SPN ~Wincest is Best~

After sanitizing my toy, I forgot to put it away and my roommate found it. (X -x) He texted me, asking why there was a red dildo in the bathroom.

I’m so tempted to text back, “Technically, it’s pink. And because I’m a 23-year-old female, so my hand doesn’t really do the trick. And ya gotta keep your toys clean, ‘cause that kinda gross.”

My roommate's a dude and in his late 40s, early 50s. He already finds stuff to nitpick constantly, despite us never seeing each other (he doesn't live here - he stays maybe once a month and uses it as a crash pad). Am I a bit embarrassed? Yep. But other than that, any reasonable person would just snicker about finding someone's toy and just bring it up to joke about.

Not make a big deal out of it. Sheesh. I'm moving out mid-November, anyway. My question is has someone ever found your toys? And what's the most embarrassing story?

After sanitizing my toy, I forgot to put it away and my roommate found it. (X -x) He texted me, asking why there was a red dildo in the bathroom.

I’m so tempted to text back, “Technically, it’s pink. And because I’m a 23-year-old female, so my hand doesn’t really do the trick. And ya gotta keep your toys clean, ‘cause that kinda gross.”

My roommate's a dude and in his late 40s, early 50s. He already finds stuff to nitpick constantly, despite us never seeing each other (he doesn't live here - he stays maybe once a month and uses it as a crash pad). Am I a bit embarrassed? Yep. But other than that, any reasonable person would just snicker about finding someone's toy and just bring it up to joke about.

Not make a big deal out of it. Sheesh. I'm moving out mid-November, anyway. My question is has someone ever found your toys? And what's the most embarrassing story?

I've been fairly depressed all semester and now that the semester's over and I've graduated, I'm still jobless. I've never felt lower.

I hang out with a lot of people, but have no one I would consider close. There are times that when they need something, I'm honestly busy and can't give them the time. But if anyone's ever feeling down or needs something to make them smile or laugh, I'm always there to talk to and help them out. Yet, whenever I need to to talk to someone, I have no one.

I seem happy enough to everyone, but the truth is that my self-worth is complete crap. I never feel good enough, no matter what I do. Even in my classes where I was at the top, I always felt like I could have been doing better. I'm the first one out of my siblings to have a degree, but my mother doesn't care and her and my oldest brother were adamant about how an AAS isn't a degree.

To be perfectly honest, if I can't get a job in my field by mid-to-end January, I can't see any reason for me to keep going. I don't WANT to do anything in life but be in my field. If I'm stuck at some typical 9-5 job, I'd say screw it and just kill myself. Even if I'm just filing paperwork, if it's relating to my field, I'll bite though it because it's what I want to do. I'd do the crap work that no one else wants to do, and, within six months, I can be where I want.

Believing in that is the only thing keeping me going. I just hate feeling like crap 24/7. I don't get the point of doing things in life we don't want to do when, in the end, it amounts to nothing. We all die, anyway. Everything we do means nothing. So why do something you'll hate day-after-day, month-after-month and year-after-year?

I've been adamant about finding a job. I've been to several offices and filled out applications, so it's not like I'm not trying. And I'm tried of my mother acting as though I'm not trying to find a job. I've been filling out everything I qualify for.

EVERYTHING.

So...how can I stop feeling so low? Is there a way? And don't recommend drugs or a psychologist. Because if that's on my record, I'll never qualify for the job.

Why and where did they start?

Between my bouts of self pity where I just want to either end it all or run and disappear from the grid, I always feel like people are watching me, like I'm always on camera and being monitored. I feel like there's always someone around, even when I'm by myself. Like someone's just staring at me or in the room with me at all times. I know that it's not normal and I've spoken to a psychologist about it. She said that's what separates me from having Paranoid Anxiety versus Paranoid Schizophrenia.

What I'm fearful about is that, as time progresses, my anxiety will evolve into Schizophrenia. That thought alone makes me terrifies me and makes me think about ending it all - I already feel alone with no one to talk to, no one that gets it. I can't see a psychiatrist, because it will screw up any plans I do hope for. I can't even tell a psychologist about the suicidal thoughts, because I'll be diagnosed and my chances of getting hired doing what I want go out the window.

