Miss Lady

My son went out with friends and one of them bullied a girl for her bike. my son played no part in it but because he was with the bully he was also arrested. That was yesterday and my son is 14 with ADHD.

It was disturbing and very upsetting for me. i feel broken inside. I kept myself clear frm police and now Im involved of my son. i really regret letting him out to play with loosers . i hope i did the rite thing keeping him home for the day.

how do i go forward cuz at the moment i dont want to look or speak to him. Im ill as well. i raised him correctly and all my work wasted. ppl gonna think we are crap now cuz Im a single deaf mom . i dont want to be like other moms whose sons are no gd and married couples look dwn on me. they already do. i hates my life.

I never think highly of my friends . i just say they're ok. They helps sometimes but they dont make me laugh or even smile. i dont trust easily. I've had bad friendships before. i just wish i could think highly of them cuz they thought of me that way. only 2 friends.

do u think it's cuz of my past?

I feel so lost today. Ive lost some friends already cuz some of them weren't treating me well so i cut ties and i think i hate to admit i changed. I feel that nobody care about me and when they dont i dont care about me either. It's so hard trying to raise my self esteem. My sleep pattern is very bad and lost weight. I bought a Wii to combat my depression...it's not working. I eat very little too and Im 41.

I am still waiting for counselling . I bought a book on self esteem and i find it hard to get into it.

They say 40 is a new beginning. What a joke!

It seems that whenever I put myself out there, men don't want me. I don't act desperate, I just be mysql. The thing is although I want a boyfriend and the men who comes after me are ones that I can't stand like a guy with beard and just stared at me or the one who is rough looking and just ew! I am so fussy I tried not to be. Sometimes they already married or have a partner. I don't want their sides. I want a man to myself. And the guys I like don't want me, they go after someone like my sister who have a boyfriend, the ones who are nice looking, decent and friendly. Sometimes they go after my friend who is very big but then she is more fun than I am. I am 41.

Without putting myself down, I do feel that I am probably attracting ones who are just no good and i know i am not good looking either. I am very small build (not short thanks!) quiet and people says I am shy.

Everytime my male friend is online he never says Hi first. It's always me and when we start chatting he goes offline without saying bye.

This time I was online but waited for him to say Hi which he never do. It tells me he's not a friend after all. Im thinking of removing him frm m msn. I have no male friends left now.

I can't say he's a great guy cuz he's not. He was nice to his female friend and a bit horrible to me. I can't believe how stupid i am putting up with him. He knows i liked him alot. I must be desperate. Lol

I have difficulty getting close to anyone because everytime I open up, they abused my trust and took advantages of me. I don't have a best friend. I've had too many and they all let me down. Maybe it was me who sucked because they moved on and found new best friends/partners too. I am still left on the shelf by myself. Not nice.

I haven't dated for 5 years. The last guy really broke my heart but I would like to think I am over it but whenever I see him around with his partner, I gets a bit funny. Is this normal?

I would love to have a good close relationship with a man but how? In fact (lol) I can't imagine dating again because I don't really believe a man would love me.

If I were to date again, how do I have a close relationship with him?

I am just curious. How do friends have friends with benefits...my friend had one.

I don't have good friends who are fun, kind and understanding people to hang out with. All I have are friends who are either a mooch, insensitive, show off, men stealers and friends who don;t appreciate me. Whenever I hung out with them, I don't go home feeling good about myself. I am trying to stop being neg and moaning. I am trying to be happier so I can have a better life and for that to happen, I need friends who are nice, kind and friendly and make each others feel good.

Thing is I am on my own and it's difficult to hang out on my own. I don't think I'd ever have a decent boyfriend in my lifetime because they make me nervous and because of my bad experiences with men, I am not keen on having relationships even though I really want a boyfriend!

Are toxic friends worth keeping?

I know not many ppl like me and i dont know why but also i think i know why with some ppl. Im def not a horrible person but ppl dislike me so maybe i am.

