Joshua W

Ive been when my girlfriend for 6yrs now. We have a beautiful child together and she has one child from a previous relationship. The problem is, is that she is married. They where separated already when we got together and I can see she didn't want to push a divorce because she was afraid he was gonna take the child. But he has even told her he would pay for a divorce but she still never went down to get it. I have asked her numerous times to get one and one time she even told her not to give her ultimatums. I fell that, that was a slap in the face to me. We have lived together for over 4yrs now but I am starting to think I deserve better. Am I wrong to want something for myself. Ive tried over and over to make this work but it eats at me and eat at me and I don't feel the same about her after all of this. I fell like I don't love her anymore and I think its from all the waiting. What would you do, or how would you feel?