What are my options, here? What can I do? How can I get these thoughts out of my head?

How can I stop feeling so completely worthless and pathetic?

I don't get twitter at all. I just...I don't. I see commercials showing things like @Google or #Google for it. What's the difference?

It might matter: I'm 21 female, height 5'10.

Since mid-November, I started working out for 2.5 -3 hours everyday. I alternate, one day doing upper body, the next lower body. I do 25min of cardio, stretch, then hit the weights. I do core workouts everday (leg lifts, crunches, sit-ups, slantboard, etc.). I've gone from benching 55lbs to 140lbs, squatting from 65lbs to 160lbs. I haven't weighed myself since I started.

I measured myself tonight and was rather surprised. I've gone from a 25" waist to a 26.5" waist. I nearly cried. I don't eat fast food or drink soda (haven't since I was 12), I limit sweets and everything.My biceps have gone from 12.5" to 13.25", but I want that -I can see muscle without flexing. For my core, I can see upper abs and definition on my obliques, but why have I gone up in my waist?! Is that normal?

I can feel solid muscle on my lower abs, but they're not defined, yet. Once I finish off that last small layer of fat, will my waist go back down? Also, any diet tips? I do consume carbs and haven't concerned myself limiting what I usually eat (bran, fruits, vegetables, cereals, etc). Other than breads, my daily diet's pretty healthy. Any tips for foods to continue burning fat and building muscle? I know proteins, but which are the healthiest? Eggs? Milk?

It might matter: I'm 21 female, height 5'10.

Since mid-November, I started working out for 2.5 - 3 hours everyday. I alternate, one day doing upper body, the next lower body. I do 25min of cardio, stretch, then hit the weights. I do core workouts everday (leg lifts, crunches, sit-ups, slantboard, etc.). I've gone from benching 55lbs to 140lbs, squatting from 65lbs to 160lbs. I haven't weighed myself since I started.

I measured myself tonight and was rather surprised. I've gone from a 25" waist to a 26.5" waist. I nearly cried. I don't eat fast food or drink soda (haven't since I was 12), I limit sweets and everything. My biceps have gone from 12.5" to 13.25", but I want that - I can see muscle without flexing. For my core, I can see upper abs and definition on my obliques, but why have I gone up in my waist?!

Is that normal? I can feel solid muscle on my lower abs, but they're not defined, yet. Once I finish off that last small layer of fat, will my waist go back down? Also, any diet tips? I do consume carbs and haven't concerned myself limiting what I usually eat (bran, fruits, vegetables, cereals, etc). Other than breads, my daily diet's pretty healthy. Any tips for foods to continue burning fat and building muscle? I know proteins, but which are the healthiest? Eggs? Milk?

I'm not dating or anything, but I have friends. Was I expecting too much for even a friend to just send a "Happy V-Day!" text?

I'm not dating or anything, but I have friends. Was I expecting too much for even a friend to just send a "Happy V-Day!" text?

I don't know what I weigh. When I started going to the gym in the beginning of November, I was 197lbs at 5'10. I stopped weighing myself to focus solely on getting fit and healthy. Judging by how I look, I'm estimating in the 170s.

My bench is 140lbs, 3 sets of 15.

My squat is 155lbs, 3 sets of 20.

I just want to know if that's average, below average or above average. I intend to go up 45lbs more on the squats and 35lbs more on the bench.

Please and thank you!

To everyone that knows me, I'm considered a happy-go-lucky person that doesn't give a d-mn what anyone thinks. I've always been the person people come to for unbiased advice.

I've always been willing to help people with their problems, but when I need someone to talk to, there's no one willing to listen. It gets even worse, because if I seek professional help for suicidal thoughts, the career I'm desperate to get into goes down the drain. I just don't understand the point of doing all of this to be successful, when it doesn't matter in the end and we just die, anyway. I either want to kill myself or disappear from the grid.

