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So I have a problem...

I believe that I'm too nice to people and it's affecting my grades and performance in school!

So here are some things that I have done:

Was helping a team member perfect her debating speech although I hadn't finished my speech. I was writing it for her. She won best speaker and never gave any credit to me.

I felt really mad at her but I thought it was really rude and inappropriate if I approached the teacher and said that I developed her speech.

Okay, for a group science project I was group manager and no-one did their work.

I ended up staying up to 1am the night before it was due perfecting for our group because I really wanted our group to get good marks which would result in good grades for our reports.

When she asked everyone to either give a thumbs up or thumbs down on wether or not we like it I gave a thumbs down and the people in my group felt offended.

I guess, I felt affected by their offendedness (i know) and raised my thumb to the middle. I know this sounds stupid but, do I have a right to feel affected and offended by their actions??

I have done more but have forgotten...

Also

I don't have any friends..

Well, people that I actually consider true friends..

So here is my background story:

At the beginning of 2012 I moved to a different country and for the first term I felt really lonely and left out as the person I considered my only friend was away practically everyday because of family reasons. In term two I made one of the best friends I have ever made, we could relate, we had similar future aspirations, similar families, are both studious and we just got each other. She helped me develop my confidence (I was really shy and awkward) and I guess, from what she says is that I've showed her another side of life, like another view point. We both started at that school the same year and we started our on group consisting of us two and another two people (the fourth eventually left our group). We became really good friends at the end of the year then it was time to start college.

Okay, so now, we were all going to go to the same college but..

I moved countries again.

ahh, idk.. are you even reading until now? I don't know if its even worth it

I began college and I knew nobody in my form class/ home group. I became friends with everybody and life was pretty good... Just missing my friends and all but now every time I go to school I feel a fake smile coming onto my face like a mask and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of fake friends and fake people who will leave the next moment. Ahh, gahh, I'm crying, so stupid..

I put in the effort, I made my own group, I became friends with everyone, what am I doing wrong?

I guess, I just find myself to be so awkward.. Last year, was so easy, I wasn't much of a talker but I got really chatty and crazy when I talked with my friend group. I observe people and their conversations but I just don't have it; the natural flow of how a conversation should go.

So I'm all about being modest, I don't talk about myself, I ask people about what's going on in their lives, their future aspirations but I can't find anybody that's like my groupies (idk) back in the other country..

Then there's my family.

last year, my parents were separated, one was in one country and the other in the other and my Mum was stressed (we were with her in the other country) and she kinda took her anger out on us. I mean it wasn't bad, my older sister was there with me and she took most of it. My mum disowned her many times after she (my sister) learnt and developed a thicker skin. She doesn't listen to my mum anymore as she used to but I don't know if this is because she's a teenager and it's a phase or because of scars.

My mum came to talk to me and my sister the other night and she said she didn't care anymore. I don't know, she says she loves us but then she gets mad, she wonders aloud what would happen if she didn't have a miscarrige and birthed another child (he or she would have been the oldest out of my sister and I).

I don't cut, I'm not suicidal but I am a christian and really, God is keeping me anchored. I used to cut , but I got over that and developed more in my faith..

I don't know, I just feel really stupid and sad every time I go to school.

Somehow I gained a reputation for being smart and somehow everybody knows I skipped a year (I'm not being bullied) but I just feel so stupid and dumb

ITS JUST SO HARD BEING THE NICE ONE, YOU GET TACKEN FOR GRANTED!

This guy said he liked this other girl for about 2 terms, and I was distant friends with him (friends through my Best friend); cracking jokes sometimes and then It cam to this term (4) and in week three he told my best friend that he 'loved' me and he was using the other girl as a cover up. But in term 3 I got dared to hug him and I did but he opened his arms and approached me first and after that he blushed, I didn't see it my BF (best friend) did. So in week 3 I found out that apparently he 'loves' me. I avoided him the first day, on tuesday I talked to him with my BF (best friend) and she asked him if he 'liked' me, he said yes and then she asked him if he 'loves' me and he said yes my BF then asked me if I liked him I said no then she asked me if I loved him. I said no after that it got a bit awkward. Wednesday I approached him with my BF by my side and I told him I wanted to get this over and done with and if there where any questions he wanted to ask but then I quickly re-phrased that and asked if there was anything he wanted to know but he didn't hear that. And he asked me out but I said no because I wasn't brought up that way and I am studious (besides its graduation at the end of the year and we won't really date for that long because I'm going to be moving countries after grad). Over the next week we didn't really talk. my BF and I think that he was using me as a cover up because he sounded a bit strained when he was asking me out. We didn't talk for the next few days.

