willyb895

Short story. Got my first job in programming in 2014. I lasted a year at the company I was at, worked hard, then got laid off in May 2015.

I had a good life, apartment, dating life, social life, new car. Lived and worked in LA. Things were going well. Once that happened I was screwed, as I had no money saved. Lost all of it.

Got stuck on unemployment for several months, was studying my *** off to improve my skills and increase my salary for my next job (working 7 days a week on this), and eventually got myself a new job (with a 12k raise).

Unfortunately, I owed 12k on my credit card by the time I got the new job, so I had to move in with my parents again to pay it off fast. It's only been 2.5 months and I'm down to 4k, so things are looking up. But I've been being cheap, not hanging out with friends in LA (I'm like 45 mins away now), and my dating life is dead since I'm getting this debt paid off and don't have an apartment.

I have come to appreciate saving money and the important things in life from this experience, and it won't happen again, but I seriously feel empty and unemotional right now, since I can't be social or date girls. I'm doing a good job grinding at work, but that's the only thing that wakes me up in the morning. I also am working out a lot to put my positive energy toward something, building up a lot of muscle.

how? ive always been a big jerk. i want girls who are hot, but i get mad at their ego, so i destroy it in order to have a gf with a level ego.

my current girlfriend, also really hot, who ive been with for a year, tells me i never give her compliments or publicly recognize anything she does for me. she is very sensitive about attention, and i can tell its really bothering her. she says i talk a lot, but mostly about myself.

i love this girl a lot, and i reallv want her to feel special and recognized. i have good intentions but ive never been much of a complimentary-type person? where do i begin?

guys. ive been with my girlfriend for 6 months and we just moved in together last week. everything was going great until the last month in a half. well at that point i started getting a weird feeling like something was off. my instincts tend to be right most of the time.

well, its just been building up. she always has her phone and i never get a chance to look at it. finally today i got a chance and i took it. there were messages to guys saying "u can text me but dont talk to me at night. ur gonna get me in trouble with my boyfriend". and then another text where she says shes talking to me on the phone. then after the phone call the guy is coming over and the text says 12am. now that we live together the texts say "i live with my boyfriend now. no innapropriate texts".

obviously it makes me feel shitty to have to read the texts, but im not into the idea of ignoring my male instincts. anyway i feel confident shes cheating now. but now im stuck with her cause we are splitting the rent and in broke. we have a year left together. im also really sick. the time i got really sick is when my instincts again.

my feeling is i need to salvage this. until i get healthy and make more money. how should i handle it? we signed the lease together.

a little background. ive been with my girlfriend for the last 5 months. shes 32. im 24. things are going good. we are both putting in effort. i want to move to LA, where she lives, to pursue jobs, so we ended up with the plan of moving in together next month. we have the lease signed and everything.

neither of us have lived together with someone. personally im excited and not worried at all. i dont mind taking risks. shes kind of nervous.

we both do cooking. and we clean up. but lately shes been getting defensive when i talk about the apartment. i said can you do my laundry sometimes. im bad at it. she started telling me how shes been a slave for all these years to her exes and shes not putting up with it anymore. she keeps telling me about the two of us working together. when in reality, thats what we've been doing. i put in actual effort and she tells me this BS. whenever i ask a question about if she needs all her stuff in the new apartment, she gets defensive and tells me "so you just want me to throw it away. thats what you're saying"; like putting worids in my mouth that i never said. just assuming everything i say is an "order".

and whenever i question something she says to me, she says "geez. so defensive", even though its just a regular question.

what the hell? what is this?

ok so. ive been with my girl for 4 months. 2 months of dating and 2 months of relationship. i had power in my last relationship for 1 year, but this one has been tougher. im 24, my last girlfriend was 21, and my girlfriend now is 38. it's a power struggle with her.

when we met, she told me i had no chance of dating her. i said ok. i just ignored her. kept filling up her schedule on the weekend. i just blocked out everyone else who wanted to date her. i never cared that she was rejecting me and teasing me, and pretty soon i was the one teasing her and having her texting me daily, falling for me, etc. i like to take action with what i want, so after 2 months, i made her my girlfriend, against her usual way of doing things which is waiting. soon after we were sure we're in love.

ok, so great. i have this girl all over me. i find out that in april, her roomate is moving out. i tell her, on january 1st, that we should move in together. she has never done it, but i said it will be fine.

things have been going great until recently. im finding a job for relocation, looking for apartments, paying my final debt on credit card. ive been stressed out big time. and because of that, she's been getting my power i had. she already has an established business in the area we're moving to. she doesnt have to do anything but look for apartments and keep working.

so ive noticed, as my stress has gone up, my power has gone down. im getting more emotional about things. i was calm before. my sense of humor and not-caringness is drained from the stress. and since she isnt stressing, im losing my damn power. im thinking i will get it back once im relocated. i can tell she feels she has me right now, because im relocating. before i was relocating, she didnt. but since im new to her area, she knows it.

how can i stay cool and positive until i move in and get my power back? i have no intention of losing this girl or my power.

