Joy

I'm on medication and I have to wait two weeks to see a professional. In the mean time I've been getting better, but now it's worse. I'm in Colorado and the shooting has freaked me out because it happened at the same time when I was talking about sudden death. Coincidence, but still. And now everywhere there's the topic of sudden death and irrationality is taking over. I feel like my sudden death is soon and these are signs or whatever. I jolt awake when I'm about to sleep with that fear.

I know if I keep worrying I mine as well be dead, if I always think about and fear it I won't be able to live. It happens, so why worry, part of life. No matter how hard I try and reason, the fear and panic attacks wont leave.

He keeps drinking til he is drunk and ruining my life and I can't do anything about it because I made a promise to my mom and I simply can't hurt her. Sometimes he can't taste things. I know he would be fine but what could be the worst thing that would happen if he drank it, to make sure I didn't go too far.

I have a Canon PowerShot SX30 IS Black 14.1 MP 2.7" 230k LCD 35X Optical Zoom Digital Camera

I've tried all the buttons on the TV and AV setting to slow down the shutter to take in more light for certain shots and searched online for help. I must be doing something wrong. Can any one help?

Anyone know any depressing Gospel blues songs with powerful, sorta wailing vocals. Nothing upbeat but beautiful songs about death or such and with strong vocals and powerful emotional notes. Kinda ***** spirtual and blues Esq. sorry if this is confusing haha, it's 2AM

Ok so my dad borrowed 20 bucks. Which is fine, but he spent it on alcohol. If he spent it on tools or something it'd be fine.

My dad always "borrows'' money from me and my brother when he goes on his trips. He never pays back, so my mom covers for him. He got mad one day at me and said wow I thought this was between you and me. A gift, is it that hard. Do you need that money. So when he did it today he was like you are not allowed to tell your mother and came back with wine bottles.

I work for the money, he's retired. I feel guilty for my mom she hates drinking and he's buying stuff everyday now.

I feel angry and greedy, what do I do:/

I'm not allowed to confront him cause he is the man of the house.

or they added him or most likely both???? Like idk why it bothers me, well actually i do, im just a really really jealous person, but i try to control it. which it's going well so far. But he has us as his profile pic and all his status are about us, so that should be enough right? and it's been four months and we still are in the "honeymoon" stage and he says im the first girl he said I love you too, so i should be very very very grateful and he is the best bf i ever had. So idk is okay to ask, or will it make it sound like i don't trust him:/ it's just facebook right? and they are very pretty and im even really really attracted to some of them, so damn i don't blame him, but still

it's for my homework. I had to make a goddess or god for class and it had to represent something in this society, out off the junk we got, and i got a slutty kid's doll. I was gonna do vanity, but then that was taken by a few kids, so i went with goddesses of objectifying and whores( it's all in good fun), like how dudes objectify girls by the way they dress and if some girls get really mad about that fact, they shouldn't dress that way if they really didn't want guys to look at them in that way at anytime. it's gonna happen. so anyways it's about whores and girls who love to show it off and leave nothing to the imagination and how it's become accepted and shown at younger age. So what would be a good goddess /stripper name for her?

if so, do you have to think of something sad or you can just do it.

like let's say it's the way future and they wondered how people would live life in a different time period and they made it so elaborate that we feel pain and emotions so real. Like they temporary our memory in the machine and when we die, we wake up and gain our memories back and do a test on how we felt after wards and go home, but it all happens in 1-5 hours there and it feels like a lifetime now. what if? not likely but what if, it's all dream and we even fake dream in this dream? would you be happy or sad if this was all true.

do you ever wonder how some of it became the standard?

do you ever wonder how someone feels when they find out theirs wrong.

and in the state our world is in now, i mean seriously. this is the best, sure we made many awesome things and discovered so much, but all this hate. now i see why people got upset over avatar and not living in pandora, but that's why it's movie. fiction. we can only dream for now.

we got so use to it, and yeah we get sad about it, but it's become part of everyday life, like when you hear about a car crash or a drive by, and it doesn't affect directly, it's so easy to brush off, and we have to cause if we let every bad thing in the world get us down, we can't exactly live our lives the way we want without being sad.

it could be from something stupid, like you got the wrong brand of sauce, to something important, like a death. I just cried, i was watching this twin show and after 6 years these 2 little girls twins met, and they were so happy and the just connected even though they speak different languages, and then i cried when one had to go back to norway and they didn't want to leave each other, they were crying and saying i love you in Norwegian and english. it was so sad to see them separated...again.

but forgot it later