When I moved away from the place I lived in for 19 years, no one even noticed. I want to leave where I am now, but I still have 1.5 semesters before I get my degree so I can get the job I want. The moment I get it, I want to run.

But I don't know what I'm running to or what I'm trying to run from. People aren't in my head where I'm constantly thinking negative thoughts. I want to experience this happiness that everyone else does, and I can't seem to get there.

I just want someone to talk to, but, even then, I don't know where to start. Advice...please?

To everyone that knows me, I'm considered a happy-go-lucky person that doesn't give a d-mn what anyone thinks. I've always been the person people come to for unbiased advice.

I've always been willing to help people with their problems, but when I need someone to talk to, there's no one willing to listen. It gets even worse, because if I seek professional help for suicidal thoughts, the career I'm desperate to get into goes down the drain. I just don't understand the point of doing all of this to be successful, when it doesn't matter in the end and we just die, anyway. I either want to kill myself or disappear from the grid.

When I moved away from the place I lived in for 19 years, no one even noticed. I want to leave where I am now, but I still have 1.5 semesters before I get my degree so I can get the job I want. The moment I get it, I want to run.

But I don't know what I'm running to or what I'm trying to run from. People aren't in my head where I'm constantly thinking negative thoughts. I want to experience this happiness that everyone else does, and I can't seem to get there.

I just want someone to talk to, but, even then, I don't know where to start. Advice...please?

This isn't for me, for the record.

I'm working on a story and the character begins neglecting their health and doesn't eat for 2-3 weeks.

With a fast metabolism, how much weight would they lose?

Please and thank you!

And no "they'll die" answers. I know how long the human body can withstand no food, which is 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks for water.

*I've asked this before, but I like confirmation, so this is to see if I get around the same area.

This isn't for me, for the record.

I'm working on a story and the character begins neglecting their health and doesn't eat for 2-3 weeks.

With a fast metabolism, how much weight would they lose?

Please and thank you!

And no "they'll die" answers. I know how long the human body can withstand no food, which is 3-4 weeks. 2 weeks for water.

The plotline is, Male A leaves Male B behind after going off with a woman, and leaves Male B behind with someone they don't trust (suggested this person is a demon).

Forsaken Lullaby

Not Tomorrow

End of Small Sanctuary

The Reverse Will

Rain of Blass Pedals

Just fixed the last sentence - the summary's gotta be short, sweet and to-the-point. So, how's this sound:

"With tension high on the table, the brothers try to return to normal; but not everything can stay in the shadows for long. As nightmares and hallucinations become worse, separating reality from fantasy may not be the only concern."

Does it hook the reader?

I gotta keep the summary really short and to the point. So, tell me, if you read this, would it capture your attention enough to read the full story?

"With tension high on the table, the brothers try to return to normal; but not everything can stay in the shadows for long. Manipulation, betrayal and pain, they may have more to lose than even they knew they had."

Does that sound all right? If not, what would you add or take out?

Please n' thank you!

I just got a new laptop (PC) and installed iTunes. I logged into the store with my information, thinking that would bring up the "Purchase" tab so I could download my already-purchased-songs onto the laptop.

Thing is that there is no "Purchase" tab and I can't see to find where those songs are. I shouldn't have to pay for them again to get them on here. My other computer is a PC, as well, so that's not it. Can someone help me out here? I just want my songs on the laptop.

Anyway, I'm asking this here because you all probably know more about iTunes than the other sections.

I'm not saying this to be cruel or mean or whatever, but a good 85% of the time, black people just don't tip. The bill can be $100+ and they might leave $2.

Where I work, about 70-80% are black and they rarely tip. My service doesn't change regardless (don't freak out, I've had white people do the same, but very rarely) of the people I'm serving, but they'll have me running all over the place, complain because they don't have a lemon, get ramped if the kitchen's slow on bread and take it out on us. Like we're the ones in the back cooking??

Servers only make $2.13/hr. If we don't get tipped, we don't make money. Most of the time, I even out or lose money.

I just want to know why people feel like they don't have to tip, even when they have you running around like a chicken with your head cut off.