Anonymous xD

Not saying all girls do this, but some of you....

WHY just why, theres thoouuusands of kind guys, that would love you forever and that has a good heart and wont treat you like trash...

still, you go for the douchebags and whine about how they dump you after about 2 months and how bad they treated you blablabla.. Like really..

So, im a dude and i got a best friend thats a girl and well, we went to a party.. drinked a little, got a little drunk then we drank more and more and more, then we got so drunk that we didnt remember what happend under that night.. So what pretty much happend was that me and her had sex or '' made love ''... Some friends filmed it and showed it to us the next day and our friendship got kinda awkward after that, how do i do to not make it awkward?! XD ( sorry my english isnt 100% correct.. )

Okay, so... Im a dude, and i got a best friends thats a girl

soo pretty much me and her went to a party got drunk, and well, we had sex and my friends filmed it.. we didnt even remember we had sex so when my friends showed it to us, our friendship got kinda awkward, what should i do to not make it awkward?! XD

So yeah, i was gonna tell my best friend i have feelings for her, about 1 hour after i decided i was gonna tell her tomorrow, she tells me shes in love with someone, my heart started pumping and hoped she was in love with me, then she was in love with someone else, and he has feelings for her too and i know they will be together soon... Would it be a mistake to tell her this now? im affraid it will somehow mess up our friendship :/

Sorry my english may not be 100% correct.. Well well i am the kind of guy that always feel like ****, walks around with a fake smile everyday and is always depressed.. im 15, i turn 16 in a half year.. i have been put on anti depression medication a few times and im still on it but it wont work anymore.. All the feelings i carry around everyday is totally KILLING me.. i dont know how long i can go on like this.. If i will feel the same **** everyday for a year or two i wont stand it anymore, im affraid i will start taking drugs or something like that, i have been close to buy weed by a guy i know just to get away from this world and just live in a dreamworld... I did LSD once at a party.. Im in love with a girl that is actually my best friend and i notice that she does not like me more than i friend.. im not self confident enough to try to make her somehow attracted to me or something like that.. i just love her smile, her laugh, everything about her, its making me so frustrated that im affraid to tell her how i feel about her, because im affraid it may **** up our friendship in some way.. Im also stuck in a treatment home for probably over a year more.. been here for 4 and a half months.. Anyone that have been in a similar situation and got out of it? because i dont know how and i really need help with it..