annaelle

i went to bed late the other night like i usually do.. and when i woke up early yesterday, i know i had a dream that i cannot remember. then went back to bed and i dreamed of a few people i don't know. in my dream, I'm friends with this girl (friend A) that is about 3 years older than me and she likes a guy (friend B) that's my age. and I guess i know the guy so i set them up for a date even though I'm aware that, that guy likes someone else, but even though he does he was so conceited he never admits liking anybody.

now there was this other girl (friend C) who confessed falling in love with me because of what i did for my friend (friend A) and though i told her that I am straight she still went on and on about how wonderful things would be if we start dating. i didn't mind hangin out with her since we don't do anything intimate and we're always with her other friends. then once she invited me to come with her to the church nearby my house for a vigil. i went with her and her friends and it seems like she's always attending stuff like that because she knew one of the old ladies that volunteers in there that were introduced to me. in my dream i told the lady that i don't feel comfortable being there since I'm a 'lesbian' (i don't remember which part of the dream I finally admitted that I'm a lesbo), but she said it's okay. so I sat with the old ladies on the other side of the church, across from where the girl (friend C) sits. then all of a sudden the lady stood up, gave me a nasty look and yelled "you do not belong here!" then the crowd was in panic and was racing to the door, and so that's what i did too. i ran towards the opposite direction of where they were going to avoid her(friend C). as i was getting out of there i don't know how but she was already outside waiting for me. she said she was waiting and she wanted to talk to me so i pulled her in a spot where there's not much people and told her "this is not gonna work out, i think we shouldn't see each other anymore" she started crying and asking questions i couldn't remember anymore. the next thing i know was she hung onto my shoulders, pulled me close and kissed me three times, and then i pulled away and left. i remembered feeling awful not because i broke up with her but because she was really hurt and i am the reason behind it. (it felt like it was real when i woke up). and then after that in my dream i was walking down the street when i spotted some of our neighbors sitting in a car and under the car was a couple of packs of open cigarettes, then i sat right by it and took about 4 tablets from a pill bottle that was in my purse, picked up the cigarettes and started walking towards my house. what's funny is my house is only 5 houses away and in my dream i remember walking in the dark for a long time and then i woke up.

see i tried looking up the interpretations to this dream the whole day yesterday, (and its already 1:53 in the morning now) but there are many random things that happened in my dream so the interpretations just don't add up, or they just don't make any sense. I don't stick my nose in any of my friend's relationships, i am not looking for a new relationship and i am definitely not a lesbian or somewhat interested in girls. I have no doubts about my sexual preference and i am in a relationship with a great guy for twenty five months now. but this dream out of all my weird dreams bugs me.. so if anyone out there can figure a good interpretation, i would really appreciate it.