im a 23 year old, college graduate. i graduated pretty easily with my bachelor's a year ago. i job searched for quite a while with no luck. i havent thought about school once since one year ago, when i graduated. absolutely no emotion. the only thing that really gives my emptiness emotion is my beautiful girlfriend, who i love. she actually makes me want to talk and care.

i feel burnt out on my life other than that. im working in construction, and can't find a better job. and i absolutely hate construction. it feels like im sucked into a job that i cant stand, but it gets me money. i am really indifferent about social life. i go places with my friends to maintain connections, in case i ever get emotion again. i have tried to do many activities and new things, but i continually find myself out of energy within 2 weeks, losing interest in them.

the only activity that interests me at all is professional sports, but it is quite a hard industry to crack. whether working for a team or in the media. i lose interest in everything else very fast. how can i "love" everything. i am not the kind of person who is into giving up, which makes this whole emptiness horrible.

Ya I'm dumb. Lets get past that. I've done it twice. I don't want to do it again, believe me. Well I smoked a lot of meth last Monday. Anyways, I got the dry mouth thing where I got sores all over my mouth, and my tongue was going crazy cause its dry. Well, when the meth wore off, the crazy tongue went away, and things were fine. Well, yesterday, a week later, I started getting the same exact dry mouth, minus the sores. My tongue is going crazy though, and my skin on the right side of my mouth ripped open a little. Keep in mind I haven't done meth since that time.

Am I having a symptom from not doing it again? And how can I stop this dry mouth before it ***** up my mouth. I don't want to look like a ******* freak.

I'm currently stuck working in the construction industry doing labor. The pay is ok, but it's not an industry I want to be part of for a long time, because I have no passion or interest in it. I just want to mention I also have a Bachelor's Degree in Marketing, that I earned in May, and that I've sent numerous cover letters and resumes to all kinds of jobs, with no luck.

What would be a good career to get into, for someone with a degree but no connections or friends at companies (my friends/family are in construction). I want to find a more fulfilling job and I'm having a lot of trouble finding someone who will give me a chance. They give me **** because I do labor for a living, even though I'm trying to get into a non labor job. What would you recommend?

there is a girl i met about 2 months ago. we were friends for about a week, then we became "**** buddies". for about 3 weeks. she stopped having sex with me, lowkey, to "test me", to see if i was worth keeping around. at the same time, i would not text her on purpose for a couple days, just to "test" if she would miss me.

well, it has been about 2-3 weeks. it turns out she misses me a lot whenever i do that. she tells me without me asking. she says she doesnt feel good when i do it. and she likes me a lot. and i like her a lot. we care about eachother and do stuff for eachother. she gives me like a 40 sec hug when i see her. but shes not willing to "risk losing me by me being a boyfriend" because im too special to her, and i make her feel special. she loves our world. dont misunderstand. its like the ultimate compliment, and at the same time annoys me, because i want to take a risk when chemistry is this good. all her friends think she should be with me. it feels so romantic, but shes scared to lose me.

i dont get it. because now im just gonna have to put another girl in my life for romance and sex, and spend less time with her.

ive been hanging out with this girl, and we like eachother. its been about 3 weeks.

we're in the car and she starts telling me how i look handsome, and how she always has a good time with me. how she cant believe how good our day turned out. (i was driving her car after school in the parking lot, and we ended up driving away and hanging out for 8 hours)

a week ago, we made this list together of all the things we have to do. we have to do at least 1 thing every week. one of the things she put was to make me say "i love you".

so last night she asks me how long it's gonna take for me to say "i love you". she says "4 months, 6 months, 8 months"? "if i can make you say i love you, it will be a victory for me. it will be a victory for women".

i guess im a tough person, but i try to open up. i choose not to get overly emotional with girls right away because i have enough experience to know it's a bad idea to rush a girl into something before she is sure, ive told her how i feel about her before. i just said that saying "i love you" just to make her like me isn't my style. i have to actually feel it. it doesnt happen immediately. i have to see long term results to be sure. i guess i just found the comment about victory confusing. i asked her what she meant but i dont remember what she said. she didnt really answer it.

i found some girl i wanted. i saw her in class and said i wanted to get her. so i got in a group project with her, and starting being an interesting person to be around. a week after we met, we were talking about how we were sexually attracted to eachother. i knew there was another guy but i never really cared. i just kept seducing her. not surprisingly, we ended up screwing the day after we found out we were sexually attracted. we just kept doing it every time we saw eachother.

one day i took her some place where we couldn't do it, karaoke, so that she would have to like being around me. that day we found out we both liked eachother. she started calling me her "sweet sin" because it's wrong, but she likes it, even though she has a boyfriend.

i told her she should be my girlfriend. she was hesitant. so i said, "i dont care if you make up your mind right now. when u cant live without me, u can tell me." then i said, "im not gonna tell you fake stuff like i love you to make you choose me. love in 3 weeks is bullshit." she agreed. im adventurous so we do a lot of crazy **** together. the other guy isnt. i talk to her and he asks who shes talking to and she says me. he says "hi". i say "i have nothing to say. i dont care. lets move onto something interesting."

to complete this process, i need to force her into action, low key. what should i do?

note: her friends know about me and think she should get with me

There's this girl I'm kind of dating right now. I met her in a group project for my class. I've known her for about 2 weeks. The first week we became friends and we spent some time alone, as well as in group meetings. I got to know her some, and what not. Anyway, we were texting and we found out we both had some sexual attraction to eachother.

