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Only noticeable when decelerating once I've hit 20 mph until I stop, getting louder as I decelerate but never louder than the radio at volume 5.

Also, rear felt a little wobbly like the tires were unbalanced from 60-70mph (the typical speed for unbalanced symptoms to occur) I'm going to see about a rotation and balance tomorrow, and while I'm at the shop I'm going to ask to make sure everything looks right and ask the staff about the symptoms.

I wouldn't be surprised if I'm worrying myself for no reason, but I'm a perfectionist and something feels off and I want to make sure I didn't do something wrong.

I am not talking about the perineal raphe.

Looks like a scar from the urethra to my circumcision scar. What would it be from?

So I'm wanting to buy new clothes as my local thrift shops don't have what I want anymore.

So I was thinking about ordering some online and that brings up the issue of having it shipped. I live in an apartment so I typically have things shipped to my workplace. However, while some of my coworkers are Facebook friends and I'm out on Facebook (been out way before they were friends so unless they stalk my profile, they wouldn't know I'm anything more than an extremely active supporter) I tend to open my packages at work during break and want to avoid that or the pressure from my coworkers to open it. I've seen neighbors with boxes outside their apartment but worry about the issues of someone stealing it, would I be able to instruct them to set it on the balcony on my apartment which would reduce the likelihood of someone stealing it (not hard to put over the fence but very dangerous to jp the fence to steal it).

Or maybe instruct ups, usps, or fedex to hold the package at a certain store of theirs and I'd pick it up after work? Just trying to figure this out. Would be so much easier if I wasn't Trans lol

While cold, it doesn't happen.

After about 10 minutes driving, the front end will make a crunching type sound on the inside wheel of a turn.

If turning left, sound is in the left wheel well. If turning right, sound is in right wheel well. So this is likely not a CV axle problem.

Drivability is largely unaffected.

My current hypothesis is that the bushings on the sway bar (not the links) may be worn out. I think the bushings have enough room for the sway bar to move when cold but when the bushings get warmer they expand which in turn compresses the sway bar increasing friction on the bar.

Does my hypothesis fit the symptoms I'm experiencing? With likely 200k on the current bushings, I'll probably replace them anyway but what else do you think I should look into as a possible problem?

While cold, it doesn't happen.

After about 10 minutes driving, the front end will make a crunching type sound on the inside wheel of a turn.

If turning left, sound is in the left wheel well. If turning right, sound is in right wheel well. So this is likely not a CV axle problem.

Drivability is largely unaffected.

My current hypothesis is that the bushings on the sway bar (not the links) may be worn out. I think the bushings have enough room for the sway bar to move when cold but when the bushings get warmer they expand which in turn compresses the sway bar increasing friction on the bar.

Does my hypothesis fit the symptoms I'm experiencing? With likely 200k on the current bushings, I'll probably replace them anyway but what else do you think I should look into as a possible problem?

I'm needing to diagnose a front end clunk and believe it's a sway bar link.

If I were to disconnect it and put the wheel back on could I drive it less than 100 feet to see if the clunk disappears or could it cause damage to other components?

Only clunks once when I accelerate and doesn't clunk again until I brake or come to a stop in which it also clunks once. Basically as though something is shifting back on acceleration and forward when braking.

I replaced the wheel bearing and lower balljoint last weekend however, did notice the boots on the sway bar link were damaged. Could the sway bar link be the cause?

I've had a pretty rough month, during a 3 week period a week ago I was in a pretty super low point but somehow managed to work my way through it yet again, although it's getting significantly harder.

However, apparently a coworker got mad at something I did during that 3 week period, I've heard it was because I seemed to be ignoring him starting last Friday (22/08/2014). He apparently decided to retaliate by pretending I don't exist, which sent me off the deep end immediately. I've been in such emotional pain because I can't even establish communication that I started cutting my arms again, They are very much obvious to anyone who sees them and it's really the only way I found to help reduce my emotional pain. Today I attempted the ice cube technique from DBT, bringing a sandwich container full of ice cubes to work.