After that I got sick of it and got his contact details on Skype. We talked and sorted out that it wasn't awkward anymore….

After that we talked like really good friends on Skype and then…… I asked him if I was actually a cover up and he said yes. So that got that question out of my mind.

After a few days of good natured CHATTING ON SKYPE, he owned up and said that I wan't a cover up and that he still loves me and he asked me out again over skype but I still said no and I told him not to think of it as a rejection (I really didn't want him to be sad). Really I friend zoned him but I'm just wondering if he got the message, like my BF has this guy friend and they are practically Best friends but with no dating going in the friendship (she doesn't really view him as a guy) and I want the friendship between him and I to be like that……

Anyway told him no and that my mind was made up and we talked like we did, but then someone close to him passed and now its week 5 and I contacted him on Skype because he wasn't there that day and I asked him if he was alright and stuff and he just said sad and I talked about school trying to take his mind of the funeral but he kept on giving me this face: -_- and I tried making jokes (cheesy jokes) but he just kept on answering with that face and one word answers.by this time I was really running out of patience but I also asked him if he wanted to talk about it because I had been through the same thing (doubt he knew that). THen I asked him if he was a sad and he said: what do you think? -_-

and then I said: feeling a bit depressed? idk you keep on giving me that face. his reply: >:(

my reply: :P

then he logged out on me….

I ignored him today, then after I found out from my BF that he was angry at me because I called him depressed.

But I didn't, I ASKED him if he was FEELING depressed.

So basically, anyway way that I could sort it out to just a good friendship, no awkwardness?

Tips maybe?

Thanks for your time and patience and for reading this. I've been through the same thing at another school but I kinda ruined it by ignoring the person for the rest of the year - that is the way I would of handled it without my Best friend.

I am writing a little something for my schools speech. Could I please get words that are in the present tense form?

Well it started about 2 years ago. I usually get dizzy after I got out of bed but sometimes I get like dizzy during random times in the day. I don't take any medication and I am 10-15 years of age. Girl....

There was this time when I got dizzier than usual that I almost fell down but luckily a cupboard was supporting me..... well I got really dizzy and blackness was creeping at the edge of my vision it passed though, and it lasted for 20 seconds. I am only allergic to cats but I haven't been in contact with a cat in a long time.... oh and I am allergic to dust. Healthy..... diabetes runs in the family from my mums side but she doesn't have diabetes because she has taken care of herself and I pretty sure I don't too. I keep up my fitness with swim training. No major sicknesses in the past. yeah.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for future reference.

1) You can put your head up wooaahh.... and you can keep your head down aayyee.... oh its time its time...................

2) lalalalala you make me feel like la la la la la you make me feel like la la la l a la la ...............

These songs are from like the end of 2012. It would really help if you know the names to these

one is- the lyrics are:

I found you, I found.. (then i think it goes) where ever you will go

I think that is the chorus..

2, the lyrics:

Shake it off, ooowoah. It's hard to dance with the devil on your back so shake it oofff woah!

it would help if you know the names and the artists of these songs :)

I need to tune my guitar and it seems that every one I have tried is COMPLETELY off. Can you please give me a link to a proper on-line guitar tuner .

Please, my mum is most probably teaching me the wrong things

Well I am in yr 7 and We have only 7 weeks, yes weeks to do a P.P (personal project).

I have interest in the future about doing something in the medical field so I am wondering what I could do to present it and stuff in the medical field thing or like what to do....

I want to do this because there was a girl who did a P.P and who was interested in doing something for her job in the future so she did a P.P on that and got a scholarship. I would LOVE to get a scholarship but I don't want to start off on the wrong foot and change in the middle of the weeks. I don't really cover any ground on that so... oh but my mum is a doctor and I know more about medicine than the average yr 7... so I am WONDERING what I possibly can do to make it a presentable thing, any ideas?