The next day at the group meeting, we met with our group. She asked me if I wanted to drink after. I said ok. Well we drop a girl off, drink, then go back to her house. In the car we were talking, and at some point I made a move on her, and we started making out. Next thing I knew we were having sex.

The next day, I asked her on a date for the upcoming weekend. She said ok. We were both really excited because we had to wait all week. She kept telling me how excited she was. So she came to my house on the date, and before we left she wanted to drink a little bit. So we started drinking, and things just got out of hand really fast, and we ended up having sex for 2 hours. Then she fell asleep in my bed. In the middle of the night she woke up and we had sex again.

So uhm, I don't know. I like her personality too so I kind of want her as a gf. But we keep having sex.

its been stuck there for 4 months. its hard as a rock, and very stuck. what do i do? i have a rubber floor.

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im getting rejected a lot!! maybe i can boost my ego off of this. be honest tho!

theres this girl at a donut shop i go to sometimes during work. shes like 24 or something. im 22. we're always flirting with eachother, and im in no rush cause i see her all the time. well one day when im ordering she says "what do you want? movie or dinner". so whatever i go along with it and say "theres no good movies out. so lets get some dinner". anyway, i try to pick a day and she says "someday" or something stupid.

anyway, i get her # the next week, forget i have it for awhile, then remember and give her a call. we flirt for awhile then i ask her out. she keeps saying stuff, without saying yes or no. finally, she just says "someday". so whatever. im not calling more if im just gonna hear "someday". why waste my time for 3 weeks?

i currently have a job, and go to college, but im trying to get 1-2 more jobs to make more money. anyway, one idea i came up with was to be a clothing model, like you see in ads and on websites.

im 21, 6'1, 160 lbs. im on the leaner side, and in good shape.

i think i have a pretty good build for such a job. ive seen a lot of the people in the ads, and a lot of them are pretty ugly looking. so you obviously dont have to look great. i wear similar clothes to what they wear.

how would i go about getting a job like this?

i guess you could say im a bold person. i say pretty much whatever i want, honestly, i pretty much just do whatever i feel like doing. no one really gives me **** for it. to anyone i want. i never feel weird either. i just move on immediately. sometimes ill say something to someone, and they won't believe i actually said it, and they'll say "are you high" or "are you drunk. and i never am. its happened over 20 times. and usually in the middle of the day. i just say "no, i just felt like that saying that". its funny to hear that though so often.

heres what i think. personality doesn't matter that much. that just makes you not suck. but looks still matter, even if you have a personality.

it is reasonably easy for me to hook up with a girl, since im funny and have a good personality. i don't have to be great looking. to be honest i dont think about my looks. it doesnt seem to matter in these little hook up situations.

but when it comes to actually getting in a relationship with a girl, personality doesn't seem to matter that much. ive had hot girlfriends, but i literally had great timing to lock them down. once i did that, i could just focus on being the show.

but it seems like most of the time, im always one of the top 2 guys. i eliminate all the other competition. and im pretty much destroying the other guy as far as personality, but the girl is in this debate with herself because her friends say she thinks "cute" and the other guy is "hot". its like, she likes me more, but she wants to be seen with him in public more. some of the time i get picked, but the other half i dont. you know what i mean? im winning in confidence, but losing in looks.

im good looking, but i dont get called hot.

wow. i asked for my waitress number at lucilles and to come with me to monster massive. she says no. i write "your number here" on the receipt, and she circles lucilles number on the receipt and says "call me". so i call, and tell them to say "jay called". then i give her no tip, my phone number on a business card, and a free lollipop from the front. just now i get a text. "i hope your penis is bigger than your tip"

i dont want to attack now if its not a booty call.

why do i enjoy this? obviously, im not embarassed at all. i feel completely normal when doing all these things.

i mess with my bosses, co workers, girls, waitresses, friends, teachers, everyone. i give them nicknames, i imitate their voices. i show a short girl a pair of size 4 sandals and she says "not the right size". and i say "ya, these are too big". i make fun of them and they laugh the whole time. i like screaming out the window at people on the street. if i hear music playing ill just start dancing, even if 100 people are around. ill walk in a store, and just start picking up things and putting them in different places. i grab a toy shark, and move it around by a fish tank. the whole time i do these things, i always keep a serious look on my face, even when the situation is ridiculous. i smoke a cigar while walking into the gym. but thats actually not to be funny. i just want a cigar. i turn music up really loud in my car, and dance really crazy. people in other cars look at me and smile and laugh. im doing a girl in vegas and stop in the middle and get dressed while shes naked and say "honestly, id rather play blackjack".

why do i enjoy ******* with people?