Ashley

For a week now my little one year old boy has been suffering from what I thought was nightmares. Now I'm not so sure. Night one he woke up screaming wouldn't go back to sleep...it has been about three nights...we aren't going to bed till early in the morning because he refuses to fall asleep. He screams at the bedroom door. When I try to lay him down he makes growling noises and throws himself around...I don't know what is going on but I'm desperate. Please anyone who can help me. I need answers. How do I get this to stop? What is wrong with my baby? Please don't suggest a doctor because it has done me no good so far.

For a week now my little one year old boy has been suffering from what I thought was nightmares. Now I'm not so sure. Night one he woke up screaming wouldn't go back to sleep...it has been about three nights...we aren't going to bed till early in the morning because he refuses to fall asleep. He screams at the bedroom door. When I try to lay him down he makes growling noises and throws himself around...I don't know what is going on but I'm desperate. Please anyone who can help me. I need answers. How do I get this to stop? What is wrong with my baby?

I am having problems with being claustrophobic during my pregnancy. It happened with my first child as well. Does anyone know why this happens or ways to relieve it. It only happens when I'm sleeping at night and my partner gets to close to me. Please any help or advice would be appreciated.Thanks

I know they prefer to do this when they are younger but because medicaid wouldn't pay for it I couldn't afford it till now. And probably didn't spell that doctor right but I really need to get this done. Thank y'all so much for your help

If you are single...never been married do you still have to go through court and obtain custody before you can file child support against the child's father?

I need a Pediatrician or Doctor who does Circumcisions in Louisiana. Preferably one who takes Medicaid...please help me...my baby is a month old already and I need to get this done but can't find anyone.

Just a stranger met on the street

That's what you should have been

But fate, I guess, had other plans

Many times our paths crossed

Neither of us thinking anything of it

We were after all only kids

But now as we stand here

Saying final goodbyes I wonder

Is this it? Have our paths finally separated?

I'm not sure fate planned this

Or maybe all along it was suppose

To end in heart ache

Maybe our paths will cross once more

Till then I will remember you

And the adventures of knowing a stranger

"Mere Memories"

Standing in this dark, cold,

dusty room, at the far end

lays a body surrounded by

its own blood and a young

girl is standing over it. As I

approach she turns to me

and I wish to scream, but can

not, not here in a world which

I do not belong. She tries to

cry out to me, ask me to help

her, but I can't hear her, I don't

wish to hear her. I watch as she

becomes frustrated, pulling at her

bleach, blond hair with the blood

stains in it. She begins to throw things

at me, but she can't harm me because

she is only a ghost, a mere memory

of my past. Finally she breaks down

and cries and I put my arms around

her to comfort her. I'm shocked by

how real she seems, but realize

she is only a mere memory of me

I'm sitting here all alone staring out at the rain as it hits the window panes. I left so much behind me. I walk the streets of New York and I look around but it's just not the same as home. So I sit here and I cry as I think about all that I left behind. My friends, family, hopes, dreams, and life. So now it is time to begin a new life, find new friends, new hopes, new dreams. As the tears flow I get up and walk away from the window. I grab the rope from the table and walk to my room and sit down to write the note. It will say, "I love you all and will miss you. Starting over was too much for me so tell all the family and friends back home I said I love them too and will see them on the other side. By the time you read this, it will be to late to stop this from happening." I lay my pen down on the note and get up.

I take the rope to my closet climb up on the ladder and hang it from the ceiling. I slip the noose on and tighten it. Then I jump!

I turn around and look at the doll now hanging in my closet and I think to myself that could be me. But I chose to live. Not to die. No matter how bad my life gets. And the doll will hang there to reminds me of my choice. The path I chose.

