Fernanda

ok, i'm 13 years old and i really like her. everytime she's with another friend and not with me i get really nervous... but i'm not lesbian. i don't like girls, but i feel different about her she's special to me and i've never felt like this about ANYONE! i need advice, i don't know if she feels the same way about me, i will tell you some of our "moments" together.

one time, we where at a friend's house doing a Project it was 4 of us my two other friends where in another room printing while we where doing the other part of the Project. we finished with ur part but we stayed in the same room talking. we weren't even talking about anything to do with boys or people liking other people, but after an awkward silence she asked me: who do you like? and i couldn't say no one because i've been trying to hint her that i love her. i said: i'm not telling you, guess. then she started saying some boys and between those she said: me but then i just stared at her and she acted like she never said it and started saying other boy's names. i was sitting on the floor and she was sitting on the bed, so then she grabbed my hand and pulled me and started laughing. our faces where so close.... i couldn't even talk at that moment in my head i was like: whoaa ok, ok don't be weird don't be weird... Then my other two friends had to ruin the moment and walked in. another "moment" was one time that i was sleeping over at her house. the room was really dark and we couldn't see wach other... i thought she was asleep but then she turned around and stared at me. i could see that her eyes were open and then she said " i thought you where asleep" and i said: yeah me too. we had an awkward silence. my hair was in my face, so she put my hair behind my ears and then she just touched my cheeks. (all of my friends are always obsessed with my cheeks beause they are always pink and a Little chubby) then she just went to sleep. also, she ALWAYS hugs me and she treats me different tan other people, except for my other bestfriend who is also her other bestfiend, i am really jealous of her beacuse the bestfriend i love always wants to be with her (with me too) but mostly with her and i'm really starting to hate her. the bestfiend i like always keeps on asking me who i like, she really wants to know but i dont know if i should tell her because if she doesn't feel the same way about me this will just ruin our friendship. also i really want to kiss her. can someone please give me advice on how to kiss her, like how to know when to kiss her? example: i'm alone with her in my room and we're just talking, what can i do to get closer to her and make her know i want to kiss her without telling her, do i get closer to her and hug her or something? and if i SOULD tell her i like her, how do i tell her? please i really need help i also need advice. if you have anything to tell me just tell me i could really use any type of advice. thank you everyone.