Ppl dislike me more than i have friends. How do i cope?

I know not many ppl like me and i dont know why but also i think i know why with some ppl. Im def not a horrible person but ppl dislike me so maybe i am.

Ppl dislike me more than i have friends. How do i cope?

Got pains in my left leg. Not dull pains. More like pounding every now and then enuff for me to say oh! I haven't hurt my leg either so i know its not rite.

Got pains in my left leg. Not dull pains. More like pounding every now and then enuff for me to say oh! I haven't hurt my leg either so i know its not rite.

It's not dull pain. It just hurts every few mins. I wonder if it's not blood clot?

I dated 7 guys since i was 17. 3 of them said i was ugly and men wouldn't want me and 4 never says i was pretty or looked good when i was dressed up.

Does that means i am not pretty?

All my life i was bullied at school, college and at work. At age 22 that stopped. My mom used to choose her sisters and sister in law over me til i told her that i was her child and that i comes first. She heard me. My sister chose friends and men over me as well. All my ex boyfriends chose other girls over me too and even when i lliked him and thought he liked me he's found himself gf.

I thought what is wrong with me? I am feeling alot of anger cuz i am going thru it at 41. I am a single mom and i believe men dont want me cuz i am a single mom , maybe i am not pretty, i am not confident enuff or that i am boring or simply just want one thing.

I wish i could ask someone why but there's no one i cud trust.

My friend's boyfriend's best friend is never short of girlfriends. I dont fancy him but i caught him checking me out. I was shocked.

Next thing i know he's got himself a new girlfriend. I was disappointed. I was invited to dinner cuz he wanted to bring her to meet my friend and her bf. I declined. I find it too hard meeting ppl and their new partners. It makes me feel down cuz I've been single for a long time and once again i feel rejected.

If hearing guys and deaf guys cheated on me and they leave me for other girls there must be something wrong with me rite? Even my mom thinks i wouldn't meet a good man either. My friends never wanted me to meet a nice guy either.

I am fedup thinking of why! Im 41.

I am hard of hearing and many times I've dated hearing guys but those guys used me and didn't treat me well. Then i dated deaf guys and never found a good man. I wondered if it was me and friends and family said 'nothing wrong with u, it's them!'

I saw a friend who is so deaf and went with a hearing guy then had a boy together. He's 2 now. She and her partner are still together.

I realised there's something wrong with me cuz i couldn't even get a bf aft 5 years of being single. My friend was tall, very pretty, dressed well. Im little, got depression, dress ok.

Deaf ladies and hearing guys dont last do they?

I know there are ppl suffering alot worse than i have but Im so angry with him cuz he gave happiness to my sis and my bro with partners. Im always on my own as a stupid single mom. I hated the job cuz i am on my own. Having always to defend, fix things myself especially when Im ill. I also have depression including deafness and my boy have adhd. I've always wanted to be a graphic designer but i didn't get a job or any other jobs actually.

I've always believe in Jesus and never lost faith in him.

Im a good person but Im beginning to doubt it now cuz i dont have much friends. In fact the friends i once had were horrible or selfish ppl so i dumped them.

Why am i suffering all the time? I wanted to die many times! Im 41. Just the other day i actually gave up my other dream of meeting a gd man and be married.

My teen boy is 14. He told me that he pray that i die cuz he hates me and that Im dumb. It was horrible hearing him cuz actually i hated myself today and didn't want to be around in this life. I look at my boy and wished i hadn't had kids cuz it was too hard being a single with no bf and no job. I dont want sympathy and no need to be rude cuz i dont need it.

I woke up at age 41 realising i revolved my life around my child and gave up my dreams and just be there for him and he still says i hate u. I told him yesterday no computer today and he was on it while i slept. I dont have a social life and have depression and i believe i can be tough on him cuz he was a bit difficult at times despite his teen age and his adhd.

I guess that even if u say its normal.. I dont think so.