I'm sitting here all alone staring out at the rain as it hits the window panes. I left so much behind me. I walk the streets of New York and I look around but it's just not the same as home. So I sit here and I cry as I think about all that I left behind. My friends, family, hopes, dreams, and life. So now it is time to begin a new life, find new friends, new hopes, new dreams. As the tears flow I get up and walk away from the window. I grab the rope from the table and walk to my room and sit down to write the note. It will say, "I love you all and will miss you. Starting over was too much for me so tell all the family and friends back home I said I love them too and will see them on the other side. By the time you read this, it will be to late to stop this from happening." I lay my pen down on the note and get up.

I take the rope to my closet climb up on the ladder and hang it from the ceiling. I slip the noose on and tighten it. Then I jump!

I turn around and look at the doll now hanging in my closet and I think to myself that could be me. But I chose to live. Not to die. No matter how bad my life gets. And the doll will hang there to reminds me of my choice. The path I chose.

There were things we said we shouldn't have

Everyone knows once words are shared

They become intangible as if ghost

You can't bring them back as if they were unspoken

They made tears flow and doors slam

At last what started as only a crack

Now driven to an uncrossable rift

It separated us like never before

Remember how painful being apart was

The heartache of not seeing each other

That pain is gone now

I'm not sure why but I miss it in a way

There is no repairing the damage done

I guess it's really over and gone

Neither of us wanted to end it

Sometimes words just get in the way

Causing chaos that leads to pain

Causing problems beyond our understanding

No longer resolvable we are done

Trying to make things work

And I will miss you but it's better now

"Mere Memories"

Standing in this dark, cold,

dusty room, at the far end

lays a body surrounded by

its own blood and a young

girl is standing over it. As I

approach she turns to me

and I wish to scream, but can

not, not here in a world which

I do not belong. She tries to

cry out to me, ask me to help

her, but I can't hear her, I don't

wish to hear her. I watch as she

becomes frustrated, pulling at her

bleach, blond hair with the blood

stains in it. She begins to throw things

at me, but she can't harm me because

she is only a ghost, a mere memory

of my past. Finally she breaks down

and cries and I put my arms around

her to comfort her. I'm shocked by

how real she seems, but realize

she is only a mere memory of me.

This room so dark, cold, dusty

I'm not even sure this is my world

Looking around all I can see is darkness

Where have all the flowers gone

The happiness has been drained

Nothing but sadness remains

A door at the far end of the room

I walk towards it, I want to escape

Trying to leave something stops me

Horrified I try to scream but have no voice

My body laying in a pool of its own blood

I trace the path it makes back to the wound

A hole from the bullet in my chest

I watch as people come running

Listening to their horrified gasps

Their cries of shock, my mom is crying

My boyfriend stands in the back

I can tell he wants to cry but is holding in his tears

Someone finds a note, my note

Flashbacks occur as I remember

I wrote it then put the gun over my heart

Pulled the trigger and then nothing

"I'm not dead, I'm hear," I shout

No one hears my pleading cry

I want to pull my boyfriend into my arms

Tell him I'm still with him

Then a voice whispers "This is what you wanted."

I turn to see Death himself

Standing before me smiling

"No," I cry, "Look at their tears,"

"I didn't want to hurt the people I loved,"

"Then rip that note up and put the gun away"

Was Death's reply. I looked down

The gun was in my hand. No one was

there except me. I put the gun away

Picked up the phone and called a friend

We talked a while and cried together

Then I realized happiness comes from

Those you love and those that love you

Just a stranger met on the street

That's what you should have been

But fate, I guess, had other plans

Many times our paths crossed

Neither of us thinking anything of it

We were after all only kids

But now as we stand here

Saying final goodbyes I wonder

Is this it? Have our paths finally separated?

