagnosed paranoid type and I am learning more about it. They seemed be concerned with my delusions, avoidance, and paranoia ( obviously) and I want to know which drugs are best or which to avoid. Also if ECT is a good option.

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Please Personal Experiences Only.

I know of a lot of the reccomended treatments.

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I am curious to know how the voice changes and exactly what physical and physiological changes happen.

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I read that the reason the voice gets high is because muscles in the belly get pulled straining something causing the voice change. I want to know the mechanics behind all that.