Huskyluvr

I want to change for someone. I want to be someone they enjoy to be around. Someone that they can look past the flaws of. Maybe there is some big flaw I have that they pretend I don't but are secretly annoyed by.

It's not really about romantic feelings because I can't identify what that feels like. It may be romantic. Who knows. Even if it was romantic I wouldn't want to make things awkward. Not only that but I don't want to put them in such a stressful situation.

I don't know what to change. Where do I start? What do they like about me? What if I change something they like?

Also, I know people say to "change for yourself", but I'm so flippant with my feelings toward myself that I would end up in an endless cycle of change!

I once lied about my feelings towards them which makes me feel like scum. I said I "used to" have a crush on them when I still do. I think that hurt them and I'm sorry.

I don't know what to do. Nothing about this is urgent. Just... What would someone normally do in this situation? No... What would be the best thing to do in this situation?

-Humanity will be forgotten when we all die-

If this is not a theme, is there any way I could reformat it to be one?

Thank you in advance

I love you lots and am looking forward to seeing you again.

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I'm not sure if I need to put another I before the am.

First of all, I am aware that this is something people self diagnose and get wrong. So be aware that the reason I'm asking this is to avoid that.

Okay now the explanation. I am a 13 year old girl. Who takes online classes. Since around 4th grade I've noticed I procrastinate, can't focus, and fidget constantly. But my parents don't really notice. So here I am, working in my online classes, and I realize that there is no possible way I can focus. I think I'm partially doing this to distract myself, but I honestly can't tell. I want to get diagnosed but at the same time, I don't want this to be just another kid reading too much into thinks. Ugh. Even now I can't stop tapping my foot. I also remember that when I was younger I always was extremely hyper. Not in a run around and get rid of energy way. More in a I won't stop randomly spouting out nonsense way. So problem

1: How can I be sure?

2:Am I looking into things too much?

3:How do I convince my parents to get me diagnosed?

4 Are things going to change if I get diagnosed (I don't want my parents or friends to think of me differently but at the same time its really hurting my grades and overall life.)

That's all thank you and so sorry for wasting your time.

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