I'm not sure fate planned this

Or maybe all along it was suppose

To end in heart ache

Maybe our paths will cross once more

Till then I will remember you

And the adventures of knowing a stranger

Okay my boyfriend asked me to marry him. I said yes. But before he asked me, he had talked to my mom about it and she told him she was totally fine with it but wanted us to wait until at least after I got settled in at college before we actually get married. Neither of us wanted to tell my mom's husband about it because he hates my now fiance. We knew we would have to tell him and knew either way things worked out he would still be mad at us so we were biding our time trying to figure out how to go about the informing him. Well his sister knew we were engaged and like always she went off and told him about it so then he chewed my butt out and told me I was not getting married and that was his guarantee of it. Well then he made me call my fiance and tell him that he was to come out to the house that night and talk to him. To say the least that wasn't pretty either. I yelled at the guy for trying to put the blame off on my fiance for so many different things that didn't have anything to do with him and my mom told him that I was right and that we could technically go off and get married in june if we wanted but she had asked us to wait. He's now mad and won't talk to me at all just pretends I don't exist and it doesn't bother me. What bothers me is he was basically trying to tell me how my life would work. He said that I would go to college, and after completing the four years if Patrick(my fiance) was still around we could get married and he would even pay for the wedding and bring Patrick himself. The thing is Im not going to be in college for four years, b/c it only takes two for my degree, and I don't want his stupid money, we can do the wedding ourselves without his money, he was almost ruined everything with my mom as far as me ever coming back to this place to visit after I leave, and he doesn't have any say so in my life noways, so why doesn't he just accept it and leave me alone and stop trying to pretend I'm not here.

My boyfriend is always telling me things like he promises he will never hurt me again (back in may he broke up with me and dated this nutcase chic but when he left I was heartbroken most of the time that we were apart) and then he's talks about how he promises to never hurt me mentally or physically all b/c he runs into a couple that got into a huge fight and were literally hitting each other and it seems to upset him anytime something happens that he thinks would make me leave him and so he like tells me he never wants to lose me again and that he loves me. I mean I know that he would never hurt me on purpose and everything but yet for whatever reason he feels like he has to tell me that he would never hurt me or otherwise he thinks he's going to lose me and I just can't figure out why he feels this way.

Here's an explanation of what I'm asking. Say for instance you knew someone who dressed very bright and cheerful. This person was always and happy and stress free or so it seemed and this person was very trustworthy and hardly ever done anything to get themselves in trouble and they were also very friendly. Then slowly they start changing. Darker clothes, not always so happy, doesn't smile as much, always seems to be stressed about something and starts doing things to put themselves in situations that could cause them to run into some trouble with friends or parents. They are still trustworthy and very friendly of course. Well lets say they catch a glimpse of who they used to be and what they were like. They want to go back to being that person do you think it's possible for this person to do that?

Too many promises of we wil tomorrow

Things never done as time was rushed

To many chores not left undone

So time could be spent playing with her

Soon the days of princesses and dress up

Passed away as she became older

Many friends walked through that door

Some even went back out but never

There to understand how it hurt

Boys came and went every few months

Fresh tears as each one walked away

Prom night many friends were killed

Hit by a drunk driver, she was a lucky one

Momma finally realized she needed

To slow down. Life was too short

To rush each day but now it was too late

Their time together growing short.

She stands there in her cap and gown

Smiling down at momma

They say good bye for the short while

Next thing you know she's in a white dress

Walking down the aisle

Momma's time to go comes and

She says "Baby hang on to every minute

As long as you can because it's gone

Gone before long and You never really

Know the treasure you're little girl was."

This world is so cold

A dark place I feel I don't belong

People looking at me

Not giving me a second glance

In their eyes I'm an outcast

No where's do I fit in

They don't want me here

I don't want to be here

So I cry myself to sleep

No one knows the pain

An outcast feels

They can't see how we ache

Ache to belong

So the darkness hides us

Like a blanket covering our tears

We won't have to be afraid of them

Our pain will end soon and when it does

They will become the outcasts!

Not accepted in our world

Like we weren't accepted in theirs

Did you ever really know the pain

Could you ever really see the rain

Guess you didn't know that I cared

Even while you were standing there

Telling your lies and breaking my heart

As long as you didn't get caught

Playing your cards carefully tonight

Pulled me back in but now I have a light

So will you still play your games

Cause I won't be left guessing names

Now please make up your mind

I'm getting tired of wasting my time

Do you want me to stay or go

I really do need to know