I also do music so I could compose my own piece, the only problem is that I play the piano and I have already created a piece but I can't play it on the piano at school and I don't want it on an mp3 or some sh..... thing like that so.. Oh and I play the guitar so I want to make a piece but I am shy and don't want to sing so.. oh and we have 1 guitar that is a fender in this house but I am getting a new one soon but... oh and the P.P has to last over 7 weeks and we have to keep a journal and everything!

I am also interested in art so I can do something on a canvas or sketch but yeah.. I don't have the supplies and my sketching book is in another country and I am better at painting but don't have the paints and I am not really good at sketching.

OH MAYBE I could do a book on photography, just photo's and me. But my mum doesn't have time to drive me around....

I am all muddled up and fizzled...

oh and for the music, I could possibly get a scholarship if I do well but I don't want to go to the high school which is based on music, but do I get all the things paid like uniform, books etc..? Because I will have to get a laptop and yeah.. if I do I will have to go to a different high school than my sister so.. PLEASE! I am in need of guidance from you.

Thank you SSSOOO MUCH it will improve my grades so so so much and it will help boost my confidence in myself. PLEASE set me off in the right direction on the right foot.

Oh and (sorry) I also want to interview my mum about her life but I don't know how to present it.. wait, scrap that idea.

Tanhk you

cna you raed taht?

I am a female, under 15 years of age.

It is 3:07am.This is the very first time it has happened. I have had colds in the past week and nose bleeds either spontaneously or caused by a slight nudge. I have eczema and no family passed down illnesses.

So I woke up at about 2:30 feeling very dizzy inside my head and I walked to the bathroom and vomited up last night's dinner. After i threw up I felt OK and now the dizziness is coming back.

I ate the same dinner as everybody else perhaps I ate too fast? Because I was in a rush to somewhere. Some days ago I could feel something on my left down side of the body (not in the legs) Um my large intestine or my small intestine??

It was kind of like shaking like a sudden earthquake. i need to go back to the bathroom soon.

please, please, PLEASE help me.

Right now I am feeling it. My should we say large intestine or small intestine, it feels... oh the feeling went. Now I am starting to get the feeling of vomiting. I have no idea why this is happening. I had a blood test on thursday (today is saturday morning).

I'll just have a lie down......

Thank VERY much for future references

Oh... I just came back from another round and I feel normal, like tired. The nauseousness starts from the like back of my throat and what made me throw up was the bad breath of my vomiting before, I have cleaned my teeth because of the stomach acids destroying it. Any Ideas of how to prevent this condition?

Oh and I get a light sheen of sweat on my forehead while doing the business.

Well i am under 15 years of age.

I am a girl.

I have gone through a lot of experiences.

My Granddad took his last breath in front of me.

My best friend for 7 years was actually using me.

I moved countries. Here is what I going through.

I am crying or feel like crying more often, I feel like rebelling to my parents all the time. I cry inside but have a smile on the outside. My friend over heard a guy say "she is pretty" and told me and I passed it aside and thought of the negative. Think about suicide more often. Feel very sad. ???? early side. Also I swim train so I don't get the sleep that I like. It's harder to get to sleep and only can sleep in till eight in the morning. feel hopeless, feel like nobody cares. Get's the fire of rebelling when my parents tell me no.

My dad is hardly in this country.

Ok there is this Guy in my class. Yestreday I had my hair down and I swapped seats with someone and am at the back of the room. He is in the middle, he really likes this girl in the middle though, cause he asked her out but she is SSOO popular and PRETTY. I sit next to this friendly, funny guy and he angles his seat back and I thought it was to look at the pretty girl. So as I said I had my hair out, and the awesome guy next to me kept on chatting to me and making me laugh :) and twice I looked over to him (he sits next to my good friend) and he was looking at me. I haven't talked to him before and people don't like him and he does sick things. Once before I was waiting for this person get out of the way of the isle and he was behind her doing something, he looked at me then pushed her :(. Sign of getting her out of the way for me or for him?

We had a test and after he was collecting up the calculators, I almost dropped one but he caught it (butter fingers, they were numb and cold) and he was smiling to himself. What do I do to make him turn away?

I don't really like him...

