Rick

I recently broke up w/ a woman I loved & wanted to marry. Lately we've been drifting apart. Admittedly lately I had been needy & clingy. 3rd parties (my friends & hers) have caused us a lot of problems w/ their butting in. Coupled w/ my emotional issues & hers (I have anxiety & body issues, she has ptsd.) Weve both been scarred from our pasts. I would try to tell myself & her everything was ok but then my inner voice would eat at me & Id express my doubts. Basically Id end end up contradicting myself. Recently she asked for space. I took it as a sign she was ending things trying to let me down easy. I tried to give her the space & not freak but then my friend/work partner got in my head & had me depressed & next thing I know IM ending it. She said she will never take me back. Once her mind is made up, its made up so I know theres no hope. She thinks Im a monster. She says shell never trust anyone again. It was a LDR as well. I regret leaving her. I feel we both lost.

Ive been in a long distance relationship since February. Im in Kentucky shes in California. Lately our relationship has been rocky & lacks communication.

Admittedly, I think the blame falls on both ofus. We hardly ever talk on the phone. 9 times out of 10 she only calls if I ask her to. I've been feeling neglected for awhile because of our lack of communication/intimacy. I love her & she keeps telling me she loves me but I dont feel it in my gut that she does.

Shes never been big about talking on the phone but we used to more often and we never video chat anymore.

We even tried seeing a relationship counselor. We no longer really talk about a future. I know ive been clingy and insecure & that's a huge turn off but I miss her so much, we haven't seen eachother in person since May. Ive given her chance after to let her end it and she wont.

Shes been under alot of stress but she doesn't lean on me anymore.

We have a visit planned for December. Tickets are purchased. I feel like this is our last chance to rekindle what weve lost. I just wish if shes lost feeling for me shed tell me. I feel like she just doesn't love me anymore & wont let go.

What can I do? I love her but I dont want to keep either of us living a lie & end up hating one another.

The WMA I shoot at recently decided to only allow rifle shooting at 100 yards. I am looking for an inexpensive place to shoot now.

I am in my 3rd semester of a B.s. in Criminal Justice and want to become a probation officer. Will I be able to do this in KY?

its a 5.4 triton v8 engine

I've been out of work for a year and really need a chance to get my life back on track. I've applied everywhere I could find on my own. Thanks

I am working on a degree in criminal justice, will that help?

I have CP and I'm earning my Bs in Criminal Justice and just want make sure I can use my degree to get a job in the criminal justice system that doesn't require physical activities such as running.