However it wasn't strong enough or long enough. So in a last ditch attempt to avoid anymore cutting, I grabbed a bottle of ibuprofen from my car and took 5 pills (200mg ea) at once at approximately 9am. The effect of those pills wore off about an hour ago (5pm). During the time they were working, I told my coworkers that "my brain finally shut up." And that pretty much sums it up. It felt like I was buzzed on alcohol just without the alcohol, and the impaired vision. I could go right up to the guy who is mad at me and was happy and my previous thoughts of wanting to punch him for ignoring me were gone completely.

I'm curious, what did the ibuprofen do to my brain?

So long story short, I'm transgender, have some mental illness (diagnosed adhd in 7th grade, dad was bipolar, and I experience symptoms associated with asperger's) which probably cost me my job today because I've been in a depressed rut that has been worse than ever, Suicide has been the only thing I can think about lately and my self-harm has been increasing in severity.

My "friends" don't talk to me anymore and I don't think I even know what "friend" means anymore. I have one person I still talk to and he told me about his new internship which, while I'm happy for him, it was a slap in the face of failure. Sure I moved out a month ago, but it was a stupid decision since I hadn't saved up (I did well enough to get to month two fine but I keep feeling like I forgot something).

Hopefully this isn't too incoherent. Basically though, having whatever mental problem I have and gender dysphoria causing such an intense depression, I'm only able to conceptualize that life isn't worth living anymore. If I do lose my job tomorrow, I pretty sure I'm just going to give up on living.

I keep trying to remember I'm smart, I know a lot about neurobiology, psychology, programming, automotive repair, etc, but it doesn't really matter in the end because I have no formal training, it's 90% autodidact and 10% "I took a class once." At this point, the only future I can see is one of shear perpetual misery.

Any help would be great, as miserable and suicidal as I may feel, I do want to live, however, I don't want to live if it means that I'm in constant agony and hell.

I have not go to a doctor because I'm worried about the cost of telling them I feel this way in that I won't have the funds to pay for the "treatment". That's assuming I could actually tell them this time that I'm suicidal, Last time I tried I even wrote a note but couldn't bring myself to give it to the doctor.

Idk, I feel like I've probably randomly rambled on about nonsense again, hopefully it's coherent enough for you. I'm going to go take a shower and hopefully I'll feel better, but I doubt it.

Thank you for any help you can offer. Ask as many questions as you want and I'll make sure to answer them, thank you.

How do you reconcile Satan as an evil character who is evil for challenging Yahweh, yet he punishes the others whom Yahweh has judged to be unworthy of heaven or defiant against Yahweh? If Satan punishes those Yahweh sends to hell, then is Satan really evil since he's doing Yahweh's bidding like any "good" christian?

So until this morning I was doing fine. I'm a loner by nature and don't really enjoy contact with other people partially due to social awkwardness, but it does get to me from time to time that I wish I was more able to take part in a conversations and not be so socially awkward. I suspect aspergers but it could simply be related to me being transgender.

However, I had a dream last night that was centered around my being transgender, practically left me in tears when I woke up and realized I couldn't return to the dream. I've had this horrible feeling all day of incredible emptiness.

In the dream, I woke up to realize I was in a hospital-like building and in that room I was greeted by a young nurse who said something about the surgery being a success but to be careful so I didn't rip my stitches. I realized that I had woken up after a partial srs where I had been castrated (which is as far as I care to go in my transition at the moment, but I'm not even on hrt). Well, next thing I knew I was up and chatting with other women in the same building as far I know. and I was enjoying conversing and I really felt at home there. In the next scene I accidentally ripped my stitches and was bleeding at my crotch so I went to find a nurse and that's when I woke up. I was in disbelief that this world I'm typing in was real, the level of comfort and acceptance and normalcy was something I wish I could achieve in this world. However, I wish I could return to that dream and never return to this world again because in that dream I was myself, I wasn't hiding in my apartment, but here, now that I've moved I'm able to be a bit more free but have to hide or deny I'm trans in public for fear of how I'd be treated.