Also the guy that sits next to me... Flirting with me? and today the girl that the first guy pushed was sitting on the desk on the other side of him and we try to annoy him (he is seriously funny) and then to get back at us he leans behind, puts his arm on the chair and leans a tad to close. The other day he was trying to catch a note my friend and i were chcuking to each other and he caught it and I put my hand on his for a tad too long :(. He kept on saying Sup _______ was that flirting?

i am confused

Does he like me?

19 hours ago - 3 days left to answer.

Additional Details

Ummm..... Today the guy that was sitting next to me aahhhummm.....

So we were doing this thing and we were listening to someone and then I was looking upfront at the speaker and the guy next to me started leaning into me until our shoulders touched and our legs.... Ummm........ Sooooooooooooo..........

And I think the guy next to me, while he was leaning in... um put his arm on the back of my chair while I was leaning forwards. Um I want to be in the friend zone but just want to know if they like me..... I know why put the effort in. I just want to be aware and stuff

Ok there is this Guy in my class. Yestreday I had my hair down and I swapped seats with someone and am at the back of the room. He is in the middle, he really likes this girl in the middle though, cause he asked her out but she is SSOO popular and PRETTY. I sit next to this friendly, funny guy and he angles his seat back and I thought it was to look at the pretty girl. So as I said I had my hair out, and the awesome guy next to me kept on chatting to me and making me laugh :) and twice I looked over to him (he sits next to my good friend) and he was looking at me. I haven't talked to him before and people don't like him and he does sick things. Once before I was waiting for this person get out of the way of the isle and he was behind her doing something, he looked at me then pushed her :(. Sign of getting her out of the way for me or for him?

We had a test and after he was collecting up the calculators, I almost dropped one but he caught it (butter fingers, they were numb and cold) and he was smiling to himself. What do I do to make him turn away?

I don't really like him...

Also the guy that sits next to me... Flirting with me? and today the girl that the first guy pushed was sitting on the desk on the other side of him and we try to annoy him (he is seriously funny) and then to get back at us he leans behind, puts his arm on the chair and leans a tad to close. The other day he was trying to catch a note my friend and i were chcuking to each other and he caught it and I put my hand on his for a tad too long :(. He kept on saying Sup _______ was that flirting?

i am confused

Does he like me?

it goes like:

A e mariea

One of the g*y modern family guys sang it at a wedding.

It is like an opera song.

PLEASE I REALLY NEED THIS

I got dared to go up and say a pick up line to some guy but I avoided it somehow and I was just wondering. SO what is a pick up line

There is this guy at my the school I go to and everyone thinks he is scary and creepy but somehow I find him attractive????

i just came to the school this year and yea......

Here is the story:

I was on the computer at school and google images was blocked and I was trying to get on (well I AM new) and I randomly looked left to where the door was to the class and he was standing there leaning against the frame looking or staring at me or the computer????

I just find this weird....... not creepy or scary.

He stopped taking interest so I started ignoring him (yea and we dont talk to each other much or say hi) so the next term in week three in french class I leaned forward and looked for my friend on the other tables and our eyes met for a bit then I looked away.......

No i dont want to get invovled... so what should I do?

oh and when ever he is around I surprisingly I dont realise he is there or I ignore him but once my friend was looking his way and then she caught up to me and was like "OMG he was looking at me" and I'm like WTF?

There is this guy at my the school I go to and everyone thinks he is scary and creepy but somehow I find him attractive????

i just came to the school this year and yea......

Here is the story:

I was on the computer at school and google images was blocked and I was trying to get on (well I AM new) and I randomly looked left to where the door was to the class and he was standing there leaning against the frame looking or staring at me or the computer????

I just find this weird....... not creepy or scary.

He stopped taking interest so I started ignoring him (yea and we dont talk to each other much or say hi) so the next term in week three in french class I leaned forward and looked for my friend on the other tables and our eyes met for a bit then I looked away.......

No i dont want to get invovled... so what should I do?

oh and when ever he is around I ignore him but once my friend was looking his way and then she caught up to me and was like "OMG he was looking at me" and I'm like WTF?

Yup I dont know what flirting is. I have seen lots of people use it in answers but I dont kmnow!

Its for history homework and im desprate!