If you have any tips on how to find a community or therapy that caters to transgender people in the Kansas city area, please let me know, I need some kind of community.

Ok, so here's my situation. I'm working a full time job and trying to maintain 2 college classes with that. However, I suspect I'm showing signs of bipolar disorder as well as being transgender.

The job is going ok but I don't like some of the people I work with, and I'm sick of living the double life of pretending to be another guy at work. On top of that, I'm trying to take classes to work on making it to become a psychologist which then when I consider how ****** up in the head I am, I feel like it's a waste of time because when I'm not in a manic euphoria I'm wishing I could just die because the agony is more than I can handle. I know I'm intelligent and strong to be challenging the social norm of gender, but it's getting so hard that all I can think about lately when I'm not arguing about social acceptance or something, I'm thinking about how much I just want to be dead, not have to wake up, put on a fake shell, and attempt to smile through the pain.

I've considered going to the hospital because I know this isn't healthy and a product of chemical imbalance in my brain, but all I can think about is how much it'll cost and how much I'm ******* losing because I can't keep up with classes, then I'm wondering how much money I'll be spending for the 3 day hold at the hospital for telling them I'm suicidal, how much the counselor is going to cost. I try thinking about getting help for whatever is going on in my head and I focus on how much money I'm going to ****** out of.

I'm going to stop ranting there, hopefully you have enough info to figure out my issues and help me help myself. Thanks for your help and let me know if you need more info.

Since last week my car has been having weird symptoms.

It's a 2002 Saturn L200 with 200k on the body but only 100k on the engine.

For several months it's been making a tapping noise on cold startup until it's warm and it goes away. Not sure if it's connected.

The main symptom is that I have almost no acceleration and but plenty of torque to make it up hills no problem and when I raise the engine to 4000 rpm (a week ago it would go to 5250) and it stumbles and throws a misfire code.

Another strange symptom is a whistling noise when I start up the car but after about 3 revs I never hear it again til I start it from cold again.

Things I tried so far:

-changed the coilpack

-checked the exhaust by pulling the front o2 sensor but the test was inconclusive as it shifted each time before 4000 rpm. But didn't have a very noticeable increase in acceleration.

-attempted to check the catcon but I'd need a welder to get it off.

Things it doesn't do:

-no stumble at idle. Idles fine.

-no stumble until I hit the 4k mark, has no real acceleration but plenty of torque to make it up hills no problem.

If you need more info let me know, I also have Torque pro on my phone so I can access the data if needed.

What I mean by that is I was trying to push the words out of my mouth but the words wouldn't form. It's as though I didn't know the words and couldn't utter them.

Based on what I did tell him he diagnosed me with general anxiety disorder. Problem is, while I may have it, my main illness is major depression disorder and I'm unable to ask for help. The only reason I can type this here is because I'm just typing and not thinking. If I was thinking I would be hitting back space.

The reason I'm depressed is simple but not something I can just up and change, I'm transgender and having to keep up this charade of pretending to be a man when I feel like a woman is getting to the point where I can't control it anymore. I actually had 2 panic attacks last night (one waking me up from sleep) and both attacks ended shortly after putting on a bra. I actually slept in it the rest of the night just so I wouldn't have another attack. I know I need help now, but just don't know who to turn to because I don't know who I can trust to 1. take me seriously and 2. not freak out when they realize a boy wants to be a girl. Thank you for listening, and thank you for any advice/help you can give.

I'm 22 and in the Kansas city area, so if you know of any places that could help with my complex condition, it would be greatly appreciated.

Where is the best place to go to find out about local groups in the KC metro for support groups of transgendered people? LGBT groups I've looked into are more about support of LGB and it's awkward being a T in those groups, at least the couple I looked into.

Thanks for the help in advance :)

So, after today I know it's something I really need to get treated. Here's my problem, my depression is linked to me being transgendered in a town that probably won't accept my "condition." However, the depression has gotten so bad that I was practically bedridden all day and am only up now because of an energy drink.

However, the problem I have is I grew up with a mentality that I can conquer anything and as a man (I'm MtF so this is prior to my discovery) I'm supposed to be strong and not ask for help. I realized I created a "shell" of sorts while I was trying to be the man everyone wanted me to be and I honestly believe that shell has become a separate personality within my one consciousness. I'm fully aware and in control but my demeanor changes from a normal girl to an irritable, "ready to fight my way through life" man.

However, one thing that always sets me on the path to being irritable and angry is get together with people who don't know I'm trans and having to put on the shell again hurts because I'm outgrowing it. I absolutely hate pretending I'm someone I've never been.

The main reason I know I need help is the major depression episode I had today with the headache I've been having for the last several days. I could just keep on naming things that are wrong with me but the main problem I'm having is I get anxiety when talking on the phone (but not in person) so I haven't been able call a therapist to get my transition going. Aside from that, I haven't been able to tell anyone because I just don't know how to bring up something like "hey yeah, I'm depressed." without them going thinking I'm just sad about something or just faking it. Hell, when I told my mom I was trans we didn't talk for about a day and a half before meeting at my aunt's to figure things out and since then she thinks it's just a phase to fit in with a new group of people who are LGBT friendly (a group at the college I go to). So telling her "I think I'm depressed and need to see a doctor." makes me feel like she'll just shut down again and honestly, I can't take that again.

I've actually gotten to the point that I wanted to just stop living during the episode today. That mixed with a desire to be happy almost got me to buy a bra today thinking "to hell with my safety. If someone wants to injure me let them try, I'm going to shop in the women's section." My depression actually got bad enough last week that I was typing up a coming out letter for facebook because the pain of having to hide who I am in undeserved shame is becoming unbearable.

Anyway, I'm going to end here, hopefully you have made it this far and even with my 2am ramblings might be able to give some advice on how to deal with this in Kansas City area. I've talked to other trans people from other areas, but I don't know any others in the kck area so it makes it harder for me.

Good night and thanks to anyone who provides help, and thanks to those who have nothing to offer for merely letting me borrow a few minutes of your time. I'm posting this at 2am because my inhibitions would stop me during the day and I'm determined to be among the 3 out of 4 that survives :)

I'm transgender (mtf) and I can't even drive to school without seeing a girl in a cute outfit and getting EXTREMELY jealous. So far the best I can do is dress up at home nightly after my mom goes to bed or when she's gone (she knows but I'm still reluctant to discuss it with her after the incident when I came out to her). It's going to be even more difficult since my brother gets back from the military and he knows nothing about it and is going to have enough to deal with since our dog is on the verge of dying.

That's enough back story, I'm getting better at being able to buy feminine products (hair straightener, woman's hair and hygiene products, and a pair of woman's sunglasses) but I'm not making enough of a stride to be where I want to be. Talking to people seems to help quite a bit but I worry too much about whether they want to talk about it or not. I'm also getting depressed far more often because I look too much at how far I have to go to get where I can be happy.

Essentially my concerns are that I need to get out of the town I live in before I can transition, but once I get there how do I get on hrt without dealing with a counselor? And how can I get started now while I'm trying to move.

I apologize for any incoherrency and if you need clarification or have further questions, just ask and I'll update this post. Thanks for any help you can give and trolls stay away.

I'm a transgender woman (pre everythin) but lately I'thanks for your n noticing that I feel comfortable as a guy every once in a while. For instance 6 days I'll feel girly, but then 1 day I'll feel manly. I'm thinking that it has to do with the stress and anxiety I'm facing during transition (can't leave the house dressed up for fear of a negative reaction in my small town, not wanting to draw attention in public, etc).

Anyone else who has transitioned felt this way prior? thanks for your time.

I'm a transgender woman (girl in a guys body) and I've been having this sensation for some time at my genitals where it feels like I've got a vagina where I actually have a penis. At the very least what I'd think a vagina would feel like. I've done a search on it and the only thing I can find is phantom limb syndrome of still having a penis. I can't find anything on this feeling.

Thanks for